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Admin · 9/09/2023 9:05 pm

08.18--
THOR'S DAY

I have been typing DIARY 07-PART II and watching How The West Was Won Season 1 Episode 1 and 2 for many hours now, and I also typed DIARY 06.
Rick bought me an X-tra Large Dr. Pepper. I sat and drank it out on my front porch, petting Gandalf, hoping Maggie would show up for I had set a date for her to arrive many months ago, but she did not.

"Disappointments meet us, tempting us to stray"- from the hymn, Never Be Discouraged.

I really like, How The West Was Won
.

Although I messed up last night (the early morning of the seventeenth) I feel this (the eighteenth) is a new beginning for me, and feel clean and justified.

But, O Lord, am I?
I have begged forgiveness, (in public and private) and my computer has been anointed to not work if I mess up on it. And the last porn video I watched is the last one I EVER want to see.

My life is a struggle but somehow I manage to achieve joy, and joy is an emotion that is a fruit of the Spirit and a gift of God. I have joy in my heart every day even on the days I am sick, lonely, heartsick and depressed, and hopelessly addicted!

I believe Pastor Pete lifted the curse from off my website.

Dear Diary, I feel joy right now, and the Holy Spirit is in my heart. The things I did write and type today filled my heart with joy.

The Show I watched today gave me some joy, but the soda I drank made me a little happy.

My sleep and dream thoughts made me miss my biological mom Edith.

Earlier I felt the Holy Spirit as Mom told me, "I am with you."

4:31 AM I took a cold shower, putting my clothes in my dirty clothes bag and lying on my bed drying off and resting for a while, got up, checked my VoiceMail on my phone, and am about to brush and floss my teeth. Earlier tonight I washed my dishes, rinsed out my sponge with cold water, and put it beneath my kitchen sink. Also I called Pete and took my pills with him on the other side of the phone last night.

5:07 AM I put on clean clothes and brushed and flossed. Now I'm ready to go to bed.

5:26 AM I can't sleep for three reasons:

-1 The Dr. Pepper.
-2 I slept all day yesterday
-3 My phone notifications at all hours of the night are keeping me up. I expect each one to be Maggie.

Now I'm listening to a Dream Big Sadie Robertson Hu... podcast Episode 20: Derek Carr on Faith on The High Note by Tauren Wells, on Access More smartphone app.

When I'm pushy, sometimes like a cow, I just don't realize I have horns.

I need to continue making my podcasts that I started several months ago. I forgot what website I was using even. I stopped because the second podcast I tried making never got recorded.

6:12 AM I got on A Level Playing Field on PalTalk. We're having a lively discussion.

I read an excerpt from The Case For Christ by Lee Stroebel to atheist Conroy1299 and prayed that it would get into his heart. It was evidence for the Resurrection of Jesus Christ.

9:03 AM I made a Video on my Brent Koivopolo YouTube account called Uno Card Party and RAID Shadow Legends Gameplay 8/18/2022. It should be up soon.

12:33 PM Colt got his jaw fractured in three places and had surgery where they put two metal plates in his jaw. He feels a lot better.

Pastor Pete came here before 10 AM and fixed my glasses with a mini screwdriver. Praise God for these things!

3:44 PM I took a five-hour nap and ate and started watching, How The West Was Won Season 1, Episode 3, continued.

I had a sex u al fantasy about being married to Maggie while I took my nap, which I begged God for forgiveness for twice.

Ken told me that I need to wait 'til Maggie marries me before I can have sex with her, and that even when I am married to her, it would be wrong to continue to have sex u al fantasies about Maggie because it is an image of Maggie that I am fantasizing about. He says I need to wait for her, she'll come to me after she knows I've been off porn for a while, then she will marry me.

4:53 PM How The West Was Won Season 2, Episode 1 is beginning. The Russians want to hunt buffalo near the sacred Black Hills Mountains, which the Sioux Nation claim to be the home of their Gods, and the U.S. Army wants Zeb Mcahan to guide them, which he refuses to do because the hundred head of buffalo the Russians want to hunt is what will keep the remaining Indians alive this Winter.

10:53 PM I messed up on my Tubi App today, showered, changed my clothes, ate and streamed PalTalk and RAID: Shadow Legends.

When I Skyped Pastor Pete he was in bed. I told him my glasses popped out again. He said he'd look at it tomorrow.

Admin · 9/09/2023 9:05 pm

08/19--
FRIDAY

Pastor Pete, his mother and Jo's sister took me to Walmart to get my glasses fixed today. Pastor Pete told me he hopes I live because I have a lot to learn about life-we all do-and I still have a lot of work to do. He instructed me to take Vitamin C and agreed I should take a Multivitamin (that has Zinc and Vitamin D) and instructed me to eaqt soup and get bedrest.

1:20 PM I ate chicken noodle soup, now I'm going back to bed, streaming.

5:52 PM Last night I washed dishes and fed Gandalf. Back to bed.

8:26 PM I spent most of the day in bed. I had a peanutbutter and jelly sandwich earlier and now am making macaroni and cheese as I stream and do a multibattle on RAID: Shadow Legends. Rn I'm boiling water on my stove.

Admin · 9/09/2023 9:05 pm

08/20--
SABBATH

I did not feed Gandalf or do my dishes last night, but let them soak.

At 1:36 PM, a few minutes after I woke up, I put dish soap in the water that is in the soaking dishes and ran water in the dish soap to make suds.

After that I ate prunes, tortilla chips and took Vitamin C, Zinc and Vitamin D and other Vitamins then ate Garden Vegeable Rice, as I continued to stream IHOP-KC without sound, on closed captioning.

I considered writing another fictional Diary about Maggie and I but decided against it.

At 2:12 PM I went back to bed.

At 5:22 PM I got up, wrote in my Diary, watched videogames on YouTube and typed my Diary after going to the bathroom. Then I took my pills and went back to bed.

At 8:10 PM or aroundabouts, I got up and installed Adaware on my gaming/streaming hp laptop but I just can't seem to block any of the dirty ads on 1movieshd.com, even with Adaware Safe Browser. I'm at a loss. That was the whole reason I installed Adaware in the first place.

O Lord, I cannot in good conscience show Star Wars shows to my Online friends with these dirty pop-up ads showing up.

Guardio for Chrome works much better. It's a popup blocker. Thank You for answering my prayers O Lord!

But it did not work either. I prayed for God to keep the dirty ads away.

Realizing there was no way to keep the dirty ads away, I gave up and tried bitchute.com, but they have been busy on bitchute deleting movies like they do on YouTube, and TPM is no longer up there, nor is the bitchute user that had uploaded it.

10:00 PM CDT Yipee! I found a substitute! A fan reaction by Fatmanfalling to The Phantom Menace.
So You did answer my prayers, you just found another way to do it.
Praise Your Heavenly Name for ever!

11:37 TPM is over. I'm not showing any more movies or shows tonight.

I need to feed the cat and wash my dishes.

Admin · 9/09/2023 9:06 pm

08/21--
LORD'S DAY

I fed Gandalf and washed my dishes.

I attempted to go to bed streaming. I did spirtual warfare but I got tempted by Tubi and gave into Satan's temptations.
Then I had the choices in porn between watching God killing which was turning out to be a blasphemous program, or jail or death or underage (high school girls), sex slaves, or Tarot and other abominations, and I watched Maverick instead, not the movie but the old black and white show.

Bret Maverick is a gambler, and I gamble with my life each time I look at porn.

The old drunk vagrant who 'was a judge from the moment I met you-I'm glad that now we made it official'; gave up his drink when he got responsibility.

Maverick is also a lawyer.

'The Apex Law' You can follow an ore vein even if it leads under the holdings of another person.

The enemy, Phineas King, tempted the judge with drink and $100,000. But the judge did not give in.

Next the enemy flooded the mines so the workers couldn't mine the mines.

This made the villagers angry at Maverick because he started it all.

Bret Maverick is also a skilled orator and politician.

He is also a brilliant negotiator.

War of the Silver Kings was a brilliant Episode.
The real war was the War of the Copper Kings.
(See Research Module 1 Thread: The Apex Law.)

My smartphone is at 47% charge.

5:34 AM The angel who played Obi-Wan Kenobi came to me and told me that the level of the Force that I used to push the piece of trash into the garbage can was a base level, not the very power of God, and not witchcraft either, that the Force has many levels as the Kybylion teaches. He said the more I do good the more good will tug at me and the more I do evil the more evil will tug at me. He said I spend way too much time watching Star Wars and not enough time feasting on the Words of Christ; that I value my own entertainment more than sitting at my desk or or on my table or on my couch reading old familiar words that will have a far greater effect on me than new Scriptural material, or than listening to it, to paraphrase generally.
He told me I had the Holy Spirit of Promise.
He told me that he had lived many lives before he had been saved and many lives since, but he has always learned.
He softened my heart by the power of God, which had been hardened by the deceitfulness of sin.

The angel actor came to me after an unneccessary second round of spiritual warfare, that was the result of my sin.

Obi-Wan told me when I realized that the Faith is the First Great Governing Matchless power which has dominion over all things, I have discovered the key to using the Force.

It is 5:47 AM and my phone has 100% charge.

6:46 AM When I woke up, from bed, I was caught in a twist-a-twist web-a-loop of words and realities that I used my walking stick weapon and prayer to extricate myself from. It was very scary.

Maggie is close to me now but doesn't like me fawning over her (per what God told me).

Last night I had a dream and one of the only relevant parts was that I asked Maggie two questions:
Are you still mad at me because of the past.
Her answer: A little.
Would you consider going out with me in the future?
Her answer: Yes.

Admin · 9/09/2023 9:06 pm

08/22--
YOM SHANI

Today I made myself useful to society and applied for Casey's in Oak Grove, MO, after asking RLDS Brother Daniel what it was like to work there. He said he cashiers, keeps the tobacco products stocked, cleans the bathrooms sometimes and changes the trash. I didn't think that sounded too hard to do. Rn I'm watching Minecraft.

Daniel also told me that the night shift is expected to mop the floor.

Rn I'm going to go on a 1 quarter year Bible reading plan.

Today: Genesis 1-7 IV
RLDS I Nephi 1
RDC 1
LDC 2

If I can get all that done by Midnight tonight I'll reward myself by watching The Rise of Skywalker again from 12 AM-2AM, then going to bed.
But first I need to eat supper.
I know! I'll have macaroni and cream of Chicken soup. I'll eat it as I'm reading Genesis 1-7.

I had a dream that someone handed me my old RUI It's Personal Daily Journal back. I think that means it's time to get back into doing it.

Last night I took a shower and changed my clothes.

I still need to feed Gandalf and wash my dishes.

I already took my pills.

I slept most of today away.

Rick bought me a Dr. Pepper again, only needing to contribute $1.00 this time.

I got no mail today.

11:51 PM I got the reading assignment done with 9 minutes to spare! Time to watch The Rise of Skywalker!

I am worth the change, worth whatever effort it takes to make the change.

Old shame and old way of thinking, you have to go!

'Oh dear. I'm starting to look pretty good. But if I look good, bad things may happen to me again' is an illogical thought.

Hunger, stress, hurt, worry, embarrassment- find a new way to recognize and respond to these feelings.

Learn instead to feel the value God gave me when he created us.

I will always fight those feelings, but I need more insight and wisdom about my relationship to technology, O Lord!, to train me to pause before that click, that second look, that lustful thought-dwelling, that desire for a sex u al dream, and ask myself, 'do you really want to do that, Brent?' Amen.

The Edge of The Divine, Sandi Patty, pp. 56-66.
The Trail of Lost Time, pp. 1-7, 10-11, 57-58, 61, 63-64.
E. A. Montgomery

Earlier today I washed my dishes and fed Gandalf before I read the Scriptures.

2:20 AM The Rise of Skywalker is over.

Beowolf: A New Translation, Maria Dahvana Headley, pp. 28-33.

Admin · 9/09/2023 9:07 pm

08/23--
YOM SHLISHI

4:09 AM I couldn't sleep so I got up to type Diaries until I feel sleepy again.

Spiritual warfare would have kept me up anyways.

It was starting to come on.

7:53 AM
I got a little bit of sleep.
I typed a lot of DIARY V and a little of Diary 06. I added quite a bit to both.
I'm waiting for Haley to come over.

I need her to take me down to Joy's to pick up a Utility Bill and 20.00 (I owe eighteen) to get my non-real ID compliant MO non-Driver's License renewed so that it's still non-real ID compliant and valid, with the correct address on it.
We are not going job hunting as we had supposed because I now desire to work at Casey's, and will, for now, take Pastor Pete's advice that Taco Bell may not be the right job for me.

8:02 AM
I'm going to begin my day with 6 Chapters of Scripture.

Genesis 8-11 IV
RLDS I Nephi 2
RLDS DC 2. I'm going to give myself 'til 12 Noon to complete this task, and if I do, reward myself with Clone Wars Season 3, from wherever in that Season I left off and where I left off in Rebels Season 1.

First I will eat a bowl Tasteeos then off I go on the reading trek.

9:38 AM

After I read Genesis 8-11:1-5 IV, Haley came over, took me to Joy's and we got what I think is a valid Utility Bill. Then Haley dropped me off at home and at Joy's I downloaded and installed Microsoft Teams because I have a virtual interview on Teams with Casey's on August 25 @ 10:45 AM, that I am to show up 10 minutes early for on my phone. Teams is like Zoom. (Virtual video phone).

On September 1, 2022, Haley and I plan to go to Joy's and pick up $18.00 and my Social Security card and then go to Independence and get my ID renewed.

10:15 AM
I finished my reading assignment with an hour and forty-five minutes to spare.

11:43 AM
I watched about 4 Episodes of Star Wars The Clone Wars Season 3 that I had not seen before, and now I am watching Return of the Jedi. I streaming them as I watching them.

2:13 PM

I messed up because I chose to drink soda and contract evil spirits from the soda and staying up all night and the spirits put on a sex show for me in my mind and I yielded to the enemy and watched porn.

I took a shower and changed my clothes and continued my stream of Return of the Jedi after I cast the familiar spirit(s) out of me.

6:47 PM CDT I created the discord Broadcasting platform CHANNEL BRENT, and as I broadcast Star Wars Episode 12: Rise of the Jedi, I finished reading the Gold Key Star Trek Comic Archive Volume 1.
Tomorrow I am going to Pastor Pete's church.
He should be back in town and he can take me to the library to take the Star Trek Comic Book back after church. It is due on the 25'th, the day after tomorrow.

The cat is a female according to my neighbor. So she is Galadriel.

7:39 PM
Star Wars Episode 12 is over. Now I'm going to broadcast UHF, a Weird Al Movie that I think is hilarious.

8:22 PM
I'm visiting Rick. I left UHF Streaming at home.

9:13 PM
I helped Rick change the battery in his phone.

10:17 PM

Intake: Two cups chocolate milk; one cup grape juice; one square dark chocolate.

Now I am playing Diary Projects and RAID Mid July-PART 2 on Brent Koivopolo V voice channel on CHANNEL BRENT

Intake: Several gulps of tapwater; 2 Depakotes 1000 MG; 1 Risperidone 4 MG; water; 1 bowl of macaroni and cheese; water

Admin · 9/09/2023 9:08 pm

08/24--
WEDNESDAY

Intake: Water; water; water; 2 Depakote 1,000 MG; 1 Risperidone 4 MG; 1 cup Dr. Pepper; 2 Apple Turnovers; 1 cheeseburger; 1 small fry.

I streamed the YouTube video 'Using what used to be the most OP hero in BF2!' and 'Star Wars Battlefront 2-The CRAZIEST Darth Maul rampage in BF2! That was an amazing hallway scene!' both by YouTuber AnarchYxNinja.
After that I am broadcasting The Testaments of One Fold and One Shepherd (2000) by YouTuber HardToFindMormonVideos.
After that I streamed Bible Collection: Esther (2000) Full Movie | F. Murray Abraham | Louise Lombard | Jurgen Prochnow by VisionVideo

Intake: water.

Admin · 9/09/2023 9:09 pm

08/25--
THURSDAY

Intake: Water.

discorder Jacki or Noobist crafter on The Crew Server created a channel for me on The Crew Server and gave me the roles of Sleep Stream and Director! Thank You, Father, for these blessings. Amen.

I broadcasted Star Wars Episode I: The Phantom Menace on Brent's Channel on The Crew.

Intake: Cream of Celery Soup and macaroni.

11:02 AM My interview went well. If I don't hear from Friday by Tuesday about her hiring decision, go back to the Casey's careers website to see Friday's hiring decision.

I am streaming SW Episode II: Attack of The Clones on Brent's Channel on The Crew.

Intake: 1 pouch Uncle Ben's Jasmine Ready Rice; 4 prunes; 1 cup almond milk; water.

After AOTC on Brent's Channel on The Crew: Clone Wars 2003 Volume 1, and some random YouTube videos as I slept.

I got no mail today.

I made a new channel on CHANNEL BRENT tonight, Minecraft.
The first thing I broadcast on it was a Minecraft Beginner's Guide by Capp00, then part 2, made a few years later. Next I broadcast Minecraft-Back To Basics-Part 3 by Capp00, not a continuation of the previous two.

5:45 PM I broadcast Minecraft-Back to Basics-Part 4 by Capp00., made in 2013 on November 18.
6:01 PM Now Part 5.

Intake: 1 peanutbutter and strawberry preserves sandwich.

6:13 Now Playing: Part 6.

I got stopped there because the stream went black. I reported the issue.

Intake: Water; 2 Depakote 1,000 MG; 1 Risperidone 4 MG; 1 can sliced peaches; peach juice.

I streamed The Complete Life of Oddball on Star Wars voice channel on CHANNEL BRENT by MetaNerdz

Admin · 9/09/2023 9:09 pm

08/27--
SABBATH-DAY AFTER FRIDAY

Yesterday I spent the entire day in bed, streamed a few movies and a show, went and ate and slept at Rick's and talked to Rick, and chatted with people on discord.

It's 12:25 AM. I went to bed early. I'm going back to bed now.

4:26 PM

I went over to Rick's to use the phone. I called David Strahan for a ride to Church tomorrow. I'm about to call Pastor Pete to report a day and a night of purity and to tell him my phone won't charge.

6:18 PM I Skyped Pastor Pete; showed him me setting up and taking my pills.

I've been in bed all day. I got no mail today.

6:50 PM I did not get the job

Admin · 9/09/2023 9:19 pm

08.28--
LORD'S DAY-DAY BEFORE YOM SHANI, AFTER SABBATH-THREE DAYS BEFORE WEDNESDAY

My phone is charging! Pastor Pete gave me a new USB charger. It works with the same cord I was using. It is 50% charged!

7:54 PM My phone is 100% charged!

I went to Pastor Pete's church in the morning; the Bates City RLDS Church in the evening. Paul Ludy gave me a ride there. Howard gave me a ride home.

I didn't get much done today.

8:00 PM

I took my pills.

8:20 PM

I washed my dishes.

Indian Trail, R.A. Montgomery pp. 1-5, 8-10, 26-27.

I watched a YouTube video about kachinas and a Hopi prophecy, streamed and played RAID: Shadow Legends.

I got a little bit of Father James Sheeran's Diary typed today. I finished two entries.
I spent about two hours on PalTalk.

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