01/07-
LORD'S DAY-SABAOTH-SUN'S DAY-SUNDAY

This morning I got up at 4:30 AM or so, ate a beef pot pie, bread w/peanut bu t t er and honey and a banana (Don't worry, Saints, I don't usually gorge my gullet like that anymore, that was the old Brent. The new Brent, dear Saints, loses weight (until I lost too much weight that I couldn't keep my pants up and I intentionally stuffed myself to get some meat back on my bones) (That is a bipolar recordial parallelism for now, at this time I am gaining weight!-12/14/2021 7:25 AM Tuesday (And I have been overeating a lot lately, so it's a double bipolar recordial parallelism!)) watched about half of 'Catching Fire,' the sequel to 'The Hunger Games' (And the Hungover Games was an absolutely perfect tit for tat parody of the first Hunger Games movie!  It was so blamed Hilarious! If you don't mind off color humor, language and nudity, then you may like The Hungover Games, and if you haven't seen The Hunger Games Trilogy yet, when you get time, go watch it- -it is a must see! But don't watch The Hungover Games until you've seen The Hunger Games Trilogy at least once, or read the books.) took a shower, then watched the other half.  Then I went to Church at Israel's Gathering and an Elder (At 7:34 AM on 12/14/021, I witnessed a Machine Dual same person Monopolarity as me and me both atnearly the exact same time, addressed someone I used to be writing to but no longer am, directly, in two YouTube videos about two different subjects) preached.  Also, another Elder who is Joy's husband and a young boy named Joseph III and I took up offering for which I am very thankful to Thee O Lord, that you had me take up offering today.  Also, at the end of service the Holy Spirit prompted our Pastor to ask a Church Sister if she needed administration, and she was administered to.  I made plans with a Priest today.
   At my apartment, I texted Jo Psalm 4:33 and told her good afternoon and asked her how church was.
    Now I will take out my trash (A Monopolar Recordial parallelism, for I recorded taking out the trash last night in today's 
Diary, during which I recorded some of the Vital Details of my experience in the Realm of the Dead, which was confirmed to me by Matthew Shaver today when he told me he did not take my picture or see me naked ever)-BLSK 12/14/021 7:56 AM (Referring to experiences recorded in Diaries (current) X-XIII, more especially in XIII)). for the first time. (Need I talk, dear Saints, about natural to unnatural Mimicry, or unnatural to natural Mimicry? It really goes on, like Art Imitating Life Imitating Art!

  Also, a well-meaning but misguided Elder, Buddy, counseled me, wrongly, to make plans with the Priest Mike his son, which is the main reason I did. (At 8:05 AM I witnessed a Machine Dual same person Monopolar Recordial parallelism as two videos are of me at the same time, one paused, one playing, one in which I'm reading and one in which I'm typing essentially

(Pastor Pete Winstead wrote (Jan 1-21,2021
1/1 I have hidden your word in my heart that I may/might not sin against you Ps. 119:11

1/2 Ps 121:12 I will lift up my eyes to the hills-where does my help come from? My help comes from the LORD the Maker of heaven and earth.
God is our helper, protector, our watch for against all enemies, physical or spiritual.

1/4 Ps. 122 & 123
Praying For peace, security, & prosperity of Jerusalem
Praying for mercy For America
Would you have me teach through Rev.?

1/5 Ps.125:2
As the mountains surround Jerusalem, so the LORD surrounds His people both and & forevermore.

1/6 Ps 126:56 Those who sow in tears will reap with songs of joy.  He who goes out weeping, carrying seed to sow, will return with song of joy, carrying sheaves with him.
On the  return of Is. from captivity, the work was going to be hard & toilsome but if they worked hard sowing in tears, they would reap w/ joy.  It is the principle of labor for God.

1/7 Ps 127:1 
Unless the LORD builds the house, it's builders labor in vain.  Unless the LORD watches over the city, the watchman stand guard in vain.
(/) In vain you rise early and stay up late, toiling for food to eat-for he grants sleep to those he loves
  Da worry-trust in God w/ all, building..protection food.

1/8 Ps 130:3 If you O LORD, kept a record of sins, O LORD, who should stand

1/9 Ps 131:2 But I have stilled and my quieted my soul; like a weaned child w/ its mother, like a weaned child is my soul within me..There is that time to be weaned that we may grow on.  Even in adulthood we must wean or be weaned from things to grow (or God may wean us like (Josep, Abraham etc)

1/13 Ps 136:25 and who gives food to every creature, His love endures forever.

1/15
Ps 141:10
Let the wicked fall into their own nets, while I pass by.
great prayer concerning the wicked

1/21
 Proverbs 1:33 "but whosoever listens to me will live in safety and be at ease, without fear of harm."
Lord help me to listen to your wisdom.) the exact same Record, which just gives me another term to coin.  I wonder if these terms can be made into a branch of science with hypotheses and controls, and methodology, dear Saints? That would be so cool.  There are 50 ₵ sitting atop my black tray table with a red stick pen, purple mouse and silver laptop.  The deceased woman, Annie Josephine Hoyniles was someone whose funeral Pastor Pete officiated at once.

*Name of deceased: Annie Josephine Hoynile
Her first born child was 26, she had two kids, Suzan and Mike, 4 Grandkids and
*8 Great Grandkids

She was married to her Husband Richard for 31 years

Annie was *72 at her death.
She was an *LPN & sigh
*Loved animal, dogs, horses
*dance outgoing, outside working
tracker
Wedg w/ mommy, cut wood
*Sweet kind, treated all well
*Rich never new what love was until he met her
*One liners, old saying
**
Hymn: Go Rest Higher
Amazing Grace
? You Raise me up
________
Me and God

..Jo said 'good how was your Church,' and I texted her back basically what I wrote in my diary about Church today with a parenthetical explanation of what administration was (anointing with consecrated oil and prayer for healing).
     ..Played a little Scrabble by (there's more hope for atheists than there is for some Christians) myself.  

....Still waiting for Mike's call.  I called his wife, then a Church Sister, Mike's mother, and she gave the phone to the Priest (Mike).  He says he will call me when he gets to his home.  I guess I was just impatient.  Forgive me, Lord.  I am so excited about going to Mike's house! It will be the beginning of me surrounding myself with the Saints (or so I thought!-BLSK 4/15/2021 AD 5:29 PM CDT) and not allowing myself to be driven away by their imperfections.

     I texted a Church Brother (the one I saw at McDonald's yesterday who flies planes) and sent him and some others some new and old pictures of my apartment.

              Listening to The Complete Story with Richard B o t t on B o t t Radio Network.  A speech about religious liberty is on by Joshua Hawley, an elected government official of Kansas City.  I am so excited about spending time with the Priest (Temption House or Temptation City-BLSK  5:29 PM CD 4/5/2021 AD) which I always enjoy.  Once, I rode on the back of Joy's Daughter's Old yellow and black motorcycle that was destroyed in the tornado of 2016 and replaced, just so I could go visit him at his house.  It is there that I first met my landlord's ex-wife.  She was married to him then.  She was Mike's wife's mother, who, as of 01/07/2018, was one of my landlords, but now, as of 12/14/021 is not.  So I am so excited! (When a divorce happens, it don't break even. Divorce is ugly-BLSK) Plus Mike will be able to see my apartment! (Which he already had earlier.)

           ....Still waiting for Mike's call.

            I got impatient again Father. Please forgive me.  I called Mike and his wife's phone-By the way I'm never going to divorce my wife or ever be tempted to, ever!-which is at Mike's house and left a poorly-thought out message that maybe he can take me to Men's Class tonight, then we can hang out afterwards (So late?) Then I called the Church Sister again (his Mother) and learned that he is on his way home.  He has his daughter's phone, so I asked his Mother-(AUGUGH! Idiocy! Idiot!)-for the number of her son Mike's daughter. (I had NO BUSINESS asking for a little 14-year-old girl's NUMBER! (Which I just now repented of--) like a creeper-BLSK 5:29 PM CDT 4/15/2021 AD) so I could reach him before he got to his home, but the Church Sister didn't have it (Praise Gods!) I'm just impatient (When you're impatient, you feel too important to wait, so it is prideful and selfish to be impatient) and Joy is disappointed in me because I told her I had plans with Mike today because I did not think we had men's class.  I just hope (wishful thinking-BLSKV) and pray everything works out today.  I watched 'Finding Faith In Christ' in (See, I was such an IMMATURE BRAT back then.  I'm supposed to be a grown man. I HATE READING this! (Not the 'Finding Faith In Christ' part, though.)) Spanish.

              ....I guess I won't be able to make it to men's class after all (That's NOT what I really wanted, tho.  I WANTED BADLY to hang out at Temptation City, or with Mike, at Temptation Park, or Temptation Island-BLSK).  The weather seems to be adverse where Mike is but my Uncle Ken did not (Oy, yeled I'm so DENSE! It's a plus that I watched 'Finding Faith In Christ') seem to encounter any freezing rain on the way to Church.  I still have plans with Mike, (I never gave into those temptations, but whenever I went to Mike's, or anywhere with him, or hung out with him, I was tempted constantly.) but not for today.

          ....After din-din I wrote in my Knowledge and Belief Book and watched 'Hunger Games: Mocking Jay Parts 1 & 2. I got to bed rather late..Thank You Father for the food, (the one good thing Mike did for me, that made it all worth it, was help bless my house, tell me I had an Aaronic Priesthood call but could not tell me what office, but knew, and read me his Patriarchal Blessing.) movies, testimonies, and Church today.  Thank You so much for this marvelous, interesting day, Father (sigh) You are such a good, good Father. Amen Amen Amen and Amen! ! !


The girl I loved who was the most attached to me, Ashly, one day told me she wasn't the one for me, kissed me on the cheek, and walked away.  The first one I ever dated, Kristina when I was 19 and she was 15, turned out to be a witch.  

01/09-TUESDAY-YOM SHLISHI

GREAT waves of spiritual deception are flooding the earth and people are having both false and true NDE's (near-death experience) and false and true miracles, signs and wonders.  Joseph Smith, Jr. was right (Next is what made me doubt the Brazil Work for a time. Either I gave  myself, Satan gave me, or Doubt gave me or the Evil gave me or demon(s) gave me (or a combination of two or more of these gave me, or God gave me because I already knew the answer was that it was True), a bad feeling about the Brazil Work-BLSK 9:56 PM CDT 04/15/2021 AD)
-"For the Work in Brazil, I got a bad (you can get bad feelings for good things and seemingly good feelings for bad things Saints(Two Atheistic proofs: "This is so wrong but it feels so right-Common saying"
"There were things we'd never do again but then they'd always seemed right"-Celine Dion, A Long Time Ago.) (Because discernment is not easy to come by, most people are deceived.  "The whole world is lies and deception"-Teresa of Jesus, also known as Teresa of Avila-Castile Interior. Wonderful book.  I enjoyed reading it.) feeling the first day I asked and got a bad feeling tonight. (It was because I already knew that it was true-BLSKV) The same way, Dear Mark, Dear Randy Vick, Dear Saints, that Joy got a bad feeling for Joseph Smith's teaching on how to discern angels which later turned out to be True, and claims God told her the Book of Abraham was not of the Lord when the Sealed Book of Mormon makes two references to it, and Joseph Smith has absolutely nothing bad but only positive things to say about the Book of Abraham over and over in many places in his Personal Diary, and how Joy doubted the Jubyite Revelations and had me throw them away (actually she did tell me to stop reading them and told me that not telling her I was reading then but claiming I was reading the Doctrine and Covenants was dishonest(but it was not a lie because it is a part of it),(and I suspected Joy would not let me read it if she knew and I was right)(and it was me who decided to throw them away myself after doubting and sign seeking), which ALSO later turned out to be True.  I have also gotten good feelings for things which were False.
There are many checks and balances for escaping deception, Dear one.
Having one good or bad feeling for something is usually no real proof for or against anything, except in some cases.

(The following negativity and falsehood I said in Doubt-BLSKV 10:17 PM (I learned the hard way. Brent Lee Sohlden refused to believe that what he said in the last paragraph was true. He refused to believe why the Brazil Work was true. He feels he already has his answer. Well, if he keeps on believing that he can HAVE his answer that he thinks he's got, and he will take it to hell. Cause if he doesn't accept the Sealed Book of Mormon then he'll lose everything he thinks he had before!  It's the same way with the Book of Mormon and with the Bible.))
"For the Work in Brazil is a deception" a (False) peace came over me.
   (The following is genuine, though-BLSKV) When God told me "Salvation is a process, just so you know." I felt a burning in my bosom (He told me that truth because part of the process of salvation is experiencing periodic periods of doubt, as I then was-BLSK)


(And then, Dear Saints, I again returned to Writing in Tao. (Doubt) (Or Expressing the Dao)And for the second thing about the Work in Brazil being a deception I asked in my heart if that were true (They can read your thoughts and tell the HaSatan and his demonic Agents your thoughts in this modern age because of Project Blasphemy, which, contrary to what is thought to be known, was never shut down.-BLSKV)in the name of Jesus Christ that it was a deception (And because of Project Blasphemy, Saints, (which was not shut down as they claim), Satan could hear me in my mind, or I told myself a deceptive answer or I could give myself a deceptive feeling in response to my own inquiry.-10:34 PM CDT 04/15/2021 AD, 9:04 CDT 1/22/2022 CE/AD)

(The following, dear Saints, I said in Doubt based on faulty intel either from below or from my self-deception-BLSK)

      Why?  It contradicts the Doctrine and Covenants (No, it doesn't.  Moroni says we can have our Church back- BLSK in 2018 AD) the Bible and the Book of Mormon.  In all three the Church is an organized, just association. (See 2018 note above, about what Moroni told us-BLSK in 2021 AD) is disjunctive (!) and also contradicts half of Joseph Smith's sermons (which was not true at all- 9/13/2021 AD 7:49 PM CDT).
    I offended Brother Vick, Lord, and for that I am truly sorry and ask for Your forgiveness.  Amen. (overrepentance-BLSK in 2021 AD.) 

   From now on, I will only write my Spiritual Experiences (not being Creative or myself anymore.)

(Now,back to expressing the Fe, or Writing In Faith)Process salvation is described in the Bible as 'were saved', 'are being saved' and 'might be saved'.

      These three things are true:
     *I have met her.
     *It doesn't matter if she's fat or thin.
  *We won't have sex until marriage.

       (Again,we return to the Tao rearing its head to express itself, turning its Darkside energy into Words and Expression-BLSKV)I asked God again in the name of Jesus Christ, facing East, in my heart, if the Work in Brazil was of God. I got (a feeling I had used to call 'the confusion manifestation' but which invariably always means "'the answer is 'yes' and you already know in your heart that that is so'"-BLSK 2021, 2022 CE)

Moritio (sic) never claimed to see God, only angels. Numbers 12:6-8 says, "And he said, Hear now my words, If there be a prophet among you, I the Lord will make myself known unto him in a vision (and Mauricio has had MANY, and also visits from John and the Three Nephites!) , and will speak to him in a dream.
  7 My servant Moses is not so, who is faithful in all mine house.
  8 With him will I speak mouth to mouth, even apparently, and not in (O Saints, I love you, Saints of Latter Days, so much that my love for you is like a fine note that is so sublime no instrument dare play it, but which only you my Brethren can hear. Such too is my love for the God.)dark speeches; and the similitude of the Lord shall he behold; wherefore then were ye not afraid to speak against my servant Moses? (Were you not afraid to speak against My servant Mauricio? Were you not afraid to speak against my servant Joseph F. Smith?)
(So? He will see God face to face, if he hasn't already-2/20/2018 AD and 4/15/2021 AD)
If Moritio (sic) were a Moses and Joseph F. Smith his spokesman, the Lord would have (or will if he hasn't already-BLSK) spoken with him mouth to mouth and he would have beheld the similitude of the Lord.
         For, 'I ask You in the Name of Jesus Christ whether there be any good use for the Marijuana plant, I got the same "confusion manifestation" because rope, paper and Kevlar armor are made out of hemp. (Got a light version of the same feeling 10:36 PM CDT 1/22/022, when I asked God if the Kevlar, rope, paper, you know materials, was the only thing God meant, which means, it is, and you know it.)

I had a booklet telling the truth about marijuana. I lost it or gave it away, got a second copy and lost it twice and found it twice.

       Alma 17:32 RLDS Engraving, not etching (there is both engraving and etching on the Plates, plus the grooves on a CD (Compact Disc) can be said to be both etched and engraved according to Joy). Bob Moore and Joseph Frederick Smith testified that the words on the plates were etched.  
  The Book of Mormon and the Book of Mormon testators claim they were engraved (Later the Book of Mormon Witnesses to the Sealed Record said some of the words were engraved also).

    Alma 17:34 RLDS And now behold, if they are kept, they must retain their brightness. Yea and also shall all the plates which contain that which is holy writ.
    According to Bob Moore and Joseph F. Smith (you can't have a single objection to the Word of God that God don't have an answer for!), the BOM plates did not retain their brightness (not true), but were covered in black sludge (because they had to be buried in order to preserve them from being stolen) and had to be cleaned with acetone.  As Brother Randy Vick said, "they were bright and shiny when Joseph took them out of the ground after hundreds of years (because they were in a stone box) (The BOM has retained its brightness, sludge notwithstanding, and was "bright and shiny" even while it was covered with the sludge.-B.L.S.K. 2018 AD and 2021 AD)

               ....Got up late again this morning. (I thought I had said I was only going to write my Spiritual Experiences? Even on the day I said it I knew tht it was not the way to go-
B.L.S.K. 12:21 AM CDT 04/16/2021 AD (probably because I stayed up so late last night.) 

Priest Mike and his wife came over and they had a Bible study with me convincing me that it was still scripturally wrong to eat shellfish. They and Gina who also believes that and Joy are wrong but I try not to eat shrimp around Joy anymore so I don't offend her, but found that to be deceit, so I do. I'm not destroying her liberty. I don't think she cares anymore.

01/17-
WEDNESDAY-BENJAMIN FRANKLIN'S BIRTHDAY

Today is the first day that I was in Helper's Hands (There was nothing wrong with the organization, but while I was in it things in it never panned out so I left it and things were fine in it. I was the problem. Later I participated in a Helper's Hands Bible Study relating to my Identity.)

This morning I got up at 4:00 AM and made oatmeal and I stayed up for a change.  I spent over six hours gathering the first part of my Diary, which was scattered all over the place, into one binder. Organizing my writings, basically.  Then I ate lunch.  After dishes, I made popcorn-which, several hours later I am still eating, because Gina picked me up to get three loads of water and take me along on some errands.  Now I am back at my apartment and my laundry will be dropped off here later like Dad used to do when I lived in Grandma/Dad's house in Michigan from 2009-2015.  I have to finish my popcorn after church because I have to be there soon. I read almost a half-hour of Scripture in Luke and Jesus Calling combined before Gina picked me up earlier to get water. Now I'm going to walk to Jo's church (Pastor Pete's church)



....I have something to memorize called 'Jesus Throughout the Whole Bible' for Helper's Hands (This never panned out. It was good, and not Theologically incorrect, but God didn't let it work out as planned as long as I was a part of the Organization of Helper's Hands.)
and a workbook to work on with Jo called 'Becoming A Contagious Christian'(Which, with the help of Johanna and her brother Paul, I completed).

I spent 1 hour in that good book 'Contagious Christian' today.

(PAGE N309)

Commitments, good commitments to be a faithful and a just steward I need to keep commitments, have boundaries, and make rules and give ultimatums.

    Jo will help me work on the book because I don't usually go to Wednesday class at Pastor Pete's church and work on it, because of my prior commitment to my solemn covenants, or my commitment to Israel's Gathering, or the  Restoration, or Christ's true Church.  So to keep 'Contagious Christian' I have promised to work on it with Jo during the coming weeks/months outside of Jo's church, which I will. (Needless to say, I did.)
My other commitment (the one that never panned out as long as I was involved with Helper's Hands) 
is memorizing 'Christ throughout the Bible.'  This will ultimately lead to participating in making a Gospel presentation and invitation to Come to Christ (which I never did), which can only build up the kingdom.
    The book will help me with witnessing and prayer, and to work on areas of witnessing I am deficient in, and will ultimately be a blessing to Jo and I.

I am finished with my popcorn now.
Joy, Cecil Ken and Gina are in all likelihood now on their way home from Israel's Gathering.  Soon, Lord Willing, Joy or Gina will drop off my laundry.  I hope Gina does. (This is me being impatient again.)Maybe she can visit me.  Dear Lord, Heavenly Father, help her to be able to tonight. Amen.(His answer was a flat 'NO').  Heavenly Father, may You cause depth and trust to grow between Johanna and I. 
Jo and I worked together, ate together and talked a lot, and sat together during church.
There was a birthday party put on by Pam from Helper's Hands for Pam's husband, and Jo's sister.  Then Jo and I walked together up the stairs from the basement, through the main church hallway, and into the sanctuary where Pastor Pete taught us from the book I mentioned and showed us a video that gave instructions on how to use the book and discussed it.  It is a very good book. I took copious (abundant or many) notes in it.

The first piece of mail I received at this apartment was today.  It was a bill, I thought it to be an electric bill but it was only a KCPL newsletter.  I gave it to Gina, who gave it to Joy.

      Gina did not come visit me, oh well. On the way home from church, Ken (who was driving), Joy, Cecil and Gina stopped at my apartment and dropped my laundry off.  I just put it all away and organized everything hanging up in my closet.  I also organized all my magazines today and changed the location of my family altar, from my bedroom to the living room and moved my stereo and CD's and moved my ham radio closer to the front room window.  Oh, Praise You Lord!  I can't put the recent text conversation between Jo and I in better words:

Jo: Did you have fun at the party tonight i love you

Me: I had a blast! Not only can we work on that book together but we can work on memorizing 'Christ through the Whole Bible' together. I love you too, Johanna.  You have a beautiful first name.

Last night or yesterday, Jo started keeping a diary for the first time.  Without me asking today, she mentioned it to me.  She asked me if I wrote about her in mine.  I said yes, especially lately.

Going to take a shower now, then call Jo.
..Called Joy.   That was not a bill-"it was just a little newsletter"-Joy.


..Alright, then.  Off to the shower.

..  Done with shower. Calling Jo. Have to talk low.


Recent Texts:

              Jo: What did you think of the party tonight and church tonight


               Me: Through church and the party God opened new doors for me. Both church and the party were excellent. I was blessed by the Spirit of fellowship, by good teaching and food and by Spending time with you.  I watched a very long train go by and washed dishes and prayed at my prayer altar and finally called Jo at 10:47 pm. She usually stays up pretty late.

   Johanna's favorite color is purple I learned today at church.  Her second favoret color is pink.  If she could go anywhere in the word tomorrow she would choose Australia. I bet right now she's up there in heaven, walking around in a place just like Australia playing with and talking with the Koalas. 

Jo has a Golden Retriver/Rotweiler mix named Shadow Midnight, and he is a big dog, and he died the exact same day as Johanna died. She used to have a dog named Scooby, she told me the other day.





 Last Edit: Feb 2, 2023 at 9:07am by study3600Love is sacrifice.

01/19-
FRIDAY

1-22-2018 Johanna and I are just friends for now.

At 8:30 AM Joy took me to an appointment at Comprehensive MHS in Independence.  It went well.
After the appointment, I took most of the sweets-the ones I hadn't already eaten-to Jo's and visited Jo for a while.  She returned my Diaries.  She read them. She also has read the Book of Mormon I gave her in 2007 to read but later I found out that this side of heaven she had believed it to be a fiction story, which she finally admitted to me when I talked to her about it later the next four or so years from 2017. She had also read the Lectures of Faith and a lot of the Doctrine and Covenants and claimed she believed the testimonies that I had written in the Diaries her superiors had allowed her to read before they stopped allowing her to think or choose for herself and forbid us fully grown adults with fully developed minds from reading each others' diaries as if they ever had that right.

After I got back from Johannah's house, I watched two episodes of The Fugitive (which series I eventually watched all of and finished fully after a long hiatus in which I got strong enough to watch it without lusting after every little thing to lust after in it.) after eating Oatmeal for lunch-the same thing Johanna was having at that time at her place for lunch.  That was around 2p.m.
Now I am eating a beef pot pie, or will be soon, and drinking juice.

Father, I seem to be doing just what ever I want to do at this apartment.  You don't seem to be in control of me, and I want You to be.  I haven't taken time to study Emergency Preparedness, ham radio or Morse Code and have taken very little time on Spanish.

..The pot pie was delicious. Now I have to wash my dishes.

...I finally got my dishes done a couple of hours after I last wrote.  Going to take a shower now.

..Jo and I have been texting each other back and forth all day since about 6:19 this morning.

I wrote Johanna a letter this evening. 

Jo got a false peace for me like I did for her when we asked God about each other.
Last Edit: Feb 2, 2023 at 9:13am by study3600
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01/21-
LORD'S DAY-SUN'S DAY-STONEWALL JACKSON'S BIRTHDAY

Yesterday Paul, Jo's brother picked me up and took Johannah and I to Grace Baptist church where we watched the excellent Christian film 'October Baby'.  Before the movie, I let Johanna read yesterday's diary entry. (Which is a lot different from what I typed back there.) During the movie I asked Jo's forgiveness (For having doubts about her being the one for me, I know it was stupid for now).

....This morning at Church I helped take up offering. Gina did early morning worship, reading Alma 5:46-108A (RLDS) stopping at the word 'church' at the end of the first sentence of verse 108.

An Elder gave the sermon.  When Ken gave the ofertory remarks, I felt the Holy Spirit very strongly. Thank You so much Father for letting me help take up offering today. Amen.
After I was dropped off at home, I walked my dirty laundry to Joy's and started it.

Cecil helped me. Then I started walking home and halfway home Paul picked me up and took me to Pastor Pete's church to pick Jo up. Jo gave me a letter and I hugged her and told her I loved her.  Jo's sister said "as a friend" I said "More than that" But Paul said that Jo's mother said that she (Jo's mother) wants Jo and I to just be friends for now.

I sent Jo a text that said, after I walked home from Pastor Pete's church where Jo went,

Me: We may be just friends for now but  i want to spend a lot of time with you and lets keep writing to each other."

  Then I took a nap after I caught up on a big pile of dishes from two days, and making and eating fried potatoes and eggs.  Then I was picked up by Ken, Gina and Joy for Priesthood Class (Men's Class for me.)  The women met tonight also for their class.  We studied The Spiritual Life by Andrew Murray and Romans 6 and also 5.  This morning in Sunday School we studied Matthew 13.

   On the way home we got a load of water and they gave me my clean laundry.  At home I made dinner-a turkey wrap, cottage cheese, honest tea and black bean habanero Harvest Snaps.

I am about to eat, watch 3 episodes of The Fugitive and write a letter to Johanna.  My radio is on, tuned to Life 88.5 and has been on all day. I am about to take my pills.

Thank You Heavenly Father for this glory-filled day. Amen.

P.S. Jo asked me in a text if I still loved her just now.  I texted back: "Yes. That han't changed."



Last Edit: Feb 2, 2023 at 9:18am by study3600
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