7.09
LORD'S DAY
1/100 2.06 EBT FS

God gave me an extra can of Diet Rite.

The DaVinci Code: A Quest For Answers, pp. 23-25

I streamed The Mandalorian: Guns For Hire for Russ and am now streaming The Bad Batch: The Replacements.

A couple other people joined us for the stream.
I'm watching and streaming villagers from India watching The Phantom Menace for the first time. They are watching the Star Wars movies in chronological order.
I streamed a couple episodes of Family Guy.

When I got home from Church, I was streaming Mike Matei and Inspector Gadget play Minecraft-Part 2.
At Church, Howard preached a good Sermon.
He who treasures up My Word shall not be deceived.
The Church In Israel, Reed M. Holmes, pp. 5-6.
Sealed Moses 6. There was once a canopy of water above the earth before the Flood. - Earth was a paradise.

07/11
TUESDAY

0/100 0.97 EBT FS

My armour has lost it's integrity, Lord. I may need to begin again.

-Prayer adapted from a line by Din D'Jarin in S1X3: The Sin.

I was streaming prayer and meditaion music in The Crew when a young man asked me how old I was. I said, 39. He said he and Jacki were just curious.
Now I'm streaming Mario: Bowser's Fury.

This morning a woman called me and we did some CMH paperwork, that must be done every 90 days-a DLA-Daily Living Activities. I am in the process of getting a new Case Manager.

Slept all day, will take my pills.
Goodnight.
Ark or Arius Valdayn and I worked toward making progress on the Humorous Versions.

07.13
THURSDAY

0/100 0.08 EBT FS


My shopping trip went well. Rick bought me about 43.00 worth of needed groceries and 40 Trash Bags. I played RAID Shadow Legends on my phone while waiting at Walmart for Rick and Cindy to drop the first load of groceries off.
I came home and took my pills and supplements.

I have 5 Days to Report any change in income to SSI as my own Payee-such as the acquisition or loss of a job, a marriage, new dependant, etc.

After I get my paper check and cash it at the bank in my own bank account, I may get my routing number, bank account number and other info and call SSI and set up Direct Deposit.

3:21 PM Teddy and I introduced ourselves to each other. She will be assisting me to pick up my Rx today. I will be giving her my SNAP form to scan today. Next week we will meet at the library. I gave her links to my SW Scripts. We reviewed my goals. We met at McDonald's. She asked about my mental health and what Haley had done for me. She is willing to help me with SSI paperwork.
We meet again on Tuesday, July 18, @ 2:00 PM CDT.


What I wrote in the Blue Moon Cantina Social Thread: The Dark Side Has Clouded Their Vision on tf.n:

5:34 AM I'm watching someone play Minecraft and Super Mario Bros 3 as I stream and I'm about to stream me playing Wolfenstein 3-D: Possibly Spear of Destiny. I want to see Indy 5 on the big screen. I have not seen the Elvis movie but like the Elvis movie 'Let Us Pray'.


6:10 AM Playing and streaming Raid Shadow Legends, a beautiful and fun game everyone I talk to hates for some reason, and I drank a medium fountain drink of Moutain Dew Code Red and I had M&M's and a reeses cup and homemade salad-iceburg lettuce, kale, baby spinach, french dressing, cheese, glory tomatoes-for breakfast My first stream was taken down because either there was an ad or Mike said some demonitizing thing that got my stream taken down. But YouTube didn't see it as enough of an offense to suspend my account for Seven Days as usual praise God. So I'm showing Minecraft on Mute and streaming me playing RAID sometimes and Wolfenstein Spear of Destiny sometimes. How is your guyses dayses?

9:33 AM Good news! YouTube people put my first stream back up while I was making my second one. Me making my salad is back and so is the first parts of Mario and also me beginning Spear.

3:18 PM Bad news! For some odd reason they cut me off midstream and took it down from off Youtube and took down the first one again too. Yet they did not restrict my streaming priveleges one iota. Huh. Strange. I was streaming one of my old streams to babysit while I was gone like usual. Strange.


What I wrote in my Mahjong Club Chiefs Kingdom:

7:22 AM Glad to help

7:24 AM I had no idea bright red was a dark color until yesterday. I was wearing a Chiefs shirt with long sleeves in the hot sun. I finally changed it to a white short sleeved shirt after my shower

7:31 AM Finally at Level 45


My former Manager Chris is looking into getting me a printout of a Report of all my wages from 2022 I made at McDonald's. (Mik-Di and Ebek). Social Security needs that info for my SSI Redetermination. Today, I spoke to him a second time about it when I was out with Teddy.

This morning around 2:32 AM, I was awaken in my bedroom by an orange or red (probably orange) ball of energy. It was small, hovering above my bed. I drove it out by the power of Christ's name, making the sign of the Cross and speaking in tongues as the Holy Spirit gave utterance and holding my hands in the "Shekinah" position as weapons.

I was out on my front porch speaking to a demonic source. I asked the demonic source, whom I thought was "Maggie" how many more days I had to be good. This was three days ago. The source said "three days".
So I stepped up my game, trying to do everything right, performance-based trying to change, asking God to change me for a lie.
Deceived by disappointment.
And I fell. Big time.
I need to change, not because I'm trying to live up to a demonic source, but because I love God, and so that I can even stay in Zion.
I need to believe in my Identity in Christ as a Believer and saint. Believers have many promises. The just shall live by faith, not performance.

God does tell us in Isaiah to do justly and to walk humbly with your God and to seek justice and to learn to do well.

The Bible also says, Little children, let no man deceive you. He who doeth righteousness is righteous.

Now that I am in the rightward way, I may as well go the whole hog and continue in righteousness, showing forth works meet for repentance until I can be rebaptized and reconfirmed, working righteousness, not for Maggie, but for God.

I deleted another 'Diary of Lies' today I tried keeping as a 'fictional Diary', but which likely caused confusion. Satan commanded me to keep it. I did not know it was satan.

07.15
SABBATH

0/100 0.08 EBT FS

Poussin's Shepherds of Arcadia in Mirror Reverse (beneath hill in background).

Cipher beneath:

O*U*O*S*V*A*V*V
D* *M*

The Mural was made in the 18'th Century.

I am in Christ, but not in the Church.

The basic premise of the Cipher is the Bethshemet, the devil, Asmorigas and the pentacle and the pentagon, Pythagoras (the same evil Secret Society leader who came up with the Pythagorean Theorem) (600 BC), Opus Dei, The Priory of Sion, and Knights Templar, which all go back to Cain and Genesis 5 IV.

Though the Holy Grail and Mary Magdalen are themes worth exploring further, the Cipher leads to the false beliefs that

1.) Jesus was not flesh.
2.) Creator God is evil.
3.) Jesus was not Crucified.
4.) Jesus was consequently not Risen.

These themes which need to be refuted would, if believed in, both tear down one's faith and damn one's soul, and make the Bible a fable.

Angry Birds 1 is now over.

Were there a lot of Books in the Carthaginian (Phoenician) city Biblos? (The Carthaginians were later named Phoenicians by later Historians.

The Timaeus refutes the heretical doctrines that God did not create matter, but only soul, for The Timaeus states emphatically that Creator God made both soul and matter. And later the Prophet taught that all spirit is matter, which particle physics later confirmed to the scientific mind.

'Science, falsely so called' in the Bible refers to False Gnosticism.

'A True Gnostic is a Gnoumon of Truth'-Clement of Alexandria.

Rick and I studied Genesis 5 IV, Hebrews 11 KJV, Hebrews 11 KJV and John 1:1 IV and Job 11:16-18 KJ and IV, and had a Theological discussion. I told him the reason I wanted to join the Restoration for the third time was because the Restoration, unlike other Believing Sects, wasn't a little truth with a lot of lies, but pure Truth, which is why it's so attractive to me. I told him when I came to this Faith, I did not take the 'pick it apart' approach but just believed and let God prove it to me.

I told Rick, like Pastor Pete preached, there's different levels of belief, and even the devils belief...there's people who believe in the Bible in the Bible and other books..and there are some people who believe in the Bible and too many other books.

The Hindus have at least 30, million gods but to single out out 30 million is false doctrines. In Truth, there are endless Gods and most of those, to know about is none of our level business.

Rick showed me his kittens, Lazy and Speedy.

The last time someone helped me was when Teddy took me to McDonald's and discussed the things the things that need to happen in my life in the next few months and she expressed a willingness to help me with my SSI paperwork. Also Rick bought me my Coke and Fanta orange when I was out of money until the 19'th.

Father, thank you for all this, in Jesus' name I pray, Amen.

Examine yourself through the lens of your journal. Is there any contradictions in your writing? Are your thoughts and behavior aligned?

How are your feelings different before and after you've written the journal?

I feel happier now.


Good.

What made me feel this way?
Thoughts.
How did your thoughts affect you?

9:54 AM When I recalled what others had recently done for me and was thankful, it changed my mood from Melancholy , to happy, or semi happy. I still feel awful because of my sins.

Did I use healthy boundaries before I began feeling this way? Yes and no. I transgressed some boundaries, causing a contradiction between how I write and how I act big time this morning, but it is always good to feel happy or semi happy when you are thankful to God.

I'm thinking God is awesome and I am so unworthy and my sin is upon me but I am worthy of His Love and in a State of Grace until I can be rebaptized. Until then I am a Believer with His Promises to Believers and Believers' Authority in full effect.
If my thoughts become true, what would they mean to you?
I'm thinking that if I was rebaptized I would have to then stay pure so that I can stay pure so that I can stay in good standing and endure to the end and be Saved at the Last Day.

Provide evidence based on your past experiences (and the Scriptures and other True Books) to support your thoughts. Try to stick to the facts.

(This thought tracker is trying to get me to base my beliefs on experience alone-Buddhist stylings-BLSKV)

Arthur Oakman spoke as an Apostle of Christ with Authority when he said only a baptized member is a Child of God. Jesus himself said in a Testimony that no one is worthy. More testimony says we are so worthy of his love. The Bible delineates the promises made to Believers. Magesterial rebawhexpul

that rebaptism is required when an elder expels you from the Church.

That is the way both the Restoration and the Catholic Church did their proceedings
Early Church records that have been expunged say Once Saved Always Saved is the doctrine of the Nicolaitans.
DC says endure to the end.
Book of Mormon says we are on Probation. So does Rebecca Ruter Springer Testimony Intra Muros. Bible says endure to the end.

End note

Our minds tend to focus on only the negative aspects of a given situation.
Putting our thoughts on trial by assessing both the positive and negative elements allows us to be more objective and calm in dealing with our emotions.

-> Next Steps

Core beliefs can feel pervasive and we want to make them more conditional (if not according to the Truth-BLSKV)
Find counterexamples to your worries in real-life. Experiment with the easiest ones and work your way up to the harder ones.

For example, if you feel like you are unlovable (I have felt that way before- BLSKV), look for areas where you feel most comfortable and reach out to other people. Talk about your feelings to your close friends and ask for advice.

Further reflection: I have not been expressing my anger nearly as much lately as I had been before.


Great

10:45 AM Going through these mental exercises has really boosted my mood and when I travel the range of human experience through Testimony in my mind, Yes as a Believer I do have SOME forgiveness of sins.

Did I use healthy boundaries before I began feeling this way?

Yes, because I eliminated every untrue statement of my thoughts--the only one that wasn't backed up by sufficient evidence-that all my sin was still upon me.

So I feel great, forgiven and ready to face the day!

10:49 AM Mark calls every church that's not his Church and the one that I want to join again, 'the awful churches' as if God had no power to work through any of them.
Anger. (Noting).
But I am not showing it. I just told him I had to go and we hung up.

There's a 0% chance of rain from 2-4 PM today outside in this area.

Sighing (Noting.)

I just can't get over Mark's blindness.

Now I'm feeling


Down

The Word of the Lord-The Elijah Message

I read...Message 10:3-6

God's Spirit shall draw and mellow the heart.

O Holy Spirit, draw and mellow my heart! Amen!


Frustrated (Noting.)
They had seven years to build the Temple. Why didn't they? Find out.


Hopeful
This day is a day full of possibilities.
I need to check my email for my identity ebook and read through Mark's emails he wants me to read so much. Sometimes he writes good things. I am really looking forward to Beverly's pizza and birthday party and Pam's Bible study later today.

I forgive Mark with all my heart, Lord, please help him! Amen.

Jesus, thank You for people who forgive well. Help us to be forgivers too. Amen.

"Sin is choosing to say or do or think things that are against God's plan"-The 700 Club.

O Lord, help Mark's own mind combat Mark's heresies! Amen!
O Lord, help Mark to develop enough common sense to combat his own heretical beliefs he arrived at by false spiritual experiences and wresting the Scriptures. Amen.
Father, help Pastor Pete and Rick to see the light.
Help more people to accept the Truth that is the fullness of the fullness of the Gospel, so they can be shown greater things than these. Amen.

11:58 AM I have been Spiritually Born of God, and desire baptism.

2:05 PM CDT The Movie this Bible Study is based upon is called the Last Champion and Pam wrote a lot of the study.

I chowed down on that Pizza and had cake and ice cream and Pepsi and Coke Zero Sugar.

We are on p. 5 of the Study. Most of us completed to p. 7 for homework.

"God is healing me. God is with me all the time. He never leaves me."-Barbara.

3:34 PM We're on p.7 of the Study. -Thankfulness.

Peter said, I'm ready to die for you, and then denied he knew Jesus three times.

Are we willing to die for Christ's sake?

Could we be like Daniel, or like the Three Holy Children in the Fiery Furnace heated one seven times than it was wont to be heated?

I feel I'd be willing to lay down my life for the sake of Christ.

But the best thing to do on r/starwars and on theforce.net is keep my mouth shut about hom o sex u al ity so I don't get banned from both communities.

There's a time to speak up and a time to refrain from speaking.

I need to go home, sleep this big meal off and get some shuteye.

We are on p. 9 of the Bible Study.

Jo's sister and Rick are in Walgreens. I volunteered to stay in the car. It's hot, but soon I will be drinking water, taking my pills and taking a good long nap.

We are across the street from Waffle House. a loud motorcycle went by. Here they come, back to the car. 5:05 PM Homeward bound.

5:13 PM The cat just used my catbox.

Rick may be going to Walmart later to get larger safety pins and kitten food. The safety pins-to hold his pants up-at Walgreens were too small.

After he dropped me off, Rick and Jo's sister went to the Post Office, then to Rick's house so he could take his 5's, then he dropped jo's sister off, then he finally went home. He goes to the post office to get his mail.

I slept fitfully until 7:15 PM about, after updating my journal. I will drink another mini can of Pepsi Zero and give the cat a can of wetfood as five different YouTube videos of the Lord's choosing play simultaneously, sound on, on my laptop.

Tomorrow at 12 AM or so I'm starting a brand new orange blank lineless journal.

Before I did any of that, I played a level of Spear of Destiny.

I cracked open a can of Pepsi Zero and cracked open a can of Pate' wetfood for the cat.

The five videos playing NOW are

1)*The American Revolution: Bloody Struggle For Freedom *3 HOUR MARATHON* | The Revolution
by YouTuber HISTORY 52 M Subs 8.9 K Likes

2) *Compressor Facts and Troubleshooting (Don Gilli/Trevor Matthews) by YouTuber HVAC School 28.5 Subscribers 1.7 K Likes

3)*Star Wars The Sequel Trilogy | Behind The Scenes Full Documentary | Disney +
by YouTuber Star Wars Coffee 117 K Subs 197 likes

4) *Fred Armisen |The Blocks Podcast w/Neal Brennan | FULL EPISODE 29
by YouTuber Neal Brennan 81.5 K Subs 1.5 K Likes

5) *101 Video Games That Everyone Should Play At Least Once
by YouTuber TripleJump 275 K Subs 19 K Likes

The fourth video is adding at 8:15 PM and on 8:15 PM the video is back on.

I see Harrison Ford, and Skateboarding, and a British Naval Officer, and some type of engine, and two men talking to each other on mikes. The sound is a babel of voices.

I see John Boyega and Daisy Ridley. I see Klaud. I see R2-D2, a map and a sunrise or sunset.

I see the words Lubrication and Oil Pumps.

I see Luke Skywalker and Obi-Wan Kenobi.
I saw a red dice.
I see British Soldiers.

At 8:20 PM the fourth video is adding again. It is a Grammarly ad. Now a YouTube TV advertisement. At 8:25 the video is back on.

I see Poe Dameron.

I'm going to drink some more of my Pepsi now.

07.17
MONDAY

0/100 0.08 EBT FS

2:07 AM
I started my day with food, then a Spear of Destiny stream and a RAID: Shadow Legends stream, both while talking to Russ.

I truly wept over my sins, crying to God for forgiveness.
I'm fighting in the Classic Arena 5 times, then watching Tubi.
I fought over 5 times in the Classic Arena.

Holy Blood, Holy Grail pp. 2-3.

I made an overnight 14 hour Raid Shadow Legends stream, 014. Now I'm making RAID SHADOW LEGENDS GAMEPLAY 015. It is 4:17 PM.

Comfort, Ray Scientific Facts In The Bible 100 Reasons To Believe the Bible is Supernatural in Origin pp. 10-26.

God's Plan of Salvation, Rich Rupe, pp. 71-72, from 'The Jews and Islam' up to the Section 'The Crusades'.

Sealed Moses, Chapter 7.

The Elijah Message 11 mentions Otto Fetting being discouraged over 'things over which he has no control'. Could these things have been hindrances to building the Temple?

Jesus Is Not Like Buddha, Zachary A Harris pp. (1)-(2).

At Church yesterday I looked at a facsimile of a brass serpent fastened to a pole, and asked God to take away my porn addiction.

Last night, when I started watching porn on Tubi I took absolutely no delight in it and shut it off and went to bed, after spending a long time searching for it, delighting in none of it. I'm done with it.

Yesterday's Sermon was, if you would look, God might heal you and you might live.

Be true to God and to thine own self.

As I do a Multibattle of 60 to earn event cards in RAID, I typed two-and-a-half entries of George Washington's First Diary.

I need to get back to my 2022 Diary Project presently.

7:34 PM I entered my twenty-first Log into my Diary of 2022.

I took my pills.
I had homemade shells'n cheese today for supper. I'm on my 56'th MultiBattle. I want to try out new characters after this.

I need to gather all my 2023 entries in a 2023 Book on DiaryLogSite. It will bring clarity.

Timaeus, pp. 11-12.

11:02 PM I'm watching Mike Matei play Xeno Crisis. He only played it for a minute or so.

I tried going to sleep but couldn't sleep.

I looked everywhere for my first Diary of January 2023, and couldn't find it.

The page www.earlychristianwritings.com/text/muratorian.html

was altered from the way the original Canon Muratorianus read. The original admitted of several books outside the Biblical Canon besides Wisdom of Solomon and Shepherd of Hermas, and I am a witness that it did.

I am also a witness that The Song of the Three Holy Children used to say 'God be raised up into worlds' in it.

Scientific Facts In The Bible, pp. 26-28

3:06 AM The Babylonians invented the 24-hour Day.
From now on my day will begin and end at Dawn, NOT Midnight.
I am listening to Hell by Jeffrey Archer: A Prison Diary. Next I will listen to Purgatory, then Heaven by Jeffrey Archer.

He had 4 minutes of freedom in 22 hours. (One of the days).
The Last Prison Diary I read was by Leonard Peltier who is/was innocent. So is/was Jeffrey Archer.

I wonder why I won't go to bed, but the reason is obvious: All the caffeine.
I was laying in bed for a couple of hours listening to the Audiobook on Libby, then, hungry, ate a packet of sunflower seeds and cranberries I found in the Kale Rick bought me.
Just one more day until my EBT Food Card is reloaded.
I'm going to update my journal now.
Tomorrow I have to pay a $1.40 library fine and take back and renew and recheck out a lot of library books when I go to the library with Teddy.

I'm going to update my Diary now. I've had a lot of Pepsi Zero today.

I lay on my bed from about 3:40 AM-4:28 AM, listening to the Prison Diary, then got up to check my text messages on my phone to see when or if I had missed a Counseling appointment with Tracy, and learned that it is Thursday July 20 at 3:30 PM.

1 or 2 Jews, 200 Muslims, mostly Church of England and a lot of Latin Rite or Roman Catholic- the make-up of a Prison's religions in England in 2001, the year I was a Junior in High School. No Protestants? No Pentecostals? No Mormons? When did England lose its Mormon population? I know that in recent years there have been RLDS Missionaries sent to England and Priesthood raised up there, but there was a LOT of Missionary Work of the LDS and RLDS Church in England in the early years. (1830's, '40's and 60's, etc.)

They have Social Security in England.

Robert H. Schuler, Self-Love, p. 5

I'm watching Game Boy Advance games played by Mike Matei.