2023

05/30--
TUESDAY

"You only get out of this life what you put into it."-Chris Rock.

I deleted an evil Diary of Lies that Satan tempted me to keep.

Doubtless satan wanted me to keep my 243'rd Diary going interminably too.

But my 2022 Diary is based on a Vision I had during Pentecost Sunday so I will keep doing that project.

                                   6:52 AM
      I started the day looking at porn, then asked God's forgiveness, then curled up on my couch, withdrawn into myself, feeling dirty.

Then I cast lots as to whether I should keep up with my Media Tracker Book.   The lot fell on, or I drew 'It's stewardship. Keep on.'

"Fight your battles with prayer, and win your battles through faith"- Bible App on my phone.

I fantasized and daydreamed a lot about what I think the future may hold for me and Maggie today.  I believe it was a bit more realistic than most fanciful fantasies I cook up in my head.

I'm at the Methodist church right now.  My appointment begins in about 50 minutes.  I'm inside the foyee out of the hot sun, with water.

I was a little worried about the weather today.  Yesterday a Thunderstorm was forecast for today, and early this morning on my bike I saw lightning light up the sky, but now it's a bright sunny day with no lowering dark cloud cover, just white clouds that are very high up.

I'm very happy today that God spared me today and gave me another day to get it right.

I'm a little trepidatious about the debt ceiling negotiations and possible work requirements for people in my age bracket to receive benefits.
     That is What a lot of my earlier fantasy was about, a big 'what if' scenario based upon the way I understand things, at the present.

Tracy is in a Bible study now that should be over by noon.

Forgive me, Father for writing that wretched 'fictional Diary.'
Two movie titles on a phone App warned me, and lots confirmed it, as well as a sense of conviction.

  I wrote chapter 2 of 'Kid in a Big City' and held the door open for two adults who both had both hands completely full.  Praise God you put me there to help them! Amen!

    Tracy cancelled our appointment and rescheduled it for 11 AM tomorrow morning (Wednesday).  The weather is supposed to be sunny and nice.

  The cat is running out of catlitter to do his business in and I don't want to give him that non-clumping Clay stuff.
        Just two more days and I can buy him another  bottle of catlitter.  If I get SSI, that is.

I made it home in a half hour.

                    4:05 PM
      My current EBT Food Stamp Balance ist $61.24-----Better watch that!

   I'm making a YouTube video right now.
I sent my friend Ian a link to it and posted it on The Crew's promotion Channel and to  my followers via Nerdhalla Network and on Nerdhalla Network.  I hope Maggie is watching.

If she is, she must have missed me streaming all the time.  I had taken a HUGE break from  doing so.

But from now on, I will only stream during the day time (I had BETTER stream at night. It keeps me straight), just like on The Crew Server.

.The Bible says that there have to be disagreements in the church so that those approved of God will be manifest.  somebody's wrong.  There must be divisions. - Man on PalTalk.

                                                 11:19 PM
At the top left hand corner of my bathroom doorframe there was a red glowing light demon I woke up to see.  I told it to leave in the name of Jesus Christ, that I was done with pornography and that was final.  I told it to go out of my air conditioner window.  It left.

I wanted Reese's cups and peanut butter crispy bars.  God said, say no! If I can say no to Reese's, I can say no to porn'. he said.

I read a passage out of Rich Rupe's book God's Plan of Salvation, or part of one, and God convicted me that I shouldn't overrely on casting lots.  'What about asking me, what about TALKING TO ME?" he rebuked me.

I made a YouTube video about this, then shut down my computer for the night, and charged my phone.

I checked the weather on NOAA Weather radio before bed.  The Thunderstorm is over.  It was big and loud.

After I slept for a while, the demons manifested in different colors, and I cried out to God for help and the demons chased me into my living room.

It is 2:19 AM.  I turned my computer on.

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