04-08--
FRIDAY

2:42 AM From 3:40 PM- now I spent the entire rest of the day in bed, getting up only to take my pills and go to the bathroom.
Yesterday I had another fantasy where angels baptized me, then after I got home from Monkey Mountain where in the daydream they baptized me, in the daydream a heavenly owl led me out my window to a Grand Council of the Gods, where they had me take the Minutes, then they approved them, then after the motion and the second to adjourn the meeting, I learned to do many things, Maggie met me in heaven in the daydream, and after we learned things together, and apart, we returned together to our apartment because we were married shortly after that in the daydream, and shortly after our marriage in the daydream the fantasy ended.  I had no dream about Maggie tonight.

   Bill Weise also was taken by Jesus into space and was shown the earth as a globe, hanging on nothing.

   The phrase "circle of the earth" in Hebrew is "sphere of the earth" a round 3-D object; a globe.


8:06 AM Well, I was right.  I was not scheduled to work Thursday, but am scheduled to work today from 9-11 AM.


I got a Zion's Call Magazine in the mail, and saw a dream in it about brokenness, purple flowers coming from brokenness and purple being the color of royalty.  Then I saw naturally =13.3333pxoccurring heart shapes all over the ground on the way walking to work from about the Seventh Day Adventist church to Hardees.  Then, at McDonald's, I saw a purple sticky note on the ground, on the rocks:

                     It said,

                              Bus #8
                               690-****

                     Brent'

Since I don't have my phone, I can't call and see what this number is right now.

Yesterday I spent the entire day without any electronics at all.

8:38 AM I borrowed Ernie's phone.  It turns out the number was for Apple Bus and the Manager's name was Brent- and it's a school bus company, so the note was not intended for me at all.  Whoever the note was intended for probably got it already then littered with it. (Or they may have tried to throw it away but the wind blew it out of the trash).

  But the note could have been a sign to me that God is up to something, and to wait, and be patient.  After all, I did see all those naturally occurring hearts today. (I saw call, call and phone and call in Zion's Call today, all on two pages back-to-back, so I figured I'd follow up on the lead)



8:48 AM              12 minutes 'til Time.  I had two large Dr. Peppers.  I did not have breakfast.  I slept from 2:42 AM-7:30 AM, got up, got my uniform on, and walked to work.  I packed three Diaries and one of my Sealed Book of Mormons.  It was cold so I wore my winter hat and winter gloves in addition to my Visor and jacket.

8:54 AM 6 Minutes 'til Time.


Acts of the Three Nephites 3:11 I speak of this, because of the iniquity and unbelief that increased among the Nephite people from time to time, and of the many times that the three of us were taken out of the midst of the people and (p. 144) regarded as slain by those who knew us.  This happened for the first time one hundred years after the coming of Christ, when all the disciples had already gone to the paradise of God except us three but the whole first generation of those who saw Jesus had died.

It is said that John died in Ephesus around a little more than 100 years of his age, but we know according to the Scriptures that he tarried.

This is the same thing.

9:02 AM Two minutes past Time.


Carrie Couch and Megan Oakes are here.

11:16 AM I gave Ernie my new website co-Administrator (whenever he takes the job for he agreed to it) my Mara/Luke4ever website address.  He has a laptop and desktop. at home, experience running a business, and experience with computer coding.  He is a very good fellow maintenance man, very skilled at his job.  At work, he is a Godsend!  I thanked God today for answering my prayers for a good fellow maintenance man who wasn't minded to just up and quit his job.  This man is serious about his work.

     I asked Ernie to time me with his phone for a half hour so's I don't spend (Mm...bagglers!) an hour and a half in the crew room like I did last time I was here eating and talking to Jennifer (God said don't go for the redhead, she's not what she seems.) so I love Maggie only.

    To get the maximum bang for my buck, so to speak, I again got two McChickens and a medium and a large fry like I did last time.  A 20-pc Chicken McNugget goes by way too fast and doesn't fill me up.  
This goes by slow and fills me up.

11:34:48 Ciou. gotta go.

Ima hit the bathroom, drink a crew cup or two of Dr. Pepper to settle my stomach, then Ima go home. (walk.)


12:19:59 PM Before I left work, I checked my hours and gave Cameron my website address.  He said he'd check it out on one of the days he doesn't have School. 

12:23:30 PM  I am concerned about Colt.  Pete, Mark nor I have heard from him for many days.  It's been too long since an update.  Lord, wherever he is, let Thy mercy and Grace find him. Amen.

Thank You, Father for saving Shane Jones.  Amen.

12:43 PM I called Colt's mother (Colt left her number here) who said Colt got a new phone.  I called Colt.  He wants to stay in Kansas City.  He says he might be getting a job at Wendy's, and then saving up for some wheels.  I reminded him he missed a court date.  I next accidentally called his father, left him a message, then updated his mother.

                                                 I borrowed my neighbor's phone, who lives across the street in a house.

Praise Gods that Colt is alright! Amen.

Along the way home I saw a naturally occuring bust of my head, as I was about to turn at the head of Clinton St.


1:35 PM CDT I asked God to show me something in the Restoration Voice #262 that either affirmed or denied the things I believe to be a part of Maggie and I's past.

My finger fell on a passage where I underlined two things-

*existed before (36-two lives)
*all their lifetime subject to bondage (which was true of us until 1989.)

Thank You, O Father, for these life-affirming truths. Amen.

1:39 PM  In about 22 Minutes, I'm turning off my Chromebook (Which has been shut since before yesterday, but on), turning it back on (to erase the history on it), then making Ernie a co-Administrator on my website (if he joins it today) Maraandluke4ever.

Then I am to check my messages on that site.........
(More justification for breaking the terms of God's Technology fast for me)

1:44 PM I took a nap from the time I got home from work to about 1:35 PM, then got my mail.  I got two Restoration Voices, one of which I gave to a neighbor.  she has lived there with her boyfriend since Misty moved out, and that was, shoot, about a couple years ago, maybe three.
Wow, how time flies! Seems like just yesterday I let John borrow Embraced By The Light and Misty screamed and hollered telling him to get that s--- out of her house, tossing the book outside then ripping it up, when it wasn't even John's book but mine.  Fortunately the bookstore had a third copy because I gave the next copy I got as a parting gift to Steve Bock, hiding it in his bag for him to find later and read out of curiosity, and I hope it changed his perspective on things if he read it.
The third copy, I'll keep forever, for the Scripture saith,

Buy the Truth,
And sell it not.

   It was so good I bought it three times, and even sent an email to Mrs. Eadie, correcting her misconception about the nonexistence of hell and Witnessing to her of the Great Restoration Glorious, as I had once witnessed to June Hunt.

     She was evidently reading the Book of Mormon too because she used the key BOM phrase 'done away with' on her radio program, but her mentor was staunch Evangelical Traditionalist, Hank Hannigraph, the 'Bible Answer Man', who was intensely anti-Mormon, so I'm not sure how June Hunt fared.  But at least I planted a seed.  But seeds need water, good soil and time and sunlight, and nourishment, to grow.

I ought to send my African friends Seventy Kingsley Zecharias, Regis Muhire, and Rutumbuguza Jean De Dieu emails to see how they fare.  None of the three has heard from I their mentor in a long time.

I can only hope Elder Zecharias has held true to his Testimony of the Sealed Book of Mormon.
Regis Muhire waited six years to be Confirmed! Wow! That's commitment!

It is 2:00 PM.  One more minute 'til Time!

Three seconds...Time!

2:03 PM About to turn off the ChromeBook.

2:04:05 About to turn on the ChromeBook.

2:04:41 Going on www.maraandlukeforever. (Created temporary shortcut).

2:07:02 logging in.

2:08:08 Ernie has not signed up yet. I'll wait.

     I am commanded to take my Diary everywhere.  As Colt assured me once, I'll always find something to write about.

I'm going to Rick's.  I need to use his phone to give Pastor Pete Colt's new number.  Also, we should have a visit.  Maybe he'll have something good to drink there.  Bye-bye. (4 now) 
Ciou.

2:38:07 PM On the way home from Rick's, I saw purple flowers.

   At McDonald's, I saw three people- two women and a man with black sweatpants with white stripes down the sides I have come to associate with Maggie.

All the signs point to - - sommin's about t' happen!

2:42 PM I put the list of numbers- now with 2 added- Colt's and Rick's, back on my counter.

2:42 PM I put my winter gloves and winter hat, which I didn't have to wear to or from Rick's, back in my top left dresser drawer, in my bedroom.

2:43 PM I put my next 3 Diary 40 Diaries on my tray table by myself, in my bedroom, at my writing desk, with my open and on ChromeBook awaiting its job to make Ernest a co-Administrator if'n he joins my website t'day.
Don't worry.  He will soon.  He has just been busy taking care of things at home or etc., until now. (Tuesday 05/03/2022 CE/AD Later today I'll call him on the Internet phone service and see if he can FINALLY come over for our music lesson and his registration and Administratorship-BLSKV) He also has domestic concerns to attend to.  I'll wait patiently, pressing 'refresh' every now and again to check.  I am not......(more fast-breaking justification-BLSKV)


This, Part I of Diary 40 or XL, is like what I used to think was my first Diary, because of the stars and moon on it, and the lines coming from the moon.  Part II of XL will be a Blue Diary that says 'GOAL GET 'EM' and has diagonal stripes.

PART III of XL is brown and hardcovered. PART IV of XL has a flowery design, and is very colorful and EMPTY, with PART I of it filled by DIARIES 16, 32, 33 and 34 (both hardcopy- and digital Diaries the same in these instances; however starting tomorrow, I will put a whole bunch of my Diaries with one, two or three entries only, into two Diaries, 38 and 39, but keep this one Diary 40, for now (the number of it will likely be significantly higher soon, for there may be a very LARGE influx of new Diary material coming just around the corner, or gerrade um die Ecka.

All the signs point out that soomin's gettin' reddy t' hap'n!

I see my new Psych Dr. On April 19, 2022 in 12 Days.
      
       My next appointment with Haley is Thursday the 14'th at 2 PM CDT.  I need to ask her for transportation to see my new Psych Dr.  Also, maybe there'll be time to show her part 3 of The Force Awakens. (THREAD CONTINUED THIS DIARY, DIARY 40, IN ENTRY FOR THU, 04/14/2022 AD)

I'm now writing at my dining area table, standing up.

I work tomorrow, from 9:00 AM CDT-11 AM CDT.

Once more, I'm taking my Diarie(s) to work with me.
   I think that if Ernie, my friend from work, has gotten to my website, that he's exploring it and possibly asking God about it, because he is a Believer.

When David sent me his letter the other day, it came written in a card with the following Scripture:

II Timothy 4:17 But the Lord stood with me and strengthened me

"We met with the Saints in the usual prayer service at our little chapel and on the following Sunday evening opened up at the opera house where a fair audience greeted us and very attentively and respectively listened to what we had to offer.  The topic I chose for the opening round of the campaign was that portion of the Doctrine and Covenants in which the Lord expressed a command that no one should break the law of the land, asserting that he who kept His law had no need to break the Nation's law.  The full quotation is as follows:
                                                                        "Let no man think that he is ruler, but let God rule him that judgeth, according to the counsel of his own will; or, in other words, him that counseleth or sitteth upon the judgment seat.  Let no man break the laws of the land, for he that keepeth the laws of God hath no need to break the laws of the land; wherefore be subject to the powers that be, until he reigns whose right it is to reign, and subdue all enemies under his feet.  Behold, the laws which ye have received from my hand are the laws of the church, and in this light ye shall hold them forth.  Behold, here is wisdom."
                                                     Conditions in Utah at the time justified the use of this text, for they were of a peculiar and distressing character.  Warrants had been issued against a great many leading men of the church for breaking the laws against polygamy, and they were avoiding arrest by keeping out of the way of the United States marshals. Numbers of suits had been planted, arrests made, fines assessed, with terms in the penitentiary for some--all of which was being endured with a mock heroism, which, in some cases, almost amounted to pathos.
                          In my discourse I sought to show that in instituting the church by revelation in this land, the Lord had given it a sufficient guarantee that he had a watchcare over the Government, that he had indeed, raised up wise men to organize the Republic and to establish the laws by which its citizens should be governed.  As a consequence, no one who professed to believe in The Book of Mormon as a revelation from God (included in the phrase all classes and factions into which the church had broken up at the death of the Prophet and patriarch), was at liberty to introduce the teaching, or establish the practice of any dogma that was in contravention or disregard of the laws of the United States, over which God had, in such purposeful manner, exercised supervision."-Joseph Smith III, The Memoirs, p. 222.

     The only times to rebel, or, to not obey is either when the government is Antichrist (in which it is time to not follow all its laws)
or
    "When in the Course of Human Events, it becomes necessary for one People to dissolve the Political Bonds which have connected them with another...."
which is not our job now, but the job of Donald Trump and his close associates.  It is not our job to start any war.  All who believe so are violent by nature.  It is not a time for violence.  If there were to be a bloody civil war now, the Powers that Be would step in, declare Martial Law, and put many freedom-loving Americans in FEMA camps. Put away your guns.

   But if the laws of the land conflict with the laws of God, then remember, that both the Three Holy Children and Daniel were all justified in disobeying the law of the land in order to keep the Law of God.

But all things must come to pass in their time- RDC 64:6C.
There is a Brent who just died, a Brent who sneezed, a Brent who is very sick, and a Brent who is reading a book, a Brent who is watching TV, Brents who have been dead for years and Brents who are outside this apartment taking a walk.--But they all, every last one of them, have Agency-to every single last one of them in the Grand Ensemble, all things that are not ludicrous are eventual. All ludicrosity will come to pass in conceptual realities, such as cinema and stage and bookcraft.

  Quantum Entanglement, which has been proven in a science lab in space, verifies these facts.

The double slit experiment disproves determinism. Free will exists. Even the Gods and angels have free will.

  Some believe that there is no space, nor gravity, and that the earth is under a dome, completely flat and fixed.  They are ignorant of real science.
   Men used to be burned at the stake for asserting that the earth was round.
    Were the earth flat, America could not have been discovered and no core samples could be taken in Antarctica, nor could the earth be hollow.

Bill Weise also was taken by Jesus into space and was shown the earth as a globe, hanging on nothing.


  The phrase 'circle of the earth' in Hebrew is 'sphere of the earth'. A sphere is a 3-D object.

  And my friend Pastor Bob has seen satellites from the ground.

I am numbering my new Diaries from Diary XL on.  I'm now on p. 175.

Introduction to Musical Knowledge p. 11.


6:05 PM Starting to type Diary XL, watch Maths videos and Old Republic.

When you are born there is a solemn vow: You will have nothing.  Your privilege is the dirt.  The oaths you swear; the promises you keep; they are yours alone.  Your birthright, the losses you suffer. Your entitlement; the pain you bear.  And when darkness comes, you will not face it alone.


-"Star Wars" The Return of Revan Part I, one word added to the quote, only part of the quote quoted.  Word added to make it true.

  You are not supposed to say, say, three hundred and six for 306, but three hundred six, for the word "and" implies a decimal!


Addition and subtraction can be defined as one another.

A minuend is the thing you are subtracting from.  A subtrahend is the thing you are subtracting.

Property of Ø for subtraction.

Subtractive Property of Ø

A number subtracted from itself is Ø.

3 + Ø = 3
3 - Ø = 3:

How addition is like subtraction.

10:58 PM Wow! An offworld Ewok!

11:08 PM I just watched 'The Return of Revan Episode I-The Alliance.'  It was a four-hour long movie, and it was excellent! It had a lot of anticlimactical scenes at the end, making for a rather slow ending however. The sequels improved on this flaw.  I started typing this Diary.

I need to go take my pills.

04/10--
LORD'S DAY

As I communed with God in my sleep in the depths of my soul, while God mentioned my past, not confirming my delusions but meaning Jr. High, High school and the Hogan only, he did confirm that my hopes and dreams of marrying Maggie were not in vain.

Church was good.  There was a Spirit of Revival there.


Desserts is 'stressed' spelled backward.  It's ok to eat dessert, but you don't want to overdo it on them like I did today, I had one too many brownies, and I didn't need that slice of cherry pie.

6:02 PM I think I missed my ride to Church.

6:09 PM Rick will give me a ride to Church.  I'll be about 20 minutes late, but it's better than not being there for the fun and good Spirit that shall attend us.

I read a quote and testimony from Joseph Smith, Jr when I got home from Church today, then took a nap to ponder it.

  The devil was up to his old tricks again, convincing me that I was married to Maggie already again, and convincing me, once more, as he always claims, that 'I will wake up with Maggie in my arms'.  Alls I saw when I got up from my nap was Junk_bow up to her shape-shifting-in-the-shadows ways, kind of like what is described in Chapter 3 of Book The First of A Tale of Two Cities by Charles D i c kens.

  When Rick gets to the Church with me, I'll invite him a second time to come in.  Maybe he'll sense the Spirit of the place and desire to join in our activities tonight.  Father, I pray that he does. Amen.

But Rick declined.

I just must wait to start teaching Ernest piano and learning guitar from him.


  This morning, I went to Pastor Pete's church around 9 AM, called Mark Strychacz in the church's prayer room because they were showing a video in the sanctuary, and Mark picked me up and took me to Church.  I heard him honk his car horn and ran from Pastor Pete's church to in front of my house around the corner to Mark's car.  Church was awesome and something in the Church Bulletin reminded me of something God told me in my sleep about Maggie.

   To call Rick, I used my neighbor's phone, to my left, the boyfriend of the woman I gave a Restoration Voice Magazine to the other day.


I have a bunch of phone numbers with me right now.  I'm taking them to Church with me with my Diaries and pens.  My next Diary, Diary 40-PART II, is blue and says 'GOAL GET 'EM!'  The first part of it is occupied with 'DIARY 12'.

When I foolishly got rid of many of my Diaries at the behest of the demonic voices in my head, I lost a LOT of very good infrmation, or energy, for information is energy.

    Negative and false information is the Doubt. Positive and True information is Fe. Selah.

7:23 PM CDT Church was fun!  We played 'charades' with Scriptures scenes. We all had a blast!

7:54 PM CDT @ Rick's, visiting with him.  He did not come to Church.  Gordon dropped me off at Rick's house.  We are sitting outside in Rick's front yard.


  I called Pastor Pete and he wants me to research Covenant Eyes.

Rick mentioned that Pastor Pete himself could be the one monitoring my internet activities.


10:00 PM CDT Rick and I have been inside his house visiting with each other.  We are watching an interesting movie on TV  about a woman named Mariel and her sham marriage to a famous champion swimmer in an arrangement where she gets the money and he gets the fame.  I'm hoping they fall in love and the marriage becomes a success.  But she told him she didn't love him and removed her ring and left him. Sad.


  I read a few passages out of the KJV and other possibly various versions of the Bible. I drank an X-tra Large Dr. Pepper.


10:19 PM According to the March 27-April 9, 2022, Volume 98, No. 9, on the front page; top article, O'Biden's SCOTUS appointee Ketanji Brown Jackson, according to "pro-life legal experts".."she is a far left choice who will likely be no friend to the movement defending the rights of the unborn."

According to Rick, three Republicans voted for her at her confirmation hearing, including Mitch McConnel.

According to Rick, Mitt Romney was protesting with Black Lives Matter.  The sad thing is, he's a Mormon.

When I get home later tonight or possibly early, early, early tomorrow morning, the first thing I's needs to do is dos research, ons Covenanteyes, and reports mys findings to Pastor Pete next chance I get.

I have agreed sometime to go help Mark Strychacz on his farm, help out new wing construction at Church and possibly, if he ends up needing it, letting Rick borrow my laptop and teaching him, or possibly Pastor Pete teaching him, or both of us together, or one at a time, or both, how to use it.

     According to a woman on Fox News, in the Media, Peter Ducey is, I think she said, 'Fantastic'.

"Often people are breaking then law as a cry for help"- A man on Fox News, who offers real solutions to homelessness.

*Shelter first.
-Just giving people an apartment who want one is not the solution.

* Treatment first.

-The root causes of homelessness are mental illness and addiction.


I do not believe that everyone who is homeless is either mentally ill or addicted to something, for not everyone who is either of those is homeless. Some people can just be fallen on hard times.

12:20 AM

Watching Kathy Lee Gifford's, 'The Jesus I Know', a very good religious program on Fox News, waiting for Greg Gutfield, my favorite social commentator of questionable faith, to come on later.

   As I watched this program, I told God, "You've reached down and touched her, and so many others' lives and changed them, taking their addictions away, and I know you can and will do the same for me," and in front of Rick, on my hands, knees and face, begged God to change me, and to forgive me (while sitting on the couch) for cursing and blaspheming the Father in my mind before the last time I watched porn at home, (saying all blasphemies against the Father shall be forgiven) and what I do is an abomination, and on my hands, knees and face begged God to rip the spirit of addiction off me, then sat on the couch, cast out the demons in me out loud and said off my generational curses.

      Rick takes about 15 supplements, trying to take the most important ones tonight.

      Earlier, he asked me if I was still taking my Apple Cider Vinegar tabs, I said, sometimes, but I still take them.  So is he. We don't want Morgelloths.

Some pages of this Blue 'GOAL GET 'EM' Diary XL- PART II fell out and I used some of Rick's Scotch Tape to fix it, telling Rick of dreams that I never had and things I never did. When I was a kid I dreamt of being a Cartoonist.

  But dreams without education and training are just that-dreams.

Rick says he does not want to rent a Chromebook; that if he has to, he'll just borrow my laptop to open a portal to get the medical records he needs for his colonoscopy. (However he took care of all of those record-getting needs over the phone later-07-07-022 CE -BLSKV)

I have just observed a Democrat (Moderate) (Macherin) who actually says he wants border security. I am quite literally shocked by that. I assumed up to this point because of a Democratic congresional creed someone posted on MeWe that all Democrats in Congress follow one Radical Leftist Agenda to destroy America. Could it be true that there may be some congressional Democratic holdouts from this clearly stated and known creed? At this point, I don't really know. This 'Moderate' might be putting on a front; a show, his possibly pretended opinion being that he is actually for border security. At this point, again, I don't know and will hang it on a peg for now.

         Greg Gutfield is not coming on this morning; Rick was mistaken. Rick observed that its a good idea that I journal and that I journal about things, from what he has observed me reading to him, that are important to me.

04/12-
TUESDAY

A LITTLE AFTER 11 AM      Colt is no longer staying in a tent with his friends.  He is staying in a sleeping bag at night wherever he chooses to lay.  When it rains or snows he seeks shelter somewhere.  He still seeks a job at Wendy's.

1:03 PM Pastor Pete took me to get food help at the Community Services League for food help.  Now I'm much more stocked up on food and soap.  Lots of soap.

(PAGE 297)

Today I started the book 'Morning Is A Long Time Coming'.

(PAGE 298)

At first as I began to read this book I wasn't sure whether this was the sequel to the book I read in high school, Summer of My German Soldier, or not, but was not disappointed when I put my doubts aside and got a little further into the book.
I think its narrator, Patty Bergen, is stuck up, conceited, rude and arrogant, and selfish; however how can you expect anything less from a girl who does not know Jesus Christ as her Savior, who is without God in the world, who, as a Jewess, was taught by her tradition, not to believe in Jesus as the Messiah.
    I would not recommend this book to anyone who has not first read Summer of My German Soldier, but would definitely recommend it to anyone who has.

   Another thing I notice about Patty, to look at the good side, is that she is a strong woman.  She is very opinionated and doesn't care all too much how she looks, though she cares a great deal what others think of her.  Also, she lacks self-confidence, not thinking very highly of herself and her own abilities, but has journalism aspirations.  She doesn't think of herself as worthy of being loved, not even by her grandparents. 

Due to the decrease in my work pay, my SSI is being increased from $634.24-$841.00 beginning in May!  I am very thankful to the Lord because of this.

I am very close to getting my genie in Hero Wars, and have 1 day and 6 hours left to do so.  I have certainly earned her.

(PAGE 301)

"Because all the time I was hiding Anton (a Jewess hiding a German Soldier during WWII) in those abandoned rooms above our garage, I knew I might get into trouble, but I also knew that it wasn't wrong.  Nothing that God would consider wrong!"

Takeaway: Sometimes God would never consider wrong something that you might get into trouble for, such as all those days I put up Colt in my apartment to keep him safe and warm and off the streets, though both my landlord and Joy chided me for it, God did not. Now I pray Colt gets himself off the streets of Kansas City, or someone helps him out, and does for him what I did for him, for sleeping in a sleeping bag on the streets of a big city like Kansas City MO/KS is no way to live at all.  He may get hot showers, Cable TV and food and an opportunity to be gainfully employed, but he needs a place to live and be reasonably comfortable, and to hide and be safe when the Zombie Apocalypse starts. Amen.

I'm watching, or starting to watch, the Star Wars Holiday Special, which I absolutely love.  I hope Ernie comes over today, but I need to be patient.

"Put your pen to paper, or your fingertips to the keyboard, and you will likely find something to write about, for your heart and mind easily flow from out the tip of a pen nub or through the electronic synapse connections that goes from a computer key all the way to a computer monitor."- Brent Lee Sohlden Koivopolo V, on 6:21:43 PM CDT (and at 6:28:57 CDT) on a very sunny and warm Spring Day in April, possibly just before all hell breaks loose in my life, and as he wrote the quote it was daylight and bright, and he was in his bedroom lying on his bed.

(PAGE 324)
____________________________

I played Hero Wars, listened to Holy Spirit music, watched Star Wars YouTube videos about Jedi and Clones and love, attachment and possession, and typed and posted links to Star Wars Episodes 17 and 18, and posted links to the rest of my Star Wars Scripts on my two discord servers.

12.30-
THURSDAY

(PAGE 361)

I'll watch 'The Empire Strikes Back' now as I type more of Star Wars Episode XVII: Edge of Victory.

....5:00 PM I'm here early at Pastor Pete's church.  I walked counter-clockwise around the block to get here.  I taught Jo's sister a little bit about piano keys, sharps, flats and chords, and encouraged her to have someone teach her how to play the piano.

The Empire Strikes Back is paused at home on the scene just before Han and Leia go to Cloud City on Bespin.

I told Troy and Paul Jo's brother about Colt's situation in Kansas City.

6:03 PM Pastor Pete taught me a little about how to properly use a sound board as part of my music education.

He said that I'm his record on dealing with someone who has a porn problem; at least that has told him about it.

I told him that if I'm good on the ChromeBook for 3 days, that I can have my phone and laptop back.  I do need them back, before, or at least need to use them when I have to report my paychecks to Joy on Friday.

I told Pastor Pete that according to John 13 Jesus shared communion with those who were close to him and you had to be his True Disciple to partake.

"What are we, heathens, then?" Pastor Pete asked.

"Your part of the Body. Your communion is for you.  My communion is for me." I replied.
Pastor Pete said if anyone puts any Doctrine or Covenant ahead of the Bible, they were wrong, and that their Communion was for all who come.

We ended the conversation there.  We didn't argue. We just talked.


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I sent Troy a link to my Mara/Luke4Ever Website.

He tried looking at Star Wars Episode 12 but it told him that he had to be logged in or to register in order to view it.  That puzzles me to no end.  Is that the reason no one signs up or posts, because they can't see anything I write?

  When I go home I had better make sure that on my Admin panel I have 'Everyone' selected on who can both view and access my Movies and Shows board.

  The difference between a seder meal and Communion is Communion is an abbreviation and a seder is a full meal (also seder is open to all Christendom and Jewry while Communion in the restoration is only for Restorationists - BLSKV) - Pastor Pete to Rick.


His sermon today is on the Feast Days of the Lord- God's Calendar.

He says most churches don't think about God's calendar-
God's calendar.

We miss out so much when we don't keep up with what God has done- Pete.

God wants us to study these things- Pete.

Leviticus 23 (Message was to Israel....)
: holy convocations...My feasts..Shabbat...holy rest...holy convocations which you shall proclaim at their appointed time.

In Jewish homes, and in the homes of Messianics-some Christians, these feasts will be observed.  Some will know the True Meaning of it.  Some won't.

They celebrate the meal and tell the story.

(All their lives) they hear the story over and over and over again every year at the same time...year after year after year after year they would remember these particular days.

..

These days here.. he called it a holy convocation a rehearsal.. every year they were rehearsed.

Around AD 33 something they had been rehearsing came to pass.  The death, burial and resurrection of Jesus Christ.  You move later 50 days from that the Holy (Ghost) came (in power)

They (these) are shadows. Shadows of things to come -Paul.

Friday night they will thank Jesus for dying on the Cross for them, think about Him, Celebrate Him (and take their Communion).
(Think about) going seven days without Leaven.

Are you going to be a second-rate Christian if you don't do that? No. But will you miss out on a Blessing? Yes.

If you don't remember Jesus on Passover night, does that mean you're not a Christian (believer)? No. By being conscious of these feasts- by being mindful of them.

..When we think about what Jesus has done for us...

God is so cool to put this in the Bible, to tell the same story over and over again, providing us with opportunities to pass on the Faith (for) they tell the story of Salvation.

.....If you and I were at our table, like Moses, with his family, like Jesus with His family, telling that wonderful story, how that bread (and that wine) (and that Lamb) was for our cleansing and sanctification.

  We think about the Feast of Atonement and the coming Judgment and then the Feast of Tabernacles when Jesus is coming to establish His Kingdom.

...This is a time when he drew families together, and he also drew families to Jerusalem.

Getting together with Believers is a (wonderful thing).

Pity the lonely.

The cool thing about these Feasts is that they are Prophetic in nature and not all of these have been fulfilled.

In Leviticus, in that one Book, in the outline of all history, right there in that one chapter, (those Prophetic Feasts).

Do you not realize.. that During the Millennium, Jesus the King will be observing the Feast of Tabernacles?

We can't say that the Law is done away with, for it's not all fulfilled.  (The handwriting of ordinances which were against us- the law of ordinances- no longer applies, is nailed to the Cross- I disagree with Pastor Pete, said the Moral Law will never be done away- the Hebraism meaning of the word "until" meaning 'perpetually')

....Think about what (we can learn from (studying the Feast Days).

(Fasts can make you conscious of being on them for we have broken our routine) and make you more conscious of, of what God has done for us.  If a leaven (fast) can help us be mindful of God, (it can't hurt)

Nisan is Abib

Nisan is Babylonian.

Abib is Hebrew.

BIBLICAL HOLIDAYS:

SPRING HOLIDAYS

(FULFILLED)

PASSOVER: JESUS' DEATH.

UNLEAVENED BREAD: BURIAL

FIRST FRUITS: RESURRECTION

-50 DAYS-

(THEN)

PENTECOST - HOLY (GHOST) (CAME IN POWER TO THE CHURCH)


FALL HOLIDAYS:

(UNFULFILLED)

TRUMPETS: (SECOND COMING)

DAY OF ATONEMENT:

(JUDGMENT) (BEMA)

TABERNACLES: (COMING KINGDOM)


THE JEWS ALSO CELEBRATE SABBATH, NEW MOONS, THE TWO DAYS OF PURIM AND THE FEAST OF DEDICATION, OR CHANNUKAH.

04-16--
SABBATH-SATURDAY


12:50 AM "That's an awful lie! It must be true."-Return of Revan Episode II.

Sometimes, it can be a delusion.

I missed work yesterday.  I shant today.

7:54 AM I messed up last night.  A big heavy devil sat on my chest over my blanket and tried grabbing my feet early this morning and promised to haunt my dreams and I dreampt about a demon pursuing me in my room and in my bathroom.

The other night I dreampt that Apostle and Brother Joseph Smith, Jr. assured me that I'd get over my porn problem.

I work Friday and Saturday from 9-11 AM next week.

8:20 AM CDT

   I miss Maggie.  I would move heaven and earth to bring her closer to me from wherever she is.  I believe she lives in a house in Bates City, but as the song goes, she's so close, yet so far away.  I love her so much. Maybe if I give up my porn addiction she will suddenly come back into my life.

One can only hope.
  I don't see any end to my addiction unless Pastor Pete chooses to buy Covenant Eyes for me.

I should only have eyes for Maggie.

I love Maggie.

I can't explain why.

8:29 AM  Mom and I used to play Monopoly Junior together.  Grandma Marge and I used to play Star Wars Monopoly and Simpsons Monopoly.

Randy asked me how I'm doing.  I didn't answer at first.  Then I sighed and said, "ok".

Ok, just ok, without my friend Colt; with my friend Colt fending for himself on the streets of Kansas City.

Just ok with still no one posting on my website, even when they promise to.

Just ok with friends abandoning me, saying they'll spend time with me then forgetting about me altogether.

And no Maggie is sight.

Yeah, I'm just ok.

I'm thankful I have a job, an apartment, food and clothes, but there's just no joy.  Just no joy.  I feel terrible.

I feel like I'm showing hatred for God by refusing to give up my porn addiction, but I could never hate Him, because He's a Good God, and He's done so much for me.  But I grieve the Spirit and slap God in His face and spit in it, every time I look at porn and self-pleasure, and I worship satan, and myself and my parts.  Where is the love of God in that?  I drag the name of Jesus in the dirt and I glorify and bring great pleasure to satan.  It's so awful!

My life is a shambles.

I make next to no money at my job.  I practically live off of the government.

Heaven would be so much better than this miserable existence.  I don't wish this kind of misery that is my life on my worst enemy.  I don't want any one else to be as miserable as I am.

11:40 AM Work was fun. Although I had adverse circumstances (described this morning before work.) I had a song in my heart.  Although I really didn't want to be joyful, I was.

  After venting my frustrations to my friend Dayton after work, telling him my plans, he decided to give me a ride up to the library to take back my Chromebook and check out 'On The Edge of The Divine' by Sandi Patty.  Then he dropped me off back home, and went back to work.  He was on his half hour meal break.

  Later I need to go to Rick's house to use his phone to call Pastor Pete so he can give me my laptop and phone back so I can report my wages to Joy.

  Actually, I don't think I have to 'till closer to the end of the month, two weeks from today.  I will just have to live without electronics for the time being.  Let that be a lesson to me.  I'll have more time for God this way.


   How do you keep an elephant from charging? Take away his credit card.  How do you keep a Brent from looking at porn? Take away his electronics.


12:22 PM CDT  I called Pastor Pete on a neighbor's phone and told him I had taken back my Chromebook to the library to the library and now had no electronics but in about two weeks I needed my laptop and phone again to report my wages to Joy my current Payee, then I'd give my laptop and phone back to Pete if he couldn't trust me with them, or I thought I couldn't trust myself with them yet.

Pastor Pete has both my phone and its charger.

1:29 PM Heading back to the library.

2:29 PM @library. I walked here. I got situated on the computer by opening up Revan Episode II and my 40'th Diary to type it, and my 40'th Diary also to write in it (hardcopy.).

3:06 PM The Return of Revan Episode II is over.  Star Wars Episode VIII: The Last Jedi is beginning (The Insert Coin Fanedit).

3: 12 PM I had to switch computers.  I was sitting next to a young woman named 'Land', or 'Earth', or was it 'Crown'? I'm not sure if she was in her early 20's or a Teenager.


7:06 PM @home. Along the way home from the library I had two distinct fantasies about Maggie, one brief, one much longer.

   I bought a beef stick at Casey's for 2.10, and am about to eat a potato with Mayonnaise on it, to go with it.  All acidic, so I will eat a lot of alkaline pistachios to temper it.  I also have WalNuts,. but may eat some of those later.

  I liked The Return of Revan Episode I better than the Return of Revan Episode II: Not only was there more action, the plot was a lot easier to follow.  The things I like more about Episode II than Episode I is Archon's redemption and a power-hungry female Droid (like the Droid leader of the Exchange before (or after?) her) and the fact that unlike Episode II, Episode I ended with a ton of anticlimactic scenes that could have been simplified way more.

    I enjoyed watching The Last Jedi and typing Diary 40- Part I today.  I also watched Truther videos on B i t c hute.  Now I will enjoy my hot potato with Mayonnaise after I account for my 2.10 beef stick in my accounting book.

     On Second thought, I'll eat Pistachio's some other time and have a big alkaline can of green beans instead, after my potato.

7:31 PM CDT I'm having a can of mixed fruit after I had the green beans, which is heavy alkaline.


10:43 PM @ Rick's, on his front porch, waiting for him to come home.
                                     I messed up at home, writing a dirty story and drawing a dirty picture and getting off on it.  There is no excuse for such lewd behavior! None!

I came here to visit with Rick but he is not here yet.  I surmise that he is probably at his friend Paul's and Jo's' sister's:

The day had been perfect had I not messed it up at the end of it with my lewdness, O Father! Although I made things right between us, 'twould be better had I not done what I did!

It's too late to call Pastor Pete tonight.

I'm supposed to be spending my time reading and communing with God!

Having no electronics has not helped mestop looking at porn, it just made me evil enough to create my own.

I need a porn detox.

Under a delusion, I was afraid, I sang some verses of Broken Hallelulia, Redeemer of Israel and Rise Up O Saints of God, prayed that they would spare my life (I thought wrongly we were being invaded by enemy Sino-Russian soldiers) and gave myself a eulogy and epitaph.

'I did my best, but it wasn't much, be that as it may' was The bottom line.  But I walked away, singing Broken Hallelulia, then more than halfway down Rick's street, I ran! - all the way home,. and locked my doors, sheltering in place. I had thought I sensed that things were nearing the end and falsely sensed that something big was about to happen, having fantasized about this and now demons were making it manifest through my fear and paranoia.

The truth:


There is a global currency reset going on rn as they are trying to use bitcoin and blockchain to break the global bank and 'go green' eliminating the 'carbon footprint' by abolishing cash. This is in the process of happening rn as we speak with Trump trying to establish the New American Republic.  Meanwhile Q (The Beast's image, Tyler) continues to spread misinformation about the powers that be being summarily executed and replaced by Clones and Deep Fakes (among these so-called executions have been the Antichrist Obama, who can only be destroyed by Jesus Christ and the Queen of England, Elizabeth II (who by the time of my typing this is dead anyway.) .). Trump continues to Trust (or appear to trust? ? ?) Qanon.

11:51 PM Making Macaroni & cheese- style noodles and mayonnaise for supper. I'm hungry.
       
      I need to start reading my books.  Not just talk about doing it.