04/10--
MONDAY

   Maggie came, but left my doorstep because she remembered there was something she forgot to bring.  She'll be back soon.

   Today at 9:00 AM Haley and I will likely be calling Social Security to see about me becoming my own Payee.  While we're waiting for them to answer our call, we will be watching Star Wars: Episode I: The Phantom Menace.

  Haley left during the scene where Qui-Gon was telling the Queen they need to land on Tatooine.
      They never picked up.

     My next appointment with Haley is 10 AM on Monday, April 17. Social Security will be calling me around 11:31 AM on Tuesday, April 18.

  Your conscience can be your guide if you grow your conscience properly with Truth, God, Courage and Reason.  Most  people cannot be properly guided by their conscience. Most immoral people who do terrible things don't lose sleep over it.  They are also guided by their conscience.  The conscience is easily manipulated and malleable like putty.-Paraphrased from Dennis Prager.

     At 2:07 PM, after a long nap, I started streaming Solo: A Star Wars Story on Everything Star Wars discord server.

   First you set the Standard, then you raise the bar.-bigdfromthehoosierstate "Rice Dee", on TikTok - The Golden Pop show.

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First Report: 1-I took my pills.
2-I had some Moutain Dew Code Red and a 20 oz of Coke today before 5.
3- Leia is not in Andor. Her name is Kleya. The one helping Luthen Rael in disguise tend the shop/museum on Coruscant.
4-I no longer believe that men or I shall one day become big G God's, but only small g which agrees with the Bible and Doctrine and Covenants.
5-I love you and God bless you-Brent Sohlden
6-Rick calls me William Brent
7-Maggie who showed up on my doorstep this morning then left, calls me Brently
8-God calls me Ben-Ach which in Hebrew is Son-friend
9-Unfortunately I was impure once last night with pornography.
10-I had had at least two or three days and nights previous of Victory.
11-I need to learn how to fight the devil back and win instead of giving in.
12-I'll call you tomorrow morning. Hopefully you can do my laundry.
13-I have an appointment with Tracy Wednesday April 12 at2 PM. Hopefully you can take me.
14-Meanwhile I may call the CSL and see if I can volunteer there next week.
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   Spring

04/13--
THURSDAY

       I washed some of my dishes today.  I had three showers recently; at least two today.

            Last night, after Prayer meeting, I went out to McDonald's with Rick, Cindy and Bobbie, then to Walmart with Rick, Cindy and Jo's sister.  I didn't get anything at Walmart.

Rick and I visited Cindy's apartment briefly last night.  We saw Beverly's firework lights.

   Today I cleaned out Gandalf's catbox, and freshened it.

  Gandalf got a lot of time in the sun today.

 Yesterday I saw my counselor, Tracy.  It was a good session.

Mosiah 8:1-69 RLDS BoM.

I'm watching a video about the Didache by someone who doubts the veracity of the Scriptures, the Sacred Texts.

04/16--
LORD'S DAY

   Ezekiel 23:39 For when they had slain their children to their idols, then they came the same day into my sanctuary to profane it; and, so, thus have they done in the midst of mine house.

  I did not go to Church today.

I called Paul Ludy and asked him for the missing verse of 'I Have Found The Glorious Gospel .'
 This morning I woke with 'It is well, It is well, with my soul' ringing in my head, and I then listened to 'Love Moved First' on YouTube Music and had true and genuine repentance.

     I got angry because I lost my gmail account and thought I broke my piano keyboard and yelled at my neighbor and accidentally threw a pillow at a picture of Jesus, aiming for the wall, but knocking the picture of Jesus to the floor.
 

04/18--
TUESDAY

 1:27 AM     For the past couple of hours I have been engaged in spiritual warfare. 1:38 PM     My telephone interview, which was a couple minutes after 11:31 AM, went great!  They want me to go down to the bank and open up my own bank account and my application to become my own Payee has been formally filed.     Tomorrow I need to open up a bank account.                                                             I visited my friend Rick today and told him the good news.       I spent a little time on TikTok today, and I visited with my neighbor Steve a bit.   There was a guy on The Crew on discord whom I thought was a girl and that I thought was Maggie who told me point blank he wasn't Maggie. Only later in the day did I learn he was a guy so couldn't possibly be by any stretch of the imagination.   I saw a rainbow fidget spinner or pinwheel on the ground on my walk today.     6:19 PM CDT     Me to Jacki 5:45 PMblsohlden — Today at 12:28 AM
Stress. You must be going through so much stress right now. I know what it's like. But I don't feel it yet like you do because you have a lot of responsibility
[12:29 AM]
I thought a girl was someone I knew because her personality was similar to what I had imagined her personality to be. Turns out I was wrong. Arson Cat is not Maggie.
[12:29 AM]
Maggie (the real one) did show up on my doorstep the other day. However I was too slow to open the door and she left.
[12:30 AM]
I have been a hypocrite and prideful sometimes. Job 20 something convicted me of my hypocrisy and a part of a book I read brought me into the depths of humility, reminding me of way I've been prideful.
[12:31 AM]
I asked God to forgive me for my sins in dust and ashes on my face before Him
[12:31 AM]
And last night I went through about two hours of spiritual warfare
[12:32 AM]
How has your life been? Right now, until 7:30 when Rick will take me out to Subway to eat supper with him there, I'm watching Right Now Media gospel talks by a man about 6 pop philosophies that affect us the most.(All wrong). 1.) Whenever God closes a door, He opens a window. The truth: God opens doors.  He closes doors.  When he closes a door, he may open another one, but he certainly does not always.  Trials, troubles, heartache and pain make us more like Jesus.  God does make ways, but sometimes He will allow us to endure our wilderness times. Hebrews 11:36-38.Proverbs 3:5-6. Trust Him.  Entrust our lives to Him.  Know the Lord intimately. (With the Heart) Psalm 9:10 Those who know Your Name will trust in You. Knowing Him comes from spending time with Him in prayer and in His Word. Continue to have faith when He closes doors. Response:  I prayed that God would open some doors in my life concerning friends and helping people and that He would give me new, progressive thinking friends. I prayed that God would close every door that shouldn't be open in  my life and that He would shake everything in my life that needs to be shaken. 2.) You're never more safe than when you're in the will of God. Truth: Sometimes the most dangerous place you can be is in the will of God. 2 Corinthians 11:25-28   We've bought in to the idea that Christians are not supposed to have trials or hardships. But it's a lie. Matthew 10:16-19 (KJV) (ESV)(14-22 IV) Luke 14:26-33 (ESV) (KJV) (26-34 IV) Broken by your circumstances, feeling sorry for yourself- not the way to live, not how Paul lived.When Paul signed up to follow Jesus, he was signing up for a battle. In premarital counseling, when going into marriage, when expectations are up here and reality down here, there is a frustration gap going into marriage. Expectations must match reality.

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04.24--

MONDAY



4:25 AM CDT I heard a knock again but there was nobody there. I thought I heard someone running away but when I investigated it was just a man throwing trash away in the dumpster.



​I watched Sherlock Holmes: The Speckled Band before going to bed around 6 PM last night.


​Now I'll drink the 20 oz of Coke I purchased yesterday.


​After I eat something.

9:19 AM I started watching a Star Wars AU called Revenge of the Clones, in which Palpatine's plot was discovered and Anakin defeated him, and Dooku, but it was just the beginning....



Haley came over around 9. It was a good visit. Rn we are watching a little of The Phantom Menace. She was glad to hear that my telephone interview with SSI went well and my moods have been better as a result, and I feel my meds are working for me.



9:28 AM Now back to Revenge of the Clones. And I'll finish my Coke. I am free forever! Knowing good and evil!



10:16 AM Well, Revenge of the Clones was AWESOME, with a wonderful, bright ending.



Now I'm watching The Rise of Skywalker.



But as it was beginning, I got a text from Pastor Pete on short notice saying 'are you ready' and I hurried up, got ready, and texted back that I was ready. Then I finished getting ready really fast and went down on to my front porch and he picked me up, he started my laundry at his house, we watched the Season 3 finale of The Mandalorian together, him for the first time, and then I started The Rise of Skywalker here at Pastor Pete's. I brought Volume One of the RLDS History of the Church for Pastor Pete to read. He is making us lunch. He made me a bowl of soup..it was delicious!



C-3PO's memory was wiped for the second time in his life, and he just was forced to translate the Sith description of the location of the Wayfinder on the blade, and they are about to go rescue Chewie and retreive the dagger.



I paused the movie for a bit. Now I'm about to finish typing this Diary so far and type more of Diary 40-Part IV, after I go to the bathroom.

     2:46 PM I watched most of The Rise of Skywalker at Pete's house as I typed more of Diary 40-Part IV, and read parts of Diary 40 to Pastor Pete.



Now I'm home.



I wish to work on the project of formatting the Humorous Versions today.



I also want to work on more of Ahsoka's Real World Diary today.



First I want to transfer what I have typed of Diary 40 on DiaryLogSite to Mara/Luke4ever.



I got SunFresh coupons in the mail today.



I want to go shopping tomorrow morning and get 6 16-oz bottles of Pepsi for 1.99 + tax at Sunfresh with a coupon, with Food Stamps.



I'll have to take my backpack.