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BEN-ACH'S DIARY JOURNEY 250
2023
06/08-
THURSDAY
12:28 AM After that I had taken my pills and sups, I drank a can of Diet Rite as I continued reading Kit' 's Series of fanfics about Tara the Padawan.
My cat is sleeping soundly and happily and contentedly on his left side on the floor in front of my glass table. My can of Diet Rite is not empty yet.
I'm not going to type any of this Diary until I am done writing in it.
Curiosity always attracts the curious or a teacher-Nancy Drew
You are not confined by the limits you place on yourself- Blind Jedi Master of Blind Padawan in 'The Archivist's Shadow or The Nowhere Story' by Kit'.
12:43 AM Gandalf got up and walked a couple of feet over to beside the left side of my glass table and now is resting on his left side again.
12:55 My cat climbed onto my couch and lay down on top of my Book of Mormon and current Book of Mormon journal on my right loveseat cushion, on his right side, after I got out of the bathroom. I'm still drinking the can of Diet Rite and reading 'The Archivist's Shadow' by Kit'.
1:20 AM I'm not done with the Stories yet. I'm closing my laptop for the night and going to bed. Goodnight.
1:37 AM Before going to bed I cleaned the catbox, careful to gently shut and not slam the doors as per Bobbie and earlier Fred, and read a little of God's Plan of Salvation by Rich Rupe about Jesus being the Everything, or The Alpha and Omega.. My cat is still and currently eating more of today's dry food feeding. Also before going to bed I finished my can of Sodium, Sugar, Caffeine and Calorie-free pop, and put the rest of the cans in the fridge, taking out an old empty vegetable tray that didn't need to be in the fridge. Earlier, when I went up and down the stairs, I crept up and down them quietly, so Bobbie can rest for work and church. G'night!
10:43 AM My cat slept in my bed most of the night. After I went to bed God told me 'Don't forsake your love. Maggie will be with you shortly' and explained the difference between the words 'soon' and 'shortly'.
When I woke up the cat was already out of my bed, and I got up and fed and watered him.
I ate Golden Grahams without milk or water for breakfast, started drinking a Diet Rite and resumed Kit' 's stories, but stopped and rested, lying on the loveseat for a while.
12:02 PM The cat is lying on my prayer altar. I'm in a Telephone Appointment with my counselor Tracy.
He got down off my altar.
Tracy and I talked about three strategies when I am angry or tempted:
-Turn on my radio.
-Take a walk.
-Journal.
2:38 PM I finished typing up The Three Kinds of Christian Churches and finished updating my Media Tracker Book.
I called Pastor Pete and asked him in a Voicemail to call me back.
Now I'll eat lunch.
3:35 PM I have not eaten lunch yet. As I was washing a dish to prepare for lunch, Pastor Pete called me back and I told him I was done typing the tract he wanted to read, and would send it to him in a text. I sent him the text, then reviewed the tract and my notes on it, and listened to Jarom 1 on my phone and my laptop. Then I started listening to the tract and cooking my food. My cat went and lay on my bed by himself. My cat came and lay on my loveseat, on the left cushion, and I ate lunch. I had chicken nuggets and tater tots. It was good.
I logged my reading for the 6'th and the 8'th in Beanstacks library tracker.
Now I'm taking a nap, on my bed.
4:20 PM I confirmed my appointment with Audrey Brooks on June 16, 2023. Now Comprehensive has merged with Burell and is called by that name. I called Sarah who may be my next Case Manager and asked her for a ride there.
After I finish checking my text messages, I'm resuming my nap.
An energy drink that a young man had told me about and a woman had told me was not an energy drink, I was going to try, but for a warning from a cashier of what that energy drink, Body Armor, had done to a friend, that stopped me in my tracks. I got Propell Fitness Water instead.
I'm listening to the audiobook The Merry Adventures of Robin Hood and watching and streaming The Empire Strikes Back. My cat is lying on his left side over to the right beside my loveseat.
I called Rick. He says he'll call me back because he just got out of the tub.
I fed Gandalf a can of wet food today, along with his dry food, and signed to him that I was going to give him some wetfood to get him to come into the house.
Rick called back. He's going out with friends. I'll have to do something else tonight.
I ate noodles and cream of chicken soup for dinner.
As The Empire Strikes Back and Robin Hood played, I read from The Instructor by Gomer T. Griffifths and the comic story Art of War from Star Trek the Manga by Wil Wheaton.
A link to the above mentioned tract: The Three Kinds of Christian Churches | Maraandlukeforever (boards.net)
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06.09-
FRIDAY
I streamed and watched The Simpsons episodes Marge v. The Monorail and Itchy and Scratchy Land tonight in Chill Zone. No one watched but me.
Before that I watched Finding Jesus 2 on Watchify after I fell. It was a very moral kids' movie.
8:36 AM I fell again.
1:52 PM I got rid of all the TV Watching Apps except Disney + and Samsung TV which is not an app, on my phone and replaced them with an MMORPG game.
Now I'm going to try to get rid of Private Browsing on my web browsers on my laptop.
3:44 PM Although that did not work, and I fell again, Pastor Pete called me, interrupting me in the middle of watching porn thankfully. He said it's a heart matter, between me and God and only God can change my heart. He suggested fasting as a possibility, which I am doing now. Pete had read the tract The Three Kinds of Christian Churches (link to it in top entry), with my notes, and asked me how the Reunion Service was. I told him it was about The Spirit of Christ-the Spirit of Peace-the Peace of Christ, and that I had peace during it. Pete said, wouldn't I like to always have that peace? I said I would always like have the joy and peace of Christ and I was tired of living defeated. (Not my description).
I went to lay down, cuddled up with my cat. Satan came to me and in pacific words told me he was God and I had to give up my religion, the Book of Mormon, The Sealed Book of Mormon, Maggie and Star Wars and return to the simple faith of my childhood. . .. Only believe, he later said, and I shall enter into the Kingdom of Heaven, that this Celestial, Terrestrial, Telestial Glory didn't exist, there was only one Heaven, and there would be no Temple because Satan and his emissaries knew that man would never be willing to build it, and to worship him, lest he throw me in hell. I resisted and defied Satan, telling him repeatedly to get thee hence.
4:09 PM I read from pp. 137-139 of God's Plan of Salvation by Rich Rupe. In those passages, I read of the Great Spirit's visit to the Indians of old, who washed off their warpaint and started gathering stones at the Temple Lot, in Independence, Missouri. In 1929, as The Word of the Lord-Elijah Message prophecied, excavation began to build the temple, but for some reason it was not started then. Why?
I read The Word of the Lord-Elijah Message combined Messages 7&8 this morning before I fell the third time.
This is also related to the building and Heaven-Given plans for the Temple.
Lectures On Faith 1:11B-18
Hebrews 11
I told God I feared Him-that He was able to cast both body and soul into hell, and truly repented with tears and weeping. I told God I would rater be called a child of God rather than enjoy the pleasures of sin for a season, that the season of unrighteous pleasure was over.
Wonders, Volume One:Show Me God, pp. xv-xix.
I sat on my front porch and Satan tempted me as I took a walk, then I talked to some neighbors, then walked back to my house to get my journal, phone, pens and charger, then came to Rick's house, installed Pluto TV and put COPS on for Rick, then wrote in my journal.
Mike Pence has spent the last three years selling out Donald Trump.
My ulterior movie for downloading Pluto again to get Newsmax again, which Rick's TV lacks. PBS is laying out a Primae Facea case against Trump Rn in the Court of Public Opinion.
8:11 PM The couple, Beverly and the kids are here. We had goulash with real garlic and Parmesan cheese for supper. I watched Star Wars Young Jedi Adventures S1X2 and played Lord of the Rings. I also went on Twitter. Rick watched some Westerns after he watched PBS News and COPS. COPS is supposed to come on Fox Nation tonight.
We are in the back yard. We just ate. The kids are writing and drawing.
I explained some Star Wars and historical concepts to one of the kids, then they watched movies, then we played games, then I left Rick's, then I took my pills and drank water and a can of Diet Rite, and read Part 2 of a fanfic by UltramassiveUbersue.
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06/10--
SATURDAY-SABBATH
Last night I streamed The Simpsons Episode Sideshow Bob Roberts and S1X1 of Kenobi to an audience, on the Crew in Call 2.
Then I went to bed, but got up to answer several phantom knocks. In the morning I ate two chicken drumsticks and a baked potato and now am having apple juice. My power went out briefly this morning after I fed the cat and gave him water and ate breakfast.
I took a couple of long naps. I called Paul Ludy and asked him to help me research the year 1929, then read God's Plan of Salvation by Rich Rupe, pp 139-140, RLDS History of the Church Volume 3 , p. 440- 442, and an article by Frederick Madison Smith who was President of the RLDS Church in 1929 entitled , 'Who shall abide?'. All this inclined my mind towards Restorationism and my heart towards God. In the Richard Rupe reading, he said that in 1929 they began excavation for the Temple, clearing the rubble away, and found the correct spot for it, and while they were digging, found a piece of limestone that was the original cornerstone laid in 1831 by Joseph Smith, Jr. But why did the work stop? Rich Rupe gave no explanation. The reading from Volume 3 of RLDS Church History was from the year 1866. But the reading from 1929 from Fred Smith gave zero insight as to why the Temple ceased to be built that year. He said efforts were being made and to abide in Zion requires character and capacity, capacity meaning achievement, and character meaning religious standing.
I read all of Diary 250 up to this point. I'm listening to the Book of Genesis about Abraham, Abimelech, and Lot, the Moabites and Ammonites. (Not the Book of Mormon Ammonites). Now I'm listening to Abraham about to try to offer Isaac, but God provided Himself a lamb for the burnt offering, the angel of the Lord forbidding, and Abraham offered a ram instead, and thus Abraham was blessed because he would not withhold his only son Isaac from the LORD.
Lectures on Faith 1:19-24
Returning To Our Roots, Charles R. Swindoll, p. 80-82.
The Best School Year Ever, Barbara Robinson, pp. 18-25.
The Practice of the Presence of God, Brother Lawrence, pp. 45-46.
Streamed on Channel Brent: The Simpsons S18X15-Rome-Old and Juli-Eh.
About to stream S14X3-Bart vs. the Third Grade.
3:40 PM I'm streaming the movie Shadowlands about C.S. Lewis
I'm also listening to some Bible Project Podcasts.
I wrote another story about me going into the past to win Maggie.
6:31 PM I ate two more pieces of chicken and a baked potato for supper and took my pills and had frosted mini wheats for dessert.
I'm still listening to Genesis and have been off and on today and streamed and played RAID Shadow Legends and read The Word of The Lord-The Elijah Message - Message 9 tonight.-------------
I cleaned out the catbox and took out the trash.
I took a nap until 11:00 PM.
The Unibomber died today.
I got up and streamed Itchy and Scratchy Land, Treehouse of Horror XXIX, and Kenobi | Part 2, and read II Samuel 14 in the Expositor's Study Bible. I had an audience and still did for the end of Itchy and Scratchy Land, all of Treehouse of Horror XXIX and Kenobi S1X2.
After streaming Kenobi S1X2, I streamed SW: Young Jedi Adventures S1X3: Get Well, Nubs, the Junk Giant to the same audience.
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06.11-
LORD'S DAY
Last night I had a can of pear halves then went to bed. When I woke up, Gandalf was resting his head on my right shoulder, then his forepaw and his head on my shoulder. He really loves me. I woke up around 6:20 AM and fed him. Just now I gave him some fresh water and said 'there you go' but he has not drinken it yet but is laying by my feet.
This morning's verse was 'the just shall live by faith.'.
This morning before Church I read two fanfics, one by Mira_Jade and one by devilinthedetails. I also participated in a social thread about where the Star Wars Characters would be on the political spectrum and liked a post about the humanization of zoo animal characters in the Penguins of Madigascar. At 8:00 AM I need to call Della to remind her to take me to Church this morning.
9:13 AM CDT Early Morning Worship was about the Full Armor of God and Divine Protection.
There is a board outside in the foyee representing the path of eternal life and contrasting it to the ways of the world that lead to death.
Pray Morning, Noon and Night.
Class is on God's Plan of Salvation by Rich Rupe. The Class is on Replacement Theology or Supercessionism.
"Every one of us is unique, and can touch someone others can't touch. We shouldn't judge or we're in danger...There's fun in putting the pieces together."
-Gordon
2 Nephi 12:73-75;70-72;76-78 RLDS
"If we would examine ourself, we shouldn't worry about the judgment of others."-someone.
In the Church library, I did some more reasearch on the Temple, and shared it with two people. In 1955, one of the Leading RLDS Church Authorities F. Henry Edwards, wrote in Question Time that the Zion Temple would be built based upon the instructions of future revelation. This was ignorance, for there was by this time plenty of past revelation commanding them to build the Temple in Zion, and how, and with what materials, and exactly where to build it.
The Temple MUST be built, for there are GREATER works to do than the Temple building.
All God needs is eight men who are ready.
In Zion shall be the only People who are not at war with each other.
We must let the Holy Spirit guide each of our purchases.
To abide the judgment of the Holy Ghost (the Ananias and Saphira judgment), here is the character you need "all those whose words had been just and true, all those in whose hearts was no guile or deceit", can abide the judgment. Those who cannot abide the judgment of the Holy Ghost are "all those who forgive with their lips, but not with their hearts; all those who have not spoken the true sentiments of their own hearts."
A man told me that in section 108, part of 107 and 109 it was talking about the Temple in Nauvoo, Illinois. I told him that Temple was torn down but must be rebuilt and that the Temple in Far West was not even started, but must be built. I had a vision that beams went from one weather vane of the Temple, to the other, all across the United States wherever RLDS Temples were built, though I did not tell this man of the dream, now you know.
When I got home from Church I reached into the Diet Rite box to get a Diet Rite can and the Lord had created three additional cans of Diet Rite for me! Praise God!
I remembered to say my Noon Prayers today.
I need to clear off my prayer altar and display the Scriptures on it.
I corrected my "74'th" Diary.
Turns out that I have a lot more of Diary 74 left to type, but here's the kicker-He wants me to type it on my DiaryLogSite before I copy and paste it on my Mara/Luke4ever site. So I will.
I'm still drinking the same can of Diet Rite I started earlier today.
4:30 PM I talked to Joy. She gave me a Spiritual pep talk that I needed. My thought-life is my first line of defense against Satan. It's like a bunch of angels with guns lined up against Satan. Satan's looking for a hole in my defenses where he can get in. I'm on Day 2 of victory. This is my Second Day. God will expand my time left a little more with each day of victory but if I mess up, I would have to start all over again.
God told me this Diary 250 would change my life. I know it will. At 5:15 PM-5:30 PM Della is picking me up and taking me to an RLDS Church Service at Waldo Ave. Beranch in Independence, Missouri.
I need to call Pastor Pete.
I updated him on my progress.
He cannot take me to my appointment on June 16, 2023.
On a YouTube video that is about Heir To The Empire Rumors, I wrote a comment: (thanks for giving YouTube comments back to me, O Lord! Amen!) Comment: It is what it is. I accept whatever they do. I'll just adapt Episode 13 to it. The Rumors are about Dave Filoni's Movie.
Della (or some Agency) gave me four Books and one CD from the Odessa Hills Reunion:
*The Priesthood Journal
A Quarterly Magazine
Reorganized Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints
Use And Abuse of Spiritual Gifts Vol. 6 April 1, 1940
Number 2
*Letters To Ron by
Harry L. Doty
*Extraordinary Blessings of an Ordinary Christian
by May Elliott
and
*The Master Sculptor
Plus other stories and sermon ideas from the
Armed Forces
Newsletter
Written and Edited by
Pershing Tousley.
Chairman, Armed Forces Committee
I'm watching a Variety Interview of Diego Luna and Hayden Christensen | Actors on Actors.
6:36 We had a song service, and the sermon prelude is about Unity. This is part of the Summer Series of the Pastors of Zion and CMRB. There will be refreshments.
No one on the rostrum is above the office of Elder. How sad. I believe that's intentional gatekeeping on the part of the POZ.
From now on I will no longer concern myself with who my wife is going to be, nor am I going to be a sign seeker.
When a wrong happens, don't let it get cold. Don't just counsel patience, right the injustice: Do not keep score.
Don't withdraw rather than deal with the situation and can grow into bitterness, and that bitterness can get worse and worse.
Don't compare yourself with other people. Compare yourself (with Christ.)
(Decide against yourself to do thy Father's will.)
Brent: Unlike nature, we can go against our own will and do the will of the Father. Nature automatically does the will of the Father.
Andrew King: If nothing changes, will the Church survive?
We can work on ourselves, but while we are working on ourselves we can be a light and inspiration to others, to kingdom-building enterprises. We need to do all we can ourselves and keep God's commandments and His Sabbath Day Holy.
God himself will have to see to the building of the Temple; he may have to raise up a people to do it.
Pray against all evils.
Maggie is the one I'm going to marry. Don't forsake her. Remember the kiss. But don't seek for signs.
A parent's life is a child's guidebook.
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06/12--
MONDAY
I messed up yesterday evening after Church. I struggled, resisted, but was overcome by all my previous unchecked thoughts and gave into Satan's temptation, which was my fault. I asked for the temptation.
I signed into my regular account on YouTube on a private Firefox browser and was about to watch porn again when a video stopped me, saying that after I've had a lot of days of Victory, the best thing to do is prove to myself (and to God0 that I am a better man by doing something else like playing video games and 'skipping the meal'. Also he recommended the Blocker X App on my phone, but gave no advice for my laptop. (Also it was not a religious video at all).
So I streamed Mike Matei playing a literal 1 Million pack of NES videogames including a Regular NES Version of Super Mario World and a weird version of Contra, and some rather strange SMBROS mods. Also he played a Bible game, which both intrigued him (the Bible verses in it) and freaked him out. He said he didn't know anything about religion. Most of the way into the stream of Mike, some people joined me including MonsterRuss. I showed him and one other an episode of The Simpsons, a non-Treehouse of Horror Halloween Special from Season 27 and showed Russ Cape Feare from Season 5.
Now I am showing him Episode 3 of Kenobi
I fell again. Then I slept. As I had on 'Gospel of John Movie' Jesus said 'Get Up, take your mat and walk'. So I did so, I got up out of bed, took up my sleeping mat and walked out of the room into the living room and said 'I'm free of porn forever'. Jesus said, in the film, 'repent, lest a worse thing happen to you.'
Just as I was warned before.
While I had been streaming I showed Russ some of my RLDS Scripture books.
The Jesus I know is a combination of the Jesus in 'The Chosen' and the Jesus in The Life of Jesus Full Movie by Jesus.net.
5:28 PM I've been having a fantasy about Maggie with some sex u al parts and some missionary parts, where we're going out and bringing people to Jesus.
6:13 PM I heard three knocks, loud and clear. I went down to investigate and said 'Show yourself-who knocked? Maggie, where are you?'
Bobbie accused me of disturbing the peace. I know I heard three very loud knocks. I had been in the middle of reading Restoration Voice, an article about the Apostasy of the Ancient Church, when I heard the knocks. I went downstairs and opened the door and there was no one there.
6:59 PM I microwaved chicken nuggets and tater tots then went up to KC's to grab a Coke. I had a good dinner. Now I'll call Rick.
9:20 PM Darth Jar Jar came to a new discord server I started. He again proclaimed Junk_bow as lord and said Junk_bow came to him in a dream, and showed him the healing power of meth (an evil drug) and delegated some of his power to him and told him Leviathans were mistreated. I countered Darth Jar Jar's lies with the truth and warned Maggie on YouTube that Junk_bow was after her, and then after Maggie heeded the warning Darth Jar Jar said Junk_bow will rise again.
The Ad Blocker Browser isn't working on my phone anymore.
I had to ban Darth Jar Jar around 10:08 PM because he tried getting me to summon him through a satanic incantation he posted and I immediately deleted while not looking at it, covering it up with my hand. I deleted all of Darth Jar Jar's messages.
Kwanson is not a believer but I was able to prevent him from becoming a disciple of Darth Jar Jar.
I'm making a three-hour long videorecording for Maggie.
But I might cut it short to keep my commitment to Russ.
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06.13--
TUESDAY
The video was only 51 minutes long but I did not post it to YouTube because a sex u al demon manifested in it, so I streamed The Simpsons Episode The Front and Treehouse of Horror XXVII (Russ only saw the second one with me) and then Kenobi S1 Episode 4 then The Clone Wars S3X6, then bed.
I fell big time.
Shane's evil angels told him to cut me off again because weed gives him more joy than he allows God to give him. When I tried warning him not to be a signseeker and tried to correct him, he cut all ties with me. He accused me of leading him down a dark path because he knew true facts and took them to the extreme without wisdom to balance his knowledges.
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