09/09--
FRIDAY

DUE DATES

The Edge of The Divine   9/17
Beowulf                         9/17
Heaven Eyes                  9/17
Richard Proenneke's
Diary                             9/17
Reagan's Diary               9/17
HOLDS
Morning is a Long Time
Coming                      PENDING
The Force Awakens 
Audio                          Available

FINES 
0.

ACQUISITIONS

*Rewire Your Heart: Replace Your Desire For Sin with Desire for God, David Bowden

*All Things Reconsidered: How Rethinking What we Know Helps Us Know What We Believe, Knox McCoy

*I Could
I might
I can
I should
I will!
NINE TRAITS OF THE OUTWARDLY FOCUSED CHRISTIAN, THOM S. RAINER

* The Next Jihad 
Stop the Next Christian Genocide In Africa, Rev. Johnnie Moore and Rabbi Abraham Cooper

*Oportunidades y Retos GLOBALES, John Stott

*DIARY 57 of Brent Lee Sohlden Koivopolo V.

All these I bought at Mardel, with two candies to fill out the whole 25.00 (and 13 ¢, paid for by a kind woman when she heard about my deficiency.)

This morning Pastor Pete picked me up and we went to Blue Springs to take apart and pick up a large trampoline with an outer net.  Troy came and helped us take it apart, then Troy took me and picked up Jo's sister and we went out to Wendy's (a different one, by Bear Cafe), then went to Mardel, where I got some real bargains on some good books.  Troy got a Study Bible and Jo's sister got some stuff.


THE STORY OF MY LIFE


CONT'D FROM DIARY 18, ENTRY FOR 02/12/2022 AD

Q. 004 Fill in the blanks:

A: My mother was born in Olive Hill, Kentucky in the year 1951 AD, on April 17 of that year.  Her parents' names were Kenneth Dyer and Wilma (Jones) Dyer.  My mother Edith Mae Dyer grew up in two places: Olive Hill, Kentucky and Columbus, Ohio and had a half sister named Carol, an older sister named Wanda, and two younger brothers named Doug and Barry.  Doug went by Doug but his actual name was Kenneth.

Q. 005 What is the earliest childhood memory about my mother?

A: Riding on a long bus ride with her.  Seeing a Burger King over the freeway. Eating a pb&j sandwich and drinking a warm can of Coke on the bus ride with mom.

Q. 006 Fill in the blanks:


A: My father was born in Flint, Michigan, in the year 1959, on March 2 of that year.  His parents' names were Marjorie May (Lehman) Sohlden and Toivo Wilfred (Wil) Sohlden.  Dad grew up in various places, mostly Flint and Flint Township, and was one of 4 children, Mark Edward, Linda Ann (deceased), and Carol Marie (Sohlden) Soper. My Grandma Marge was born in 1932.  My Grandpa Wil was born in 1927.

Q. 007 What is your earliest childhood memory of your father?


A: My earliest childhood memory of my father is him teaching me how to read and singing lullabyes to me. He would bribe me with trips to ShowBiz Pizza (Now Chuck E Cheeze) to teach me how to read.  He sang

Go to sleep
Go to sleep
Go to sleep little angel

Go to sleep
Go to sleep
Go to sleep my love

Go to sleep little one
Sent from Heaven above
Go to sleep little one
The one that I love

Once while Dad was singing to me I said "That's enough, Daddy".

Q. 008 What noises did you hear when you woke up in the morning? Go into as much details as you can?

A: My phone rang.  It was Pastor Pete.  He wanted me to help him pick up a trampoline.  I said, sure. (though I'm not sure if I said it in those words, but the general equivolent.)

Q. 009 Top 10 Time! Imagine your childhood bedroom. List ten objects you remember from the room, and describe what they meant to you.

A: 1.  My Ninja Turtles.

I had an extensive collection of Ninja Turtle Toys standing up on my top two shelves in my room at my Dad's house.  I liked looking at them.  They were colorful and unique.

2. My Disney Adventure Magazine stack.

I had an accumulated stack of every single Disney Adventure Magazine for a couple or a few years.  I took pride in that collection.  It was in the bedroom of my Mom's trailer in Lot 30 of Myrtle Grove Trailer Prk.  I lost it when Mom threw everything in her trailer away during her mental breakdown.

3. My M.U.S.C.L.E. figurines.

 
I thought they were unique and I loved playing with them. My favorite one was the blue tubular/human spring one.

4. My TV in my bedroom on Livingston Street.

It's where I discovered Cartoon Network for the first time.

5. My old journals.  

I'm still waiting to get them back.

6. My LEGO's

I loved putting unique LEGO characters I created on adventures.

7. My books.

Mostly fiction. I was mostly into fiction up until age 20 or so, when I switched to mostly nonfiction by making the decision to get a nonfiction book on climbing Mount Everest, 'Into Thin Air' instead of a fiction book by an author I liked, Tom Clancy.

8. My blue checked comforter. 

Man that thing was comfortable.

9. My POG's.  

I loved playing the Milkcap flip game with Grandma and friends and schoolkids.

10. My Grandma's family Bible.  I read about the first 40 chapters of Genesis straight through when I was in Jr. High School.


I returned to Christ last night, asking Christ to change my Momentum and Inertia, last night.

I'm going to focus on reading and finishing two books,

Rewire Your Heart: Replace Your Desire For Sin with Desire For God

and

How To Win Friend and Influence People.

According to a STRONG Vision I had in bed around 11:20 PM at night, I am NOT supposed to vote in the Midterm 2022 elections.

  An angel visited me in the bathroom.

I streamed myself doing all my dishes and watching Michael Hur videos and sleeping from 9PM to 11:20 PM.  I have been streaming for 4 hours and 44 minutes.

09/11--
LORD'S DAY-SUNDAY-SABAOTH

Isaiah 14 IV

How To Win Friends And Influence People, pp. 19-28.

I learned not to be critical of people generally from being criticized very harshly myself and my philosophy is to look for the good in people.  But I have failed at these precepts majorly in the past.

Isaiah Chapter 14 is about the Restoration of Isreal and, I think, the Short Season at the end of the chapter.

I think the book, Rewire Your Heart: Replace Your Desire For Sin With Desire for God, is going to change my whole life, not to mention Dale Carnegie's book.  I have those two books, as well as this Diary (56) and the IV Bible with me on the front porch as I wait for Gordon and Della to come pick me up for Church.  There is a potluck lunch today.Once I stop merely saying 'no' to sin and start also saying 'yes' to Jesus (which the book will teach me how to do practically) I will achieve the victory, but in the end, we all only do what we want to do.  How bad do I want to quit the two bad things I do?  How much more do I actually love God more than my sins? I'll find out soon enough, O Lord. Last night I had 250 Casey's App points which I redeemed on the App for 1.00 Casey's Cash.  Lacking 78¢  for an X-tra large pop, I called Rick who was up working on his mail at 2 AM and asked him if he had $0.78  .  He looked and said he had a dollar and as I left to pick it up I locked myself out of my apartment again.  I called Rick and asked him if he had the keys to the church and he said yes.  I walked to Rick's house, gave him the dress shirt I had borrowed from him back, and Rick drove me to Pastor Pete's church, where he let me in and I got an X-tra Large Dr. Pepper, then home.  I have my spare keys in my pocket to give back to Pastor Pete hopefully sometime today. Tomorrow Della and Gordon should pick up my blue bike in their (just got in the car) truck when its done in the shop, which may take all day.  Plus tomorrow I may have to go to the Office of Disability Determinations or Tuesday, I'm not sure which.                                        8:52 AM @ Church.  I am sitting next to Bro. Paul Ludy.  Dee is playing the piano.  It is before Early Morning Worship.  God, help me to bring Alfred's Adult Piano Lesson Book Course A and Introduction To Musical Knowledge next Sunday. Amen.  Help Dee to be able to give me a good Music Lesson.  Help me to be a good student, apt to hear, slow to speak, but able to ask the right questions.  Amen.  Help me to learn how to Meditate properly.  Amen.  Help me to stop seeing false visions.  Amen. Help Pastor Pete to see a change in me as it regards porn.  Amen.  Help me to be a good husband to my future wife, and a good father to my children.  Help me never to get a divorce or to be divorced nor to have my marriage annulled.  Help me to be a couragious champion for my wife.  Amen. Help me to pay attention in Sunday School and to take good notes.  Amen.Help me to find a ride to the Central Missouri Branches Meeting tonight. Amen. Sunday School Notes: Alma 16:171 RLDS. Diligence, Faith,Faith, Longsuffering,Patience=Partake of the Fruit of the Tree of Life until ye are filled. If ye are cast out of your synagogues, you can still worship God:Alma Quotes Zenos.-In the wilderness.-In the field.-In my closet.-In the midst of thy congregations. Prayer   Alma 16:219 RLDSParallels: Alma 16:184 RLDS    Zenos. It is because of God's Son that thou hast been merciful to me.  Thou hast turned away thy judgment because of thy Son.Quotes another prophet.God is angry because they did not understand his Son's mercies.   Look and be healed.The Serpent was lifted up in the wilderness. All men shall stand before Him to be judged at the last and judgment day. They were part of a group (the Zoramites) that bragged that they didn't need to believe in Jesus.  They didn't believe.  They hardened their hearts.  What about us?  Do we not harden our hearts?  The Seminaries teach Calvinism.  Determinism is the doctrine of the Antichrist.  Denies accountability.  Denies our Agency. I desire that ye plant this Word in your hearts.Nourish it.  It will become a tree springing up unto everlasting life.   Alma 16:201 RLDSAmulek: Alma spoke unto you to prepare your minds; to exhort you to faith and to patience. The Word is in Christ unto Salvation.    For it is expedient that an atonement be made, for according to the great plan of the eternal God, there must be an atonement made, or else all mankind must unavoidably perish. No man's blood can atone for another. Must be a Great and Last Sacrifice. There can be nothing short of an Infinite Atonement to. . .                                                                            bring salvation to all those who shall believe on his name. And thy mercy can satisfy the demands of justice.   Those who do not have faith unto repentance...  are exposed to the whole law, wherefore mercy cannot satisfy the demands of justice.      It's through Jesus that all of these things can be.    Ignorant people think its all been done away, "oh, that's in the Old Testament" but even Jesus pointed back to the Old Testament. Loving God and loving our neighbor and eachother as he loved us is the fulfillment of the Law.     We have a law of speeding.  You can go as fast as you want but there's  no guarantee that (you will get away with it.). Prayer. Cry unto him in your fields.Over all your flocks.In your houses.Over your households.Against your enemies.Against the devil.Over your crops, over your fields that they may increase.Pour out your souls in your closets.  Let your hearts be drawn out in prayer.If you don't reach out to the poor and needy, all this is in vain. The Law of Moses was a schoolmaster to bring us to Christ. We don't still play the number games, 2+2=4, 4X4=16 (Examples) we played in school but we don't throw the facts away; we still use them. Matthew 5:19.  After ye have received so many witnesses come forth with fruit meet for repentance.  Harden your hearts no more. He included baptism. Saved from the fires of hell but saved for heaven.  A saved person who is outside the Church is saved from the fires of hell (unless he/she is presented with the fullness of the Gospel, is accountable for his/her sins and rejects the fullness of the Gospel-BLSKV), but they may have to go to Purgatory or a temporary heavenly Paradise before the final judgment or temporary telestial or terrestrial Glory after the final judgment.    I believe Restoratonism has gone soft on their Doctrine of Exclusivity, that James Edwards so clearly described in a verse of 'I have Found The Glorious Gospel' conveniently left out of all three Saints' Hymnals.  Our Exclusivity is a Fundamental Restoration Distinctive.  Paul Ludy made me think of that Doctrine in a brand new way in Sunday School Class this morning. Jesus, please help me to be more like You, O Lord, Amen. Rewire Your Heart, Book Review Page. John 6:44 No man can come to Me unless He doeth the will of the Father who sent Me; and this is the will of the Father who sent me, that he Believes in... also him who does the will of the Father who sent me him will the Father lift up in the Resurrection of the (last day.?) Introit, Just A Closer Walk With Thee-Dan and Darcy Brotherton   "Be still and Know I am God    Hold on to that Iron Rod  (Walk) the Path Christ Trod   . . . . "    -Wonderful verse that was added. Hymn 243 Shout the Tidings of Salvation Invocation. Offering and Children's offering. Offertory prayer.Sermon.   Phillippians 3:13-15    Becoming perfect.         :13 Apprehending-becoming perfect. Press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling (. .?) Christ Jesus. Keep your eye on the prize. God helps direct us toward this state of perfection.    God will reveal what it is we need to do to become perfect.    God will show us our imperfections.    In the Book of Mormon I always wondered why the Vision of Lehi was in the beginning of the the Book. Finally, the Lord revealed to him that that's a part of the culture of the people of the Book of Mormon.Always in the Book of Mormon there is that imagery of us walking down the path holding onto the iron rod. (And always in the Bible is the imagery of trying to get back through the fiery sword to partake of the fruit of the Tree of Life-BLSKV) Isaiah 50 something verse 8-9.As heaven is higher than earth. My ways higher than your ways; my thoughts than your thoughts. God's ways are very different from our ways.  Time and money are different to him. A man was a captain on the bridge of a very large ship.  They were on a collision course with a light.   They messaged: 10 "Alter your course 10° South.  The message came back: Alter your course 10° North. "Alter your course 10° South. I am a Captain.""Alter your course 10° North. I am a Seaman First Class.""Alter your course 10° South. I am a Battleship.""Alter your course 10° North.  I am a Lighthouse."    Seek ye the LORD while he may be found.  Call ye upon Him while He is near. Often in our better moments when we ask Him, what do you want me to do, he will answer us. O DEAR LORD! Please help Colt to call me again! Amen! Special Music "He Touched me."       Dan and Darcy Brotherton. Hymn #236 We've A Story to Tell Benediction O Lord, you haven't forgotten any of the prayers I have ever prayed to You, anything I have ever prayed to You, anything I have ever asked you for, or any vow or covenant or promise I have ever made to you or with you, or that you made with or to me. O God, help me to no longer procrastinate the hour or even the minute of my repentance.  Help me to say not only no to sin but yes to Jesus as I said no to more food and yes to water, and teach me how to practically do that.  Amen. "When a man's fight begins with himself, he is worth something"-Robert Browning. Genesis 16 IV. In 536 AD, Krakatoa erupted in Indonesia in an eruption that could be heard as far as 3000 miles away, in China.  Dust and ash spewed into the air and blocked out the sun all over the world for about 10 years, bringing on an untimely Winter, war, famine, etc.   Gordon and Della dropped me off at Pastor Pete's church, and I gave him my Spare Keys to keep at his church.   THREE WITNESSES THAT "THEIR TABLES ARE FULL OF VOMIT" -The Scriptures in the Prophets say it in the Bible.-The Prophet Joseph F. Smith said it.-I once had a dream where the LORD showed me their tables being full of vomit. (Vomit communion).

09.13--
YOM SHLISHI

    I'm tired of all these double dreams.  I'm getting up at 3:51 AM.  The first thing I did when I got up was take out Steve's trash.  Then I went to the bathroom. Then journaled.

I asked God to cleanse me of secret faults.

6:07 AM  I'm continuing to have double dreams sitting and sleeping here on my couch.  Sometimes it seems that I am moved about my apartment.
I went back to bed.
10:41:37 AM CDT
When I'm sleepy or in bed and asleep I see geometric shapes sometimes and snippets of dreams as I double dream.

I read about Moses' Church Organization in the Sealed Book of Mormon today.

I read a couple or a few chapters of Heaven Eyes and a chapter of the Sealed Book of Mormon.  I had supper.  I sent Pastor Pete Alma 5:41 RLDS in a text.  I took my pills. (Before I sent the text).

Tomorrow I want to go to the library and take all my library books back.

Today Gordon and Della took my bike to fix it.

09/15--
THURSDAY 
God didn't invent cows or carrots-man did. I have to change my whole diet.  My sleep patterns and urination patterns indicate high blood sugar.  I have to cut out breads, pastas, sweets, soda and milk and cereal.  What's left?  Meat, fruit and vegetables.Plus I have to exercise and stay hydrated.  No juice, except Communion Wine (and Communion Bread), and nuts, EGGS, beans and legumes.  No rice. 3:44 AM I gave more than half my food to Steve Logan.  I gave him all my cereals, sweets, breads, pastas and applesauce, jelly and syrup. I'm making an onion home remedy on the stove for my congestion/cold/allergies.  It's simmering on the back burner rn. I'm streaming and watching Barbara O'neill-Diabetes and Weight Loss on YouTube. The Wheat and the Dairy must stop.  The sugars must stop.  I must continue taking my pills. Must drink 8 glasses of water a day.  Little by little by little. I need to buy Celtic Salt.-Unrefined Sea Salt. Run 30 seconds-or Exercise bike.Recover.Then run, cycle this. or push-ups. progressive. If you can't do a cycle of 6, do a cycle of 3.   You will be able to do more in a few days.   What you do to your body now will determine how you spend your later years.        God never meant for the brain or body to deteriorate. Drugs never cure disease, only change the form and place of your disease. God never meant for people to spend the last 20 years of their life suffering and then die. "We are not merely passive in (faith and obedience), nor yet does God do some and we do the rest, but God does all and we do all.  God produces all and we act all.  For that is what he produces, our own acts.  God is the only proper author and fountain; we only are the proper actors.  We are in different respects wholly passive and wholly active. -Jonathan Edwards. Summer 10 PM-3AMNeed sleep to rejuvenate Pancreas. Winter 10PM-2AM More vegetables, less fruits. When I eat a hamburger or McChicken DO NOT EAT THE BUN!!! Be very cautious of Gluten free foods because they can have a high glycemic index and very high sugar. 5:08 AM Need to check on my onion. 5:12 AM It's done. I need to drink it as hot as possible, but it needs to cool off a little. Note to self: Get goat cheese and Coconut oil. I need to strengthen my armor by keeping the commandments of God. This morning I sat down on the sidewalk with Galadriel and watched the sunrise.  It's a new day. Definitions and descriptions of the Force or Qi "Swallow, then it travels; traveling, it extends; extending, it descends; descending, it stabilizes; stabilizing, it solidifies; solidifying, it sprouts; sprouting, it grows; growing, it returns; returning, it merges with Heaven...."                                           --Inscription on The Twelve-Sided Jade Tablet,                                                  c. 500 BCE *Working definition of qi               -Basic universal stuff, found everywhere and in everything.   -Also the force that causes change in the universe  -simultaneously "that which makes things happen in stuff" and "the stuff in which things happen" (Nathan Sivin)      -Lim Lecture:    Air/Qi Connections: Notes from the History of Science and Medicine, YouTube, U C Berkely Events 111K Subscribers I subscribed. -coconut butter-seeds-Olive oil.-Three More things I need. All the food I tried giving to Steve this morning went to waste.  Oh, well.  Steve and I are reconciled now.  We got mad at each other this morning.  Now he knows I'm not lying about the cat. 3:25 PM If I'd have not gone through what I went through last night, I'd have wasted all my Food Stamps on a bunch of junk. I'm at Gordon and Della's watching Perry Mason and watching Della fix my bike tire.  I had a McChicken w/o the bun and a large fry for lunch.  Gordon took me to the library where I dropped off my library books and got The Force Awakens Audiobook, and placed a hold on the Original Beowulf. Della counseled me to get Food Stamps and I called Joy to see what her counsel was. In multitude of counselors there is safety.  It was the same as Pastor Pete's counsel: Get Food Stamps.  The so-called 'warning dream' was NOT from God.  It was from my fears and a product of me filling out too much paperwork seeping into my sleep.

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09.17--SABBATH        Yesterday morning Pastor Pete wanted to take me to the new doughnut store in town but by the time I saw his text it was closed, plus it would have broke with my new diet.  Yesterday I was pure.  Tucker Carlson is on and Rick is watching Barbara O'neill-Diabetes and Weight Loss.  While I was on my front porch Jesus told me to wait to get the more high-priced items I want 'til I get Food Stamps.   Last night, or the night of the 15'th, union men from the railroad and the railroad management met for 22 hours and they needed to make an agreement by midnight or the entire economy would shut down.  They made a tentative agreement by midnight.  That would have affected every person in America.  Praise God! We have a major immigration crisis right now. Tonight (last night) I got Coconut Silk for the first time. Now Rick is watching Dr. Bruce Fife,-Coconut oil.He did not finish Barbara o'Neil's video. The other night, I had a dream.  In the dream, I would spend year after year with the book, How To Win Friends And Influence People at my bedside.  Over time, the book was in a foreign language.  I said to the Lord or to myself, tonight, (early morning), if I read this book, I'll stay in my apartment.  Jesus said to me, 'but at what cost?  I said to myself and to the Lord, if at the cost of being a Christian, then I want nothing to do with this book (in other other words not being not being a Christian anymore) (he knew what I meant).  He said, then put it aside and read the blue book.  The blue book is 'Rewire your Heart: Replace your Desire for sin with Desire for God'Jesus said, both books are about desire.  One takes you one way.  The other takes you the other way. I asked Jesus to alter my course, Momentum and Inertia again.  He has been doing it.  Majorly.  Already He has delivered me from getting diabetes, reading a book that would have taken me the wrong way, much demonic bondage, sweets, soda and over-reliance on technology.  I was given the promise once through Kenny Soper that God would deliver me as the Children of Israel. I Am with you always.Matthew 28.20. It is more common for a salmon to swim upstream to spawn.  It is more common for the masses to follow the crowd.  The bright star of an individual will swim down stream and will only follow the crowd.... when he knows by his own study and experience and untiring research and knowledge and belief that the crowd is right, but will at all other times go against the grain. Your affections and desires, your wants, improperly or properly ordered, are affecting your decisions, and "the decisions you make today influence who you are becoming."-Anonymous. Texts I sent to Pastor Pete Winstead today. 6:42 PM You gotta throw your ID away and pray the mark of the enemy off you.  Even if it's not REAL ID Compliant if you accept the ID a spiritual Gold Star appears on your right hand.  I saw it and I threw my new ID, away and prayed and rebuked it off of me. Not just throw away cut them up. (And in a dream the Noachide Floodwaters washed the Mark off my right hand for good in the Earth's Baptism) .You already can't fly a plane or enter a federal facility without a REAL ID so it's not that big a deal for people who aren't working.  This is the Mark.  You can't buy or sell without it because you can't make money or work anymore.  Now I (thought I couldn't) get food stamps or even go to the CSL (But I found ways around not having an ID card and was able to both get Food Stamps (while I can) and pay my taxes! Isn't God great? B-ALHKJV). For those who took a national ID *any ID or drivers' license* it's going to be life as usual this is the patience and faith of the Saints he who leads into captivity shall go into captivity he who slays with the sword shall be slain by the sword We need a commodities co-op And drive without licenses.  The cops will be looking for drivers' licenses.  Driving will be dangerous. For those who don't have ID's, there is no more economy. But woe to the slothful. Woe to those who do not see the need to plead with their God.  Very soon, many disillusioned people will storm the gates of your homes and commandeer your property and supplies. -From a message through the Priesthood, 2020, Jan. 24.