07/06--
WEDNESDAY

   I'm streaming myself live, having, with the help of Michael Hur, exposed how human sacrifice victims are singled out and victimized, and, having suffered in body and mind, I am suspended in a state of too hot/too cold which I do not know how to remedy, but which I suffer with patience, knowing better days are coming.

   It is 2:19:27 AM nd I have been pure the last few nights.
I can trust Pastor Pete, Paul Ludy and Rick the most.


Thank you so much for my new glasses. Amen.

   Yesterday, I played more of Confrontation and RAID, again, Confrontation with no deaths.  Now I am close to reaching floor 9 with 100% Health and 99 (full) ammo.

Yesterday I read and studied The Great Controversy by Ellen G. White for over 40 minutes.
Miller's calculation of the 70 Weeks of Daniel were wrong because he started from the wrong starting point.  Daniel MacGregor, an RLDS Theologian, got it right, but only came to 1830.  Beyond 1830, who will calculate the 70 Weeks or account for the "gap"? Miller failed at this because 1830 was nowhere in his calculations.  American Restorationism (not the Restoration of Joseph Smith) comes close because its timetable is close to 1830, but only pure Mormonism will be dead accurate in my consideration. Also some of these new prophecy movements such as Cindy Jacobs and Kim Clement and Jonathan Cahn I feel have some real insights into these matters.

11:40 PM Once upon a time, a fugive made it from Alcatraz Prison, or the Rock, to Brazil. They made it past the Chrysler Plant (now General Motors Plant) to the Brazillian jungle.

  Rick gave me about three days' worth of dry catfood to lure the cat I named Galadriel away from my porch so I can get in without it following me.  Tomorrow after my appointment with Haley, I need to call Animal Control and talk to Maurine Steadman about the new shelter in town which has the numbers currently to be no-kill.

This Destination Unknown Discovery Channel Program Rick and I are watching is AWESOME!

The fugitives made camp at a rock in the 1970's.

Once I read the book 'Judgment at Nuremburg', a transcript of the Nuremberg trials.  It was good.

07/09--
SABBATH-DAY AFTER FRIDAY

  Your Word gives me so much hope and I know I can have a Fresh Start with you.  Keep my heart clean. Give me a new heart.

I fell four times and broke my fast last night, ate a lot of sweets and drank first an X-Tra Large, then a Medium Dr. Pepper.

Empower me, Holy Spirit, to truly repent and turn from my wicked ways.  I praise You for the Power of Thy Forgiveness, Grace and Mercy.  Thank You for restoring to me the joy of my Salvation.

I watched Star Wars with Han Firing First and SC 38 Reimagined in it plus flashbacks for the second time as I walked to the store twice to get my pizza and pop (soda) and typed my 48'th and 7-A'th Journals. After SW4 ended, I wrote more of a fictitious Journal continuing off of this one and then wrote in this Diary, as I listen to a beautiful Bedtime Prayer YouTube Video. It is 5:57 AM (As I type this it is 6:29 AM). I've been up all night.
   Yesterday I fantasized cleanly and wholesomely about Maggie and then wrote down slightly differently and with a lot of different and added and taken out and rearranged details the story I fantasized about in a series of fictitious Diary entries ranging from July 14-August 1, 2022.

(Takes two sips of Dr. Pepper.) Ah.

 You know, one thing I learned from the transhumanist video I watched was to source information by not just reading three books, but going through their Bibliographies and reading behind the three books' authors.

And the Wheel of Selection (Sourcing), Organization, Deconstruction, Composition and Transmission (adapted from the Frenchman's Wheel, in a way adapted to my understanding and usages and needs and just wants) is also a good concept to know: But I do not need a 'second brain' with 'knowledge bricks' to increase my productivity mechanically.  A transhumanist might see that need.  But I took the good from the lesson, left the rest.

   Lord, turn me away from everything that seeks to derail me from walking with You, and seeking the Kingdom Way of life.

  Like Just Lot, I am 'daily vexed' by the Sodomites.

We were commanded to come out of Babylon by creating Zionic industries years ago but we as a Church failed to do this.  We need Resthaven and the Sanitarium back and to move the Auditorium, build the Far West and true Nauvoo Temples (both Facing East, not one of them facing West), and reestablish and reinstitute our Stakes! Hurry! Ahora! Andele! Schnell! Schnell! Like yesterday! Like fifty years ago! Get off your blessed assurances and BUILD!
We don't have time to wait any longer!

(See 'How The Lord Would Have Us Think And Feel About Zion', The Appendix to the Endowment Document, this website (Mara/Luke4ever), in The Word of God Section (Don't worry, I'll fix it so it's readable, I just needed a (though garbled) copypastad from a pdf template to put a more completed Document onto.  I'll get to fixing it soon, make it a priority, or get a site administrator to do it, such as Mags when I hire her, or Colt if he ever believes he wants to do his job.)

Light a fire within my heart! Ignite a fire within my spirit that will cause me to change my lifestyle, what I do on a daily basis.  In the Name of Jesus Christ, Amen.

I come seeking Your forgiveness and Your cleansing. Amen.


12:57 PM I finished my second love letter to Maggie, aka Diary 7-A (the first, now lost for the time being, being Diary 10, kept in AD 2019, in which I was truly Saved), and the  third being Diary 49, which I will keep after Diary 48 is competed. (Which reminds me again that I's needs t' continue the Story of My's Life, which was originally Diary 34, now lost for the present, but which questions were returned to me (but not the answers) when I bought the same Journal that I had been given for a Secret Santa gift one of the years I participated in the Secret Santa Gift Exchange program as a McDonald's employee.

       I still want to buy again the Chewie Mug that broke.  How I long to drink coacoa or Ovaltine or chocolate milk from another one once more (or Pero perhaps? Yum!)
                                            N-E-Ways, I plan to make this Diary most interesting.  Far more interesting by far than it has been so far, but not to exceed or even come close to the contents of the fictitious entries in between these entries and the beginning of this Diary or the fictitious entries at the end of this Diary or that I continue to write after it is concluded., for it may not be for a while yet, depending on how fast it takes for me to get the victory over my addiction, until I will just walk into things like that conceivably happening.  For now, I just need to claim each and every victory over porn and work on self-improvement.  In other words, work on me and the Rest is yet to come, or I would speak in other words;: work on me; the Rest will follow.

    Rn I am streaming myself doing Diary Projects and playing RAID: Shadow Legends.

  What an un-waste-of-time this righteous activity is. It is productive because I got an entire Diary Project that was very lengthy and involved and took much thought, time and reflection, and extra-special discernment to do properly and still maintain its love-letter format thruout.

      But now it is done and I am happy. Joyous, in fact.

Ten-Ten-Ten is the way I intend to do my Thirty allotted (because of my Guild, which to my knowledge does not kick for inactivity) MiltiBattles on RAID today.  God answers my prayers that I pray to Him while I am playing the game, like I will ask for an Uncommon Shard and He will give me an Uncommon Shard, or I will beg Him for days for one type of Champion from a Shard and one day he arrives, meaning Christ is Lord even of the RPG's. Praise Him!

Tip: Multibattling on the Boss stage of a Campaign completes three Daily Quests: It completes beating the required number of campaign levels, beating the required number of campaign bosses and using the required amount of energy.

I have beaten all campaigns in the game. It was fun! Oh my, but it was!

Now I will see what the last question was that I answered in The Story Of My Life Book:

I will see what Q. I need to A./ next. I will do this during my 10 MultiBattles on the Boss Stage of the High Elf Palace of Aravia.  Meanwhile, until then, I will get out Diary 40-Part 2 for typing tomorrow or another time after I hit the bathroom.  I dumped a waterbottle of water down the overflow drain earlier today because it was long overdue.  

Edge of the Divine by Sandi Patty and Star Trek Comics Archives Volume One by Gold Key are both due August 6. I renewed them over the phone today.  

This morning I read the City Building Machines Star Trek Comic, which reminded me of my Dungeon Cartoon 'City on Wheels.'

10:25 PM I got a fishing rod and a new picture of two wolves and some Native American Indians today. I testified of my Baptism, Confirmation and spiritual Experiences to Elder Aere who may have been a Bishop in the LDS Curch over the phone after I ran to catch up to the LDS Ice Cream man, Elder Jacob. He wants me to call some LDS Elders to meet with them at McDonald's and gave me their numbers, but


The Holy Ghost says, do not call them, do not do to McDonald's ((to meet them)), they will try to trick me into joining their church. (I heard God tell me this in an audible voice.)

Confirmed at 10:30 PM. It was an intense feeling of the Holy Ghost.

The Holy Ghost says do not call them EVER, throw the number away. Don't call them.

      In looking for the last Life Story Question I had answered the second time I am filling out the Book, I read several of my older Diaries, getting the last one I read tonight finished just before 9 PM.  I Skyped Pastor Pete, set up and took my pills, and turned off my phone and shut down my laptop for the night.

God said audibly after a doubt-causing voice to counter God's instructions to me boomed,


"Don't forget all the things I taught you over there by your computer. (He does Not want me to throw my Diaries or or Delete them)

07/11--
YOM SHANI

  Dearest Maggie, my Sweet Pearl,
                   I can't sleep.  It's past 4 in the morning and I have been talking to God.  I'm wide awake.  I guess I won't be watching Kenobi Season 1 Finale after all.  I could make the excuse that I tried sleeping but it would be a lie.  I worked on Diaries 8 and 48 and edited some other ones as I streamed.

   I may play some RAID tonight.  My stream is my net nanny to keep me straight.  I am keeping this Diary-Part 1, Maggie, on a yellow legal pad.  I have some Drew Yankovic on other older yellow legal pads as well, as well as another Diary (Diary 20-Part 2) with part of my Mexico/Maggie story in it that I deleted (the story, not the Diary) from my Mara/Luke4ever site because I thought, either correctly or incorrectly, that I was driving you crazy with it, dear.

   I haven't done ear-tuning exercises in, like, forever, nor passive listening.
   I want to rent another ChromeBook.

                  Boy, actually I want to buy a ChromeBook of my own when I get the money for it.  The USD may lose all its value by the end of this year or by the end of the next two, three or four years tops.  Then, for a time, silver and gold will be king, then even that will be worthless.
     People can live without money.  They cannot live without love.
      If God can feed an Elijah with ravens, honey, he can feed you if ye are not of little faith, and have you dig for water.  He'll show you where.  Don't take the Mark.

Now I will try to go to bed.

...It is 7:39 AM.  At 8:00 AM I will call Pastor Pete Winstead and tell him I had the victory several times during the night and that I kept myself up til 4 AM, then couldn't sleep, but got a little rest, and he should observe me when I am sleep deprived yet stable on my meds.  Father, I hope and pray that, if I say this, he will still allow me over to his house this morning to watch the Kenobi show.


      During the night I worked on Diary 40 and Apostle Briggs' Diary and played RAID, Maggie, all while streaming.  I think I'm going to write Restructured church-themed wholesome romance novels.


4:42 PM The reason I got my evil familiar spirit was because I believed in my delusions, namely, 


1) That Maggie and I went to a facility together in a place called Ludington.
2) That Maggie and I had time traveling adventures together for years
and
3) That Maggie and I were married in 2002 AD.


For 3) Days, try, for
  *pens
   *notebooks
   and
   *books,

try putting each of these away after I am done with them when I take them out.  In 3 days this good practice should become a regular habit (and my house will look neat and tidy. -BLSKV).

Dear Maggie, my Precious Child of Light, Pearlie Pearl Pearl,
                                                                            Today Beverly invited me to a birthday party on short notice at Pastor Pete's house tomorrow.

When I said in Diary 12 (02 or 03) 'When I began to be a bachelor, or live as one,' what I meant was, I had always been a bachelor my whole life, but until the day that I moved into my Dad's and Grandma's house, I had never lived as a bachelor, or alone by myself. It was new to me.  I had prepared for it by taking a class at CMHS in Downtown Flint, and had a certificate hanging up in my room that I passed the class.  When I first proposed to people that I could live in a house all by myself, someone said it would be impossible for me, Maggie, but I took a lesson from the book 'Up The Down Staircase', which book I gave to Destiny, and I said "Let it be a Challenge to me."

Dear Maggie, now I'm writing with a diffferent pen that flows better and it is now 5:01 PM.  My landlord is coming over at or around 5:30 PM presumably today if something else doesn't come up, to look at the hole in my drop ceiling in my bathroom.  My bathroom is small but you are not a big person.  You're kinda small like me.

Around 9:30 this morning, Pastor Pete picked me up in his truck and took me first to Walmart for to get lots of noodles and Great Value Mayo, and then to his house, to eat lunch (pork chops w/BBQ sauce) and watch Kenobi Episodes 4-6 (O it was spectacular! It was perfect!!!), and I convinced him to watch part of the Rebels: Spark of the Rebellion and listen to the first to the first several scenes of my Read Aloud plugin reading Star Wars Episode 13: The Rise of Palpatine. He said he'd pay money to see a movie like that. When I had asked him if he liked it, he said I was very creative, or had a very creative mind.

While we were at his house, I made a stream.  He said he liked Episode 13 and Kenobi but wasn't really into Star Wars: Rebels like I was.


After that, we went to Blue Springs and took a bed there and brought a bed to OG after stopping at a QuikTrip to get lemonade (at least I got lemonade; I don't know what he got.)

Then at home I started a stream, tidied up my house and am now sitting on my front porch watching for Fred to arrive.  My phone is in doors, and I'll go check it for either messages from my sister, Fred or anyone else.


"But the Lord stood with me, and strengthened me."-2 Timothy 4:17 KJ/IV.


5:14 PM I'm back on my front porch, this time with my phone.  I just got either a text message or internet or phone notification. I'll check it.  It was Destiny.  She's not feeling well and tonight's not a good night to call her.


Jason came, dear, around 5:22 PM.  He looked at my bathroom drop ceiling and said he needs to get a track for it.  He pushed it and set it back in the hole for now.  I asked him to tell Fred I needed more toilet paper.  I'm running low and I sense there may be another shortage at the stores soon because of "Monkey Pox", which I'm not buying into one iota.  Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me.


Pastor Pete Skyped me around a half-hour ago and he watched me take my pills, two of which I accidentally caused to be dropped in the kitchen sink which miraculously didn't either fall into water or down the drain, which I retreived out of the sink and took. Praise God!

Pastor Pete wants me to send him a video YT link of this feed I'm making right now where I will FINALLY clean my house but ONLY nach es ist ferdunn! I am happy to ferdo it.


I fixed the knob on my nightstand, dear, with a cup hook and a bolt wedged in and screwed in tight, took out all my trash, put all (or maybe most) of my pens away, put my colored pencils away, cleaned my bedroom dresser, made a bedtime routine two days ago to follow when I've reached the stage in my life when I'm ready to follow a routine (but I'll have to change it because God says streaming helps me at night not to fall) and tacked it to my wall with a cup hook, picked up yard and sidewalk trash outside, took out my neighbor Steve's trash again, combed my hair FINALLY, put a belt on this morning, put my clothing bomb all over my bedroom floor, dear, into one big pile, asked Fred to look at  my new air conditioner and take my old one away when he came, shaved, trimmed my moustache, and washed my glasses.  I am happy and joyous, Dear Maggie May, and I pause to write in my legal pad, Diary 49-PART I.  Now I will get up, mute my mike, play music and a Spear of Destiny video on YouTube, and start cleaning.
                                                  

07/14--
THURSDAY

SECOND TRY

I had something written on this day on my Writer+ App but I accidentally erased it and lost all record of what I wrote. Then on 7/30/2022 I saw that it had been preserved on a YouTube video as I was learning about the uncertainty and unpredictability of some kinds of maths:

07/14--
THOR'S DAY

Dear Maggie May, this morning I woke up around 4:30 AM and fought both temptation and demon entities. I love you. I had two dreams about you two nights in a row.  They were good.

I am using Writer+ and my screen recorder app to make this into a YouTube video, Dearl Pearl, Child of Light. I may use my screen recorder app to record Uno Card Party for you if I can next. Ciou.

Now I continue my replacement entry:

I got a Screen Recorder app and a game recorder App on my phone. Yesterday I went to Pastor Pete's Church and was anointed with holy oil on my forehead for my leg. Now I walk better. All Believers have authority to heal. I messed up today. I need to claim my next victory. Pastor Pete came over today to look at my kitchen and find me a place to put my clean dishes.

Dear Maggie, if I want you to come back into my life, I had better claim each victory so I can get my life and purpose cleaned up for you to be able to come back into my life.

I tried going to the RLDS Church last night, but Mark Strychacz was ten minutes late and I thought I had missed him so I walked to Pastor Pete's church before Mark showed up.

It just occured to me that according to Hebrews 8, the Ezekiel covenant, I will put a new heart in you, etc, had not been fulfilled in Paul's time, which a Protestant or other non-Mormon pointed out to us, MUST THEN refer to the Book of Mormon or New Covenant as the Holy Spirit revealed in a dream to my African brother.

6:31 PM I said, I claim that healing in the name of Jesus Christ, got up, and walked just fine. Hallelujah!

I have been getting back into playing Clash of Clans lately. I have two accounts, study3600 and BLSKV and on my BLSKV account I am currently in the Black Carpet Clan.

07/16--
SABBATH-DAY AFTER FRIDAY


Tweet I sent three hours ago:
That moment when you think you messed up but realized you were sleeping and it was only a dream.



Tweet I sent just now:

3:27 AM That moment you wake up in bed guilty conscious of having messed up at least 2-3 times only to discover that yet again this was only perceived, not reality, and a product of dreamland.

I give you my heart, O Lord!
Help my eyes to delight in your ways! Amen.

I sought counsel on PalTalk for addiction advice. Doug said I need to plan ahead. I need to have a list of alternate activities I can do instead of porn, and when I am tempted, check my list and do one of those things instead.

So far, I have PalTalk and Clash of Clans on my list.

I give you my heart, O Lord!
Help my eyes to delight in your ways! Amen.

God, I give my heart fully to you. Be first in my life! 
Amen.

From, KingdomNomics.com:

  There are basically three kinds of believers in this world:

1 *Earthly-Minded Believers

...There's nothing wrong with enjoying the financial fruits of our labor. God wants us to do so.  The important question is this: Are you spending completely on things that pass away like a vapor-- or are you in investing significantly in the things of God, which do not?

2 Corinthians 5:10

2 *Christian Philanthropists 

They write a check or volunteer in some way, but there is no joy or purpose in it.
 "Oughtness".

"Doing what I have to."

3. *Kingdom Investors



People who grow in Christ, who dig deeply into the Word, and who come to see their resources in a brand new way.


...All they have and all they own...(is) their Sacred Trust, things to use Strategically for the Advancement of Christ and His Eternal Purposes.

Most people choose what is easy.  Few people champion the kind of principles (that are less easy, more difficult, take greater endurance-BLSKV). Fewer still are those who will live them out.


Make right things.


*Discipline
*Wisdom
*Sacrifice

2 Corinthians 4:18

Each of us must choose what matters most.

It's not just about the decisions you make, but why you make them.

Teach me to number my days, O Lord.

Where am I?

Birth-----------X---------------------------------------Death

Maybe a little more to the left. I plan on living a long time.

  In my early 20's, I was told in my First Patriarchal Blessing that I was at an early stage in my life.  It's only been about 19 years since then.

From Consuming to Convertalating.

*Responsible Stewardship.

*Luke 12:15

*Satan's express purpose is to destroy that which is good. He is the Chief Consumerator.

Dear Lord, give me more Wisdom, Knowledge and Discernment! Amen.

We can rationalize anything.

Principles:

*Make as much as you can.

*Save as much as you can.

*Give away as much as you can, taking into account whatever financial obligations you have.


(*And invest as much as you can.

"Divide your portion among seven"-Proverbs-BLSKV)

God, keep me ever sensitive to Thy Divine Direction. Amen.


We have to invade our culture! Advance, not retreat!

Keep writing my Star Wars Scripts, Humorous Versions

Keep Gaming and Streaming.

Keep hoping for Maggie.

Have the curse lifted from my Mara/Luke4ever Website.


* 8 TESTS TO TEST VERBAL OR WRITTEN TESTIMONY

1 -INTENTION TEST

Were they interested in recording what actually happened?

2 -RELIABILITY TEST

Rabbis were famous for having the entire Old Testament committed to memory at the time of Jesus.

Emphasis placed on Memorization.

Matthew written first!

Markan priority is an anti-Jewish lie!

3 -INTEGRITY TEST

Were the author/authors morally integrous?

4 -CONSISTENCY TEST

5 -BIAS TEST

The disciples had nothing to gain except criticism.

6. COVER-UP TEST 

The flaws of Peter and Thomas and Paul were not covered up or swept under the rug.

7. CORROBORATION TEST

Archaeological confirmation, basically.
Pilate stone found recently, etc.

Some scoff at this, saying it's like saying finding the remains of New York City proves the existence of Spider-Man.

But sometimes archaeology most definitely proves the Bible account is true when before it was thought to be false. For instance, Luke says that Lycenius was Tetrarch in the time of Jesus. Skeptics poited this out as an iinaccuracy, for they said Lycenius was in the past, many years ago, and was not a Tetrarch. But archaeology later found an incription from the time of Jesus saying Lycenius was Tetrarch, and it was discovered that there had been two Lyceniuses in  History.

8 ADVERSE WITNESS TEST

You can test the veracity of verbal or written Testimony by what their adversaries say about them.

A GETTR TWEET:

I was tempted a lot to lust so I turned on PalTalk and started talking with my brothers and sisters and an atheist about spiritual things and the temptation left. Plan ahead. Have a list of alternate activities to your addiction which you can consult when tempted. If you are an alcoholic, drink a big milkshake or buttermilk or eggnog so you have no room for alcohol.