05/11-

DAY 5 OF THE WEEK -DAY 160



I’m reading a different daily devotional guide, have been reading it since May 1. Its called ‘the Upper Room’ and seems very good. Still, like ‘Our Daily Bread’ it never focuses on Zion or the greatest commandment.



Oh, help me God. Dad says that if I talk to his best friend's father, I’ll believe that what Mark tells me is nuts like Dad believes. Dad Told me I’m too sick mentally to work with Mark on any books. Dad told Mark not to talk with me about religion



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anymore. Mark promised Dad he wouldn’t, though the other day he kinda did. But I want to help Mark keep any promises he made to Dad, so I can’t call him anymore, at least until Dad is sure my mental illness is cured. Lord, heal me. Make me whole, Jesus. I need Mark to help me examine the usefulness of my ‘Discovery Series’ booklets, and the usefulness of all of RBC’s booklets and resources.



GOOD NEWS! I just gave my rough outline of my Zion booklet to Mark. He also got two of my ‘discovery series’ booklets,



‘Knowing God Through Revelation’ and ‘The Message of the Prophets: Muhammed and the Messiah. Hopefully, Mark’ll work on our booklet, ‘What is Zion?’



If what Mark says is true, then we should spread the word and create our own ministry. But not make sure we can get help from and possibly corroborate with, RBC? It’s a big goal, I know. But with RBC’s help, we can start the flow of real truth that will overtake the world as if by flood.



By the way, if Mark and I can pull this-[The rest of this entry is lost until Mags restores it to me.-BLSKV]





I didn’t comprehend it at the time but i was full of zeal for my new beliefs and followed Mark who would in time lead me astray. Mark’s beliefs were good, or most of them, but he did not practice what he preached at all. His female mentor and caretaker when he first lived in Missouri, a spiritual Jezebel, led him astray when he was in Zion but even before he went to Zion he had unsolvable problems and he was very naughty in his practical living standards. His philosophy of life was very worldly and it didn’t seem like his female mentor helped any.



When I tried giving the booklets to Mark in my embryonic state of belief they were intercepted by my parents, who were concerned for me, knowing Mark’s badness, and Dad not sharing his beliefs on top of that. Mark never saw the booklets during that time as far as I know but I may have showed them to him later during my life. Eventually when I came of age and moved to Grandma’s house Mark got hold of me. He used the truth of the Gospel as bait for his false teaching of the nudity doctrines. He did teach me some valuable things however. He taught me that all things were created spiritually before they were created physically. He taught me that the earth was hollow and that the centre was inhabited (hell, Abraham’s bosom, and the Nephilim and Nazis are down there, and perhaps small righteous pockets of civilization, little lights in a dark false light of an inner-world) (God chided people in the Bible for “digging into the earth”). He taught me that baptism for the dead was by proxy, which even Joy did not believe, and because Joy didn’t believe it neither did I until I saw that baptism for the dead was by proxy in RLDS Church History volume II. But most importantly he taught me the basics of the Gospel and the church, and I came to belief gradually from the time I was in high school until the year 2003, and in the year 2003, made my final decision to believe, come what may. Later, after visiting Zion and returning, meeting true Saints, my Testimony was stronger. Dad told me that within two years I would deny the Book of Mormon and two years later to the day I stood up in the congregation of the Israel’s Gathering Restoration Branch as a baptized and confirmed member and declared the truthfulness of the book that Joseph Smith translated in 1829. –(B.L.S.)



It was after November 15, 2003 that I began again to believe in the fullness of the Gospel, after I stopped believing in it after 2000 AD-(B.L.S. 09/16/2018 AD) [Mark's mentors raised Mark as an adult when he had used to live in Zion. My uncle (not Mark) calleth the female caregiver and mentor ‘a Jezebel’. 06-25-2019 AD -B.L.S.]