02/02--
FRIDAY

Twelve minutes after midnight.

I'm still up.

I want to, partly for Jo's benefit, and partly for mine, reflect upon my life.

This is Friday Night.  Four or five years ago at this very time I would have likely on this night (02/20/2018-Actually late Thursday night, but I'm glad I thought of Friday Nights on the RU Van) (Friday) been on my way from Reformers Unanimous International (RUI) (Founded by the late Steve Curington), talking to Mark Berberich, my most recent RU van driver. (Actually Brian Bradshaw was after him)  We would likely be heatedly discussing, arguing about or simply having a conversation  about our beliefs, either his in TULIP (Total Depravity of Man, Unconditional Eternal Security, Limited Atonement, Irresistible Grace and Perseverance (The last two heresies Augustine of Hippo taught in City of God and Confessions) Calvinism (though his brand of the Baptist Faith (Independent) believed in Agency (Free Will) and I believe in Limited Atonement, or that Jesus only died for those who would be saved yet bore the damnation pains of the whole world for it was an Eternal Great and Last Sacrifice since the future is not set in stone but only those who ultimately believe on Christ or in Christ will receive any of the benefits of the eternal atonement, so it is not really Limited Atonement at all. Limited Atonement is a heresy that teaches Christ only died for a fraction of the human population of the earth.) or mine in the Restoration (everything to do with Jo Smith, gold plates, angels, visions and continuing revelation and other anathemas to Evangelicals and Protestants and Catholics, and to a great degree most Pentecostals.)  The reason I was going to Reformers Unanimous was because of two things: Porn and Darrel Copeland.


     I had been addicted to porn since I was about 12 years old.  I walked right into Satan's trap.  I will spare you the gory details, but I got free in 2017 by CLAIMING EVERY VICTORY. I am also addicted to food and am doing the same thing to get over it. (Now, in July 2022 I have been under bondage to sin since February of 2018 AFTER my home was blessed because after my home was blessed satan tried even harder to pull me down and SINCE FEBRUARY OF 2018 WHEN I FELL AGAIN THE FIRST TIME TEMPTED BY AN AD ON A FUGITIVE SERIES DVD I STOPPED CLAIMING THE VICTORIES which is why in addition to my bondage to SIN I picked up a familiar spirit which has been tormenting me for over two years. FIRST I NEED TO CLAIM EACH VICTORY and I will hear the VOICE of that evil familiar spirit LESS and LESS and then once free of my porn addiction I can be delivered from that foul evil spirit. This Diary contains the secret and KEE to VICTORY and FREEDOM!!!!!!! Amen! 7/9/2022, 06/2018, 3/14/2025-BLS)

In Michigan on Tuesday nights I typically went to Tuesday Night Meal and Bible Studies at Dayton Heights.  We spent a long time studying Daniel and Hebrews, and had just started Acts when I left the Second time for Zion. (Missouri).

Back to story.  Now Darrel Copeland was a co-worker at Freedom Work Opportunities of Genessee County, Incorporated, when Mark Weeks was my Supervisor and I was receiving commensurate pay at a Work training program rolling along with Robert Tricker trying in vain to find job opportunities when Robert tried getting me to lie about the wages I made at FWOGC, and I was hitting on Jolissa O'Leary then when David Gallagher horned in on her and stole her heart, I hit on Naomi Sue Schmult, although for a time I had tried in vain to win Jolissa away from David and to the RLDS Church..it was at FWOGC that I met Shane Jones in 2012.

I was looking for a church to go on Sundays because since Grandma Marge Sohlden had died in =13.3333px2011 I could no longer go to the Otter Lake or Oakwood Restoration Branches that often because Dad was rarely willing to take me, so I lived too far from a Restoration Branch to be able to attend regularly, and one day, Darrel suggested Trinity Baptist Church.  So I called them (this was after the Associate Pastor (I can say this about him: he preached VERY interesting, enlightening and progressive, stirring sermons and the church North Baptist was VERY truth-filled, having a corner on many hunger-satiating truths about many relevant topics and supported Israel) at North Baptist had rejected me for being Mormon) and a bus from Trinity Baptist came and picked me up.  I met Pastor Ron Scott (A pleasant and amiable, jolly and jovial, upright upstanding fellow, tall and of a good tall Godly stature, glasses, curly brown hair, thickish) who came to my front porch and my front door at my Grandma's and Dad's house I was renting from my Dad for 300 USD/month+cable/internet/phone/heat electricity and water+trash pickup (Dad painted the front porch with a ramp for grandma's wheel chair green about twice or three times a year, and we would have to mow the lawn, shovel the driveway and porch, take care of the dogs Red then soon after Red passed, Buster, who is safely in the care of Lee and Rene Sohlden my ineffable parents as we speak (Sabbath- Day after Friday- Shabbat 7/9/2022 CE/AD) plus we did other kinds of yardwork and roofing) and talked with me a few times to get to know what sort of a person I was. I learned about Reformer's Unanimous, a faith-based addictions program, from him, though I had seen the sign for it before.  After my first RU meeting I was put in Larnell's group.  Soon afterward, I was put in Al Walsh's group.  Al Walsh and I became friends and during a big thunderstorm one night, as both the basements of mine and Dad's houses were flooding because the power was out, Dad asked me if I could call someone who could help us.  I called Dan Browder, who had been my first RU van driver but he couldn't help.  Then I got the idea to try calling Al Walsh. He was able to help by letting us borrow a generator, which helped us tremendously.  It's so amazing how God works! He took my addiction and used it to help not only my Dad's and my houses to get unflooded that night, but to keep them unflooded forever because the incident inspired Dad to buy his own generator! Praise ye Gods! After being in Al's group for a while I was finally transferred to Robert Jennings' Group, where I stayed until I left Michigan.  I probably learned the most from Robert, although I did learn a lot from Al Walsh. and when Shane joined RUI, he too, at my behest, although technically it was against the rules, was put in Robert's group. Robert had been raised RLDS or Mormon because he still carried in his heart an ineffable testimony of the truth of Genesis 3:1-5, 7B (IV), which he shared with Shane once before Robert's death (Robert's wife Katherine drew mine and my aunt Linda's blood at Quest Diagnostics. Small world):

And I, the Lord God, spake unto Moses, saying, That Satan whom thou hast commanded in the name of mine Only Begotten, is the same which was from the beginning; And he came before me saying, Behold I, send me, I will be thy Son, and I will redeem all mankind, that one soul shall not be lost, and surely I will do it; wherefore give me thine honour. But behold, my beloved Son, which was my beloved and chosen from the beginning, said unto me; Father, thy will be done, and the glory be thine for ever. 
Wherefore, because that Satan rebelled against me, and sought to destroy the agency of man, which I, the Lord God, had given him; and also that I should give unto him mine own power; by the power of mine Only Begotten I caused that he should be cast down, and he became Satan; Yea, even the devil, the father of all lies, to deceive, and to blind men, and to lead them captive at his will, even as many as would not hearken unto my voice.....for he knew not the mind of God; wherefore, he sought to destroy the world. (SEE ALSO Sealed Moses 17:19; Book of Abraham 3:27)

It was through Reformer's Unanimous that I met Eric Massey.  One night, a night like this one (more appropriately, a night like tomorrow night), riding home on the RU van, I struck up a conversation with him and he asked me what I thought of the Book of Mormon.  I told him I believed in it wholeheartedly.  After that night, we hung out together a lot. Sometimes he would take me to bookstores where he would buy us books. Once he came to my house and I gave him a lot of the books off of my bookshelf including the presumptuous though accurate Commandments and Covenants by Rick Donovan Leonard who fell by the shaft of death for trying to steady the ark of God. I really wish now in 20 Aught 22, that Eric could find the book and send it back to me because I can't find another copy of it anywhere and it has very vital information in it. I gave him both a BoM RCE and a SBOM. (I sent him the SBOM in the mail at the same time I sent Shane one around the time I sent the Hawaiian man Pilgrims of the Pacific. I think his name was Ray Salmon but I could be mistaken. He was not a believer in the RLDS Church at the time but he did major missionary work for the RLDS Church by digitizing the book I sent him and spreading it around Hawaii.) Eventually I met his former roommate, an atheist. Now Eric is married to Kori Massey, and they have moved to Ludington, Michigan, which is across the state of Michigan from Flushing, where Trinity Baptist is. He works at an ice cream factory there. And eventually, Mark Berberich moved to White Lake, Michigan, also far from Flushing, with his new bride Emily Berberich (who used to be a Monungahala, Pennsylvania Latter Day Sect whose Priesthood is not valid because their priesthood is organized wrongly, so it is not a valid sect of the Restoration). After Mark, my RU van driver was Brian Bradshaw.  I am good friends with his son, Nick Fierro, though we haven't talked since 2015 or 2016 and it was on Skype that we last talked.

Goodnight.  I will resume later today.  I need to brush my teeth, floss and go to bed.


....1:59 a.m. I'm still up.

Around 1:00a.m. Gina called me. She needed me to go with her to Wal~Mart and help her push her bike to the charger so she could hook it up.  It took about a half-hour. I was glad to help.
Now I am going to bed. Goodnight, God, my dear Heavenly Father! I love you!

...Text conversation between me and Johanna:

12:43p.m. Me: How was your day today Jo?

12:44p.m. Jo: It was good how was your day today?

3:36p.m. Me: Good. I rolled burritos and baked mcriddles and biscuits for three hours then spent the last hour on toast and bake and boxed and labeled eight pies and got a lot of cheese out of the walk-in fridge before i clocked out. Then i ate lunch at home and and went with Joy to get get a few loads of water.  At home I called some churches to find out if i can be picked up for Reformation Unanimous.

   Today I talked to Robert Jennings for a few seconds and texted his wife Kathy.  Robert is in the hospital with gall bladder and liver problems.

  Today after a nap I called Mr. Nugent of a church and he prayed with me and told me, Maggie, he couldn't make any promises but he would see what he could do to get me to RU.


     I made three hamburgers for dinner.
I called Mark Sohlden, Linda Sohlden and and Dad.  Dad read me Spanish for a while as I looked up Spanish words in the Spanish dictionary.



     Today Fred's current wife, one of my landlords, gave me a copy of the contract/lease.  The copy of the paper I gave Faith In Christ Fellowship was not my lease but something else.


  Today I poured a cup of water down the drain in my bathroom and yesterday Joy paid my rent, part of my security deposit, and my electric bill with my money.   I have very little money left because of this and won't be able to buy groceries until I get my next paycheck next Friday.

I had two cups of Pero today and read Scriptures, and at the end of the day ate an apple. (My last Pink Lady apple.).

It is now 10:11 p.m.  I will call Jo, brush my teeth, floss, change into my pajamas and go to bed, probably not in that order.

Thank You Father for this day!

P.S. Earlier I called Shane. One of his best friends, Tyler Dighnington, died after a car accident.  Before he died, many people prayed for him, including Shane and I.Last Edit: Mar 14, 2025 at 6:26am by study3600Love is sacrifice.

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