04/19--
TUESDAY

      Today I got my phone back, and played Hero Wars on it for a bit, then turned my phone off to conserve battery, for I do not have my charger.  Steve charged it for me.  That was very nice of him.

     I called Mark Stryhacz, and he will be picking me up for Church tomorrow at 6:40. Tomorrow I should be getting some spending money from Joy.

  I took my trash out today.  I'm having a breadless hamburger for supper.  I'm taking my pills right now.

   ..I ate a can of green beans and a can of peaches.  I'm taking a shower and going to bed.  Goodnight.

04/21--
THURSDAY





Although I messed up last night, the dream I had this morning more than made up for it, as I was let know (my name means God Bless You With Wine and Run and Run) by the JCRB that my streams (and my sister's streams) were appreciated and loved worldwide.

  God told me, 'What, you didn't think you were being noticed?'

  So I will maintain ownership of my machine and stream and stream.

10:42 AM I have $5.00.  I went to the local Bookstore, then to Casey's, then home. I watched the movie 'Sonic The Hedgehog 2'.

3:28 PM CDT Colt may be able to go to his next court date!


Pastor Pete found my charger!

I think the LORD is dealing with my heart about giving up soda (he wants moderation).

Pastor Pete prayed with me about my porn problem.

Matt Rissman of Echo Base Network complimented me on putting a lot of time on all my Star Wars material, but he has not gotten to it.  I told him how do you eat an elephant? One bite at a time.


  At China Buffet today, Joy taught me two secrets:

  The secret of not being contentious and the secret of getting over an addiction.


1.) Plant seeds, don't drive down stakes.

2.) Do the next right thing, and God will show you the next right thing to do.

That's it.  It's that simple.

When you want to teach or tell someone something

1) Don't say it just to be contentious and
2) say it once and only speak further on it if someone asks you questions.

Do that for everyone in the world.  It's not going to be easy.  But it will take me from being a pushy person everyone hates to being a person people can learn from.

  The moment it starts to be an argument, shut up.
        
         In the dream I had this morning, I was given a book of Revelations to people and the Churches of Christ.  I saw visual representations of the first few Revelations, and was in the picture myself of one of them, experiencing it.

      When you do what you want to do instead of the next right one thing, you are more likely to get into trouble.

      The wakeup call was when Pastor Pete started to doubt that I was even saved!

           Drink water and add fruit juice to it.

     You can put put frozen blueberries in water to flavor it.

      Ok, now I'm all set. I was sitting out on my front porch.  Time to go in.  I am streaming.

   Don't go after the mysteries of God until God makes us ready for them.  If we put the cart before the horse, we might be getting into things we ought not to be getting into.

    I told Joy I taught Shane how to try the spirits properly; that he is led by angels and now rejects the false ones.

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04/23--
SABBATH-SATURDAY

I got up this morning; put my uniform on.

8:05 AM My heart is desperately wicked and deceitful above all things.  God told me Maggie knows the Truth and I don't, earlier, and if my heart, one voice last night, and one dream are contradicting everything God has told me and every dream God has given me my whole life, then I shouldn't listen to them.

Satan wanted me back on Facebook.

I'm having a Dr. Pepper because Gordon said although overuse of soda is wrong, it's ok to have a "Pepsi" once in a while.  At 11:00 AM today, I'll be having about 9.00 worth of french fries.  I could have a salad too (but I didn't) , maybe, if they even sell those anymore.

8:44 AM I talked to Shane.  He is on the right path.  He told me I'm worried about nothing.  He read my diaries, led to them by angels.  He said I'm right about most things, but wrong about some things. His brother is a Knight of Columbus, which is not a good thing.  O Father, deliver Shane from having to take shots! Allow him to take his meds orally! Amen.  If you hear ringing in your ears, if you heafr it in your  right ear or left ear, it's angels talking to you; remove yourself from all distractions.  Left ear: Either an angel is warning you, or telling you something bad is happening, or that someone in the world is talking bad about you.  Right ear: either an angel is telling you something good is happening or someone in heaven is talking about you.  The Great Spirit and Angels protect Shane.

    The angels I thought were deceiving me, 90% of them were true, 10 % were false.

My "delusions" are past lives lived out on other earths and somehow the Illuminati (Pronounced Illuminat-Eye) knows this.  So on every earth me and Maggie have been to it has always  been Brent and Maggie, but I have known many other loves.

We are all old souls here.
Law of Conservation of energy.

On the way home, God told me, in blessing he will bless me, and in multiplying he will multiply me, blessed shall I be in my downsitting and in my uprising, and in me and in my seed shall the whole world; the whole universe; the whole multiverse be blessed; kings shall come of me, and nations, and planets.

The Rise of Skywalker is most of the way over.

3:43 PM I talked to Steve Logan for a while.  We're on friendly terms.  Now he pretty much knows my living situation.


Monday I need to call Joy and ask her for money for an innertube for my back bike tire and light bulbs-the hallway light went out.

Shane said that I may think I'm running out of time, but I'm on God's timetable, not mine.

CNN+ was a failed experiment that lasted only one month.


3:55 PM I'm watching some more of Revan III on my ProBoards site.

Can energy be corrupted?
Can corrupt energy be uncorrupted?

Ponder this.

As I was making my Daily Schedule, I remembered that Shane had told me, emphasized greatly in fact, right at the time I had heard the rushed voice to make a Daily schedule in the first place, NOT to rush my alone time with God and soul-searching, that it took him 3 months of deep soul-searching, and he warned me that if I rushed it I will let the enemy in.  So I don't have it right yet.  I MAJORLY rushed it, and definitely let the enemy in.  A daily schedule, rigid as it is, may not be the answer though I will surely publish the one I came up with, and I'm on God's clock, not mine.

I must remember not to be hasty and if I don't find the answer soon, my heart will be sincere in due time.  He told me this warning was a sign from God right after I rushed it and started making my rigid schedule.

    Now  I remember the words to that song, because NOW is the time for it.  It came to me this morning on the way to work:

       "Busy, busy bee,
              full of self-sufficiency"

That's me! or would have been had I started to continue to follow that rigid schedule and put myself on my own clock, not God's.

    But in all this rigidity I managed to get my piano/keyboard out from under my bed and set it up in preparation for practice. Praise Gods!

    Shane told me to 'do my best okay'.

5:00 PM Well, I  did practice the piano for almost 30 minutes, but it was because I wanted to, NOT because it was on my schedule.


     Around 2014, the Ukrainian people, a'la Black Lives Matter, rebelled against righteous (I called it) Ukranian President Viktor Yanukovych and installed a pro-EU, pro-NATO government (and might I add, with Nazi ties.).


  I was led by a train of thought and research involving YouTube, breitbart and Gettr, terminating in being led to watching the Oliver Stone Documentary 'Ukraine On Fire', in my dig or search for the Truth behind the recent Ukraine-Russia crisis.


 Shane to me: .....and since my buddies respect me they will not tempt or pressure me into weed again no more he said he respects my decision and everyone else is understandable, tbh I just learned a valuable lesson and figured out God let this happen for a reason I don't know why yet, but he will tell me in due time, though..... 

04/25--
MONDAY

My imagined day, conceived of two days ago....

7:30 AM Wake Up! Get ready for work!

9-11 AM Work.

11 AM Lunch at McD's.

12 PM Call Shane.

12:30 PM Alone time with God.

1:00 PM-4:00 PM SW Time.

    -1 The Mandalorian Season 1 Episode 2
    -2 The Bad Batch Season 1 Episode 3
    -3-4 The Clone Wars Season 4 from where I left off.

4:00 PM Piano Practice

4:30 PM Scripture time.

4:45 PM Good book time. Edge of Divine

5 PM Supper - Fish Sticks. Listen to Radio/CD's.

6:00 PM Write in Diary.

6:15 PM Scripture time.

6:45 PM Read Maths book.

7:00 PM Work on website.

7:45 PM Write fiction.

8:00 PM Scripture time.

8:15 PM Read Music book.

8:30 PM Social Media Time

9 PM Write in Diary.

9:15 PM Meds. Teeth. Bed.

My actual day....


   *Haley called me on the way home from work! She rescheduled our appointment to tomorrow @ 9 AM and said she'll work both to find out who my new Psych Dr. will be and to get me set up with an appointment with him/her.

*Joy called me at work this morning before work.  She is pleased that I was clean last night and with the activities of talking on the X-Wing voice chat and streaming and going to bed that I chose and told me that I now had my tax return of $1,000.00 in the bank now!

Today is a cold, sunny windy Spring day.

3:01 PM Twitter will soon be under new management! Elon Musk is going to buy it for 44 billion dollars!

4:41 PM Good news! Haley called again. My new Psych Dr. is Audrey Brooks and I see her on May 11 @ 10:40 AM, and I have one more meds refill until then!!
      Can't wait to see Haley tomorrow morning at 9 AM! It will be fun!

04/27--
WEDNESDAY

I am writing on my loveseat.

I'm going to try going back to sleep now.

Shane texted me telling me Haniel and Michael told him to unblock me and that my prayers was answered.

12:15:16 CDT We're on our way to pick up Colt for his court date.

1:26 PM Colt is here at my apartment. I took a nap until 3:16 PM. Colt is lying on my couch watching funny Internet compilations on his phone.

4:03 PM I'm feeding Colt and I fish sticks and I gave Colt his mail I got -- an overdue  notice, and told him the fine will be no more than 2.00 and he could check books out while the fine was still on his account, and told him about the Food For Fines Program.

4:05 PM Colt's fishsticks are almost cooked.  Pastor Pete should be here around 5 PM to take Colt to his court date.

..As Colt did stuff on his phone, we listened to Life 88.5 and Bott Radio Network.  Anthony Fauci claims Covid is no longer at Pandemic status. He said it on PBS.

After 8:33 PM Colt is going down to the convenience store to get some cigarettes. He'll walk back.  His court date went great. He only has to pay a fine.

Colt experienced a Wednesday Evening prayer meeting for the first time today.  He gave a Testimony after I did.  Colt also learned what administration was and witnessed an administration for the first time.  John and Von administered to me for my lust addiction and the spirit of lust was cast out of me.

Dee said she can help with my music education. She wants me to bring Alfred's Basic Piano Course-Book A with me to Church one Sunday.

We dropped Colt off in Kansas City and I handed him his bedroll and Pastor Pete prayed for him and we left. Pastor Pete prayed for me when he dropped me off at my apartment tonight.

I did quite a bit of my dishes today and yesterday, or the day before. Getting that huge frying pan washed after it was so filthy was not easy that day.
I'm nabout to eat a baked potato with Mayonnaise.

I practiced the piano a little today.

..No mail today.